What should I introduce myself as, though?

Not exactly having an idea what to do next, I walked away from the balcony and went back into the hospital. I made my way to where Baekhyun’s room was but Xiumin and Jesper weren’t back yet. I had no idea where they went. They left before I even realized just now. What should I tell Baekhyun’s parents then, without Jesper? It’d be plain awkwardness, furthermore, their son was in such condition.

I’m not his girlfriend. I’m not his wife. We aren’t even trying to date now. Are we even friends? We are only related because he got me pregnant for no apparent reason and I gave birth to his son. Wouldn’t it be awkward? I naturally slung my hand into my long curly hair and flipped the hair I had in hand backwards, making them fall onto the sides without following the original parting as I withdrew my hand.

He’s usually very careful on road. It was left at your text before it went off. What Chanyeol told me when we just got here replayed in my mind. I stopped walking for five seconds as it hit me and I continued to walk aimlessly.

Was it my fault that got Baekhyun into an accident? . How am I supposed to even face him or his parents? If I don’t, how are we supposed to even visit him? Come only when his parents aren’t there? How am I even going to know when his parents are gonna be here?

And my thoughts escalated from those to…

Should we even come to visit him... ?

I was too engrossed with all the thoughts of meeting Baekhyun’s parents I didn’t even know where in the world I landed myself at. I looked around me, realizing it was a total different environment from before, and definitely no one had time for me. There were nurses rushing around, family members accompanying their loved ones, doctors running towards the surgical theatre… I went to the nearest counter and asked for the directions to go to the ICU area and I barely understood what the impatient nurse was trying to tell me. Afraid of annoying her, I quickly thanked her without actually understanding what she said and I left.

I took out my phone and I briefed through my kakaotalk contacts. Suho should be busy dealing with s. I just lashed out at DO and Chanyeol. Chen and Lay are filming. Xiumin is with Jesper. Kai and Sehun… Maybe I should call Sehun. I voice called Sehun without a second of doubt as I made the decision.

After what seemed like a century to me, he finally picked up the call.

“Hello,” he greeted. “I’m sorry… Sehun-ah, I don’t know where I am right now…” I said embarrassingly. “Are you still in the hospital?” he asked and I could hear footsteps across the phone. He was probably walking out already. “Yeah. But how do I get back to Baekhyun’s ward?”

“Just stay there. I’ll come and bring you up. What do you see around you? Any signboards that you could read?” he asked. I immediately saw a signboard nearby that says ‘gynecologist’ in Korean and I read it to him. “Okay. Give me a few minutes.” he said before hanging up. I stood by the nearby wall and leaned against it, fishing Baekhyun’s phone out from my bag. Ah… I don’t know his lock screen password. Remembering I had five times before it would be locked by itself for a minute, I simply tried for fun. I keyed in his birthday and obviously it was incorrect. I shrugged and typed in his next possible kin’s birthday. His son’s.

Tsk. His iphone was unlocked. He knew Jesper’s birthday? And he uses it as his lockscreen password? That’s new. Probably Jesper told him. Hmm. Why did I even unlock his phone? I stared at his phone with a total blank mind for a few seconds, not registering anything at all.

[ Sally Cherry ]

[ Monday, March 25 ]

[ 00:38    Thank you for today. See you tomorrow. Goodnight. ]

[ I’m sorry for causing you trouble by trying to get close to you. I think we should set boundaries for each other so you wouldn’t have to face anxiety issues anymore. Let’s |send| ]

The message stopped right there. I could briefly predict what he wanted to say. Let’s not meet anymore? But, no… No. Was that the reason why he suddenly turned so cold? Yes, he was the reason of my anxiety issues but I had never thought of blaming him. One day, I’d have to face it and deal with it as well. I couldn’t be avoiding the celebrity I liked the most forever, could I? What more to say when he’s Jesper’s dad! No, Byun Baekhyun, you did NOT just think that way and almost had yourself killed. He did almost die because of me. It was because of me. How am I supposed to face him now?

I locked my eyes on his phone screen and my brain literally stopped working. I was stunned at the same spot for I-don’t-know-how-long until I heard someone calling my name. “Sally!” Sehun ran over to my side and panicked a little, “Hey, hey, why are you crying?” he said as he quickly wiped away the tears on my face. Am I crying? I looked up at him and he was still busy wiping the tears away from my face. Sehun had disguised himself before coming out, of course. “Is that hyung’s (Baekhyun’s) phone?” he suddenly asked.

I lowered down my head to gaze at the phone and I solemnly said in my cracked voice. “Yes…” I broke down and cried the moment I answered, All the stress building up since last night just erupted like volcano. I had