Its Monday. Since the failed Escher date last Friday, Yixing and I have not contacted one another over the weekend. It's a torturous weekend. I miss Yixing already. But I don't have the courage to contact him. He's probably hurt. Is he also angry with me? That's why he's not contacting me? Is this finally the end?

***

Monday classes are the worst. Monday blues made worst today by the estranged situation I have going on with Yixing. I can't seem to get him out of my mind. And I don't know what to do. I guess I know what's the right thing to do, but I can't. I can't accept Yixing's love. I'm scared to.

***

It's recess break. My heart pounds as I enter the canteen. What am I going to do when I run into to Yixing? Is he going to ignore me? Is he going to look at me with hatred in his eyes? I sit down with my tray of food and discreetly scan the room. I don't see him. Did he not attend school today? Oh no! Is he sick? 

"Oh look Bo! It's Yixing! Is he gonna serenade you publicly this time?" Yoona teases.

I look up and see Yixing take the stage. On certain Mondays, E.P. sets up this impromptu open mike stage during recess break, whereby students are encouraged to spontaneously perform on a mini stage in the canteen hall - usually sing, dance or play an instrument. It's meant to be an outlet for students to destress and express themselves creatively.

Baby looks gaunt. My heart aches.

Yixing sits down on a stool and brings up his guitar. He speaks into the microphone, "My final plea. Please listen."

Then he starts strumming the guitar, locks his gaze on me and performs this hauntingly beautiful but heart-breaking song, singing the lyrics:

"Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble & fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere I would've followed you (Ooh-oh)
Say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something..."

When Yixing finishes his song, his eyes look watery. I look at him and I feel my tears welling up too. I clutch my aching heart and make a quick exit to the ladies lavatory.

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*The song Yixing sings is "Say Something" by A Great Big World.