Kwangmin's point of view

"A proposal?" Her flickering and playful expression disappeared as they became serious and solemn. Narrowing my gaze, I wondered what Marie was hiding under her sleeves full of trickery. 

"Kwangmin… are you willing to lose Hayoung? My eyes widened, taken aback. "What are you talk-" She smirked, raising a finger. "Don't even try to deny it. I already know about you and Youngmin's little fascination for the country bumpkin." I gritted my teeth at her insult. 

"I'll ask again… are you going to let Youngmin take Hayoung away from you?" Biting my lip, Marie's words echoed in my mind.

" I…." There wasn't anything I could say. Slowly, Hayoung's face appear in my mind like a distant fog. Her bright eyes, her radiating smile concealed by a mysterious haze …. 

Everything about her drew me in and it terrified me. Even though I knew what it did to my heart, these lingering feelings, I gladly accepted the torture, willing to do anything if it was to be by her side and yet...

Why was it that I could still feel myself slipping away, regardless of how desperately I tried to hold on? 

No matter how I tried to reason with myself, I couldn't help but become angry. Fueled by jealousy, the same question haunted my thoughts. What did Youngmin have that I didn't?

The same face, the same smile, and the same laugh… we were twins. We were supposed to be identical in every way, but why was it that whenever it came to Hayoung, I could only feel how different we were?

So many times I had wanted to lock her away in my own personal cage, unable to escape. Even if I had to chain her heart down, I wanted to keep her with me... It disgusts me how weak I really was…

The idea of Hayoung being with someone else made me shiver. I needed her… why couldn't she see that? How else was I going to breath? How else was I going to live?

"If we work together, I promise you… we can have what we both want." Marie's gaze was intense, understanding my pain. 

Looking away, I bit my lip. Tempted by her offer, I wondered what I should do. 

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I wasn't stupid… I knew even if I were to hold Hayoung back, her heart belonged only to her, uncontrollable. What she wanted was her decision, I couldn't take that away from her because…seeing her tears were more painful then this own stabbing sensation in my chest. 

Even if I had to watch from afar, if it was to make her happy, I had to convince myself that I would be fine…but was I strong enough to do that? 

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Youngmin's point of view

As if something bursted inside me, I felt a surge of energy overflowing. All this time, I had been so hopeless, already convinced that it was over, that there was nothing I could do, but as I stared into her bright and twinkling eyes… I felt that hope returning.

"Please let me stay by your side." Her words were like a key that unchained the iron grip from my body. Slowly, I felt my breath return. Without realizing it, my body moved on its own, not believing what I just heard. " This isn't a dream... right?" My voice stained with desperation, trembled. 

Chuckling softly, she remained still as I held her tightly, too afraid to let go. "I want to be with you." Her words were soft, melting like honey. Smiling brightly, I laughed like a child, not able to contain my excitement. 

Suddenly, realizing my foolish behavior, I pulled back, trying to act calm. My lips betrayed me as they lifted upwards, smiling helplessly. 

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Hayoung's point of view

I discovered a new side to Youngmin today. My heart fluttered as I stared into his sparkling eyes, taken aback by his radiating smile. His teeth gleaming white under the lamp light, were like jewels as I studied this new expression. 

I had never seen him smile this brightly. The thought of him smiling like that because of me…it filled my heart uncontrollably. My eyes widened as he suddenly pulled me in his arms. 

I felt my body relax as I heard the soft thumping of his chest besides me. 

Ba-thump…ba-thump… Ba-thump.

I closed my eyes as I listened to the beautiful sound of his heart, praying silently. 

Please..

Even if it becomes difficult and even if I'm scared…

Please let me remain by Youngmin's side….  let me continue listening to his beating heart, just like this... just like this

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Kwangmin's point of view

"Well,?" Marie stared down at me impatiently, waiting for my answer. The raging fire in my stomach began to die down as I felt my body calm. The memory of the hospital rooftop appeared in my mind, reminding me of what Youngmin and I had promised.

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" I'm not going to let you win." Youngmin declared, his passion burning through his eyes. I smirked, also full of competition. "That's not for you to decide."

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 It was true. What Hayoung wanted, and what her heart needed wasn't our decision. It was her's.

Perhaps it was then, at that moment, I realized I needed to give it all I had, or at least until the very end. Even if I had to endure this pain longer, I will not give up. 

"I'm not going to help you." My voice was stern in the dark and silent night. "What are you saying? Are you just going to let Youngmin have her?" Marie barked at the idea of her losing him. I shook my head, smiling softly. " I am not going to play dirty tricks in order to get what I want… and neither should you." She gritted her teeth, annoyed. 

"I don't understand you… I thought you were willing to do anything." She challenged. Her gaze became soft, trying to figure me out. "Marie… Do you know why you will never be able to win against  Hayoung?" 

She bit her lip, clenching her fists. " What the hell are you talking about Kwangmin?" I sighed, looking up towards the sky. " She will never need to deceive others to make them fall in love with her." I turned towards Marie, staring at her hurt and averted gaze. 

"If you really do still love Youngmin… then fight fairly. That's the only way you can stand a chance against her." 

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Hayoung's point of view

The alarm buzzed repeatedly as I shuffled my fingers towards the night table pulling off the plug. Opening my eyes, the sunlight warmed my skin as I studied the brightly lit red and white room.

Laying in bed, my body felt unusually light. Remembering last night, I covered my face with the comforter, smiling. Chuckling softly to myself, I blushed as I placed a finger to my lips.

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"I have to head back now." I could't look at Youngmin as he stood outside the door. Nodding, I shifted my feet nervously. I didn't know why I couldn't look at him … but every time I stared into his eyes, the sensation of his kiss would linger back, making me flustered and disoriented.

"Hayoung?" I looked up, curious of the sudden softness in his voice. Suddenly, he stepped forward, gently kissing my forehead. Taken aback, I froze, my eyes widening. Slowly, I felt a warmth trickling out of my chest like melted chocolate.

 It was this very reason why I needed him. Who else was able to make my heart feel this way?

After a long moment, he pulled back, staring into me with his unreadable eyes. I touched where his lips had been, blushing deep red. My breath was taken away as I stared into his dark brown eyes, enchanted. "Thank you…"

His words was gentle… honest. 

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Like a foolish child, I grinned to myself. Grabbing the pink peach bun doll Youngmin had bought for me at the side of the bed, I poked at it playfully. Closing my eyes, I breathed deeply, unable to control my beating heart. 

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Youngmin's point of view

Something changed, I could feel it. In my chest, where there used to be this leaded ball weighing down my emotions, was now gone, and instead filled with fluttering excitement. She had chosen me. 

I stared at my reflection, curious of perhaps I looked as differently as I felt. I almost didn't believe it was real… yesterday. It was too much like a dream, too perfect, but when I pulled her in my arms to make sure, I could feel the warmth of her body, the light scent of her perfume. It was too real to be fake. At that moment, I knew… this was reality.

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Kwangmin's point of view

I couldn't help but notice something strange. I studied Youngmin as he flipped through the schedule for today's shooting. His eyes, the usual dim and dull brown, were now bright and lively. Raising an eyebrow,  I wondered where he had gone last night… by the time I came back to the room, he was already in bed, sleeping. 

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Joining the rest of the members at the dinning hall, I eyed the extravagant American breakfast buffet in amazement. 

"Morning." Minwoo yawned as he looked up from his comic book. "Where are the girls?" I asked, searching for Hayoung and Joori, who were nowhere to be found. 

" They're coming down now." Dong Hyun said, sipping at his coffee. An apple in my hand, I sat besides Hyun Seong and Jeongmin, who were already working their second plates. Fighting over the last piece of bacon, I avoided their violent sprays of syrup cautiously. 

" Yah!" Dong Hyun yelled. "You know we have to dance today so stop eating so much!" He warned, using his rare leader tone. " Calm down, hyung." Jeong Min waved his hand, stuffing his face with pancake. 

"I don't understand how you guys manage to be so thin even after eating pass your own body weight." Dong Hyun shook his head, oblivious of the powers of teenage boys. Hyun Seong and Jeongmin, similar to dogs, wagged their tails as they continued to fight over each other's plate. 

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Hayoung's point of view

Outside in the hallway, Joori waved as she caught up to me. " I'm so hungry!" She cried as we got on the elevator. Smiling, I especially appreciated her bright energy. Raising an eyebrow, she smirked as she stared at me. "Did something good happen last night?" My eyes widened, taken aback by her sudden question. "What do you mean?" I tried to brush off her suspicions. 

"I don't know…. you seem unusually lively today." She smiled devilishly. "I think I just slept well." I lied, not knowing how to say "I kissed Youngmin last night." I began to blush just thinking about it. 

As we waited to reach the ground, I began to wonder what Youngmin was thinking, what he was feeling. Was he as jittery and emotional as I was? 

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Once we stepped out of the elevator, I suddenly halted when my mother stood before me. "Oh! Good morning Director." Joori chirped happily. "Good morning, Joori… Hayoung." Her eyes were twinkling as I softly smiled at her. "Have you eaten yet?" Yoo Jin asked, sipping at her black cup.

" We're about to meet the others now." Joori answered. "I see... well before then, could I have a moment with you Hayoung?" Taken aback, I felt the curiosity rising. " Me?" I asked, surprised. 

Nodding, she smiled slightly, indicating it was nothing to worry about. After a moment, I agreed, promising to meet up with Joori afterwards. She waved as the doors closed, leaving me and Yoo Jin alone. 

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Walking into her office, I was in awe. Even more luxurious then the hotel room, the office was sparkling against the sunlight of the large window. The rectangular table filled up most of the room, except for the pure black sofas at the side, and the miniature kitchen at the opposed end. Entering, I began to feel small at such an unfamiliar and professional environment. 

"Have a seat, would you like something to drink?" Yoo Jin asked, displaying hospitality. I shook my head as I nervously sat on the leather couch. 

" How is everything? Do you enjoy it here, filming for the first time?" She asked, smiling. I nodded in honesty. " At first, I was afraid. I had never done anything like this before, and I thought I would bring everyone down…. I'm just glad that I was able to do a good job." I breathed.

"I always known you were the type to never give up, but yesterday… Youngmin surprised me. I had never seen his so worked up before." I blushed, remembering it was him that gave me the chance to try again. " It isn't just him… both the twins, they had helped me countless of times. Without them, I'm sure I would not have been here." I began to remember  when I collapsed in the snow, almost freezing to death, when the twins saved my life. 

" I know… they are important  to you." Her eyes were suddenly dim. I bit my lip,  wondering what she wanted to talk about.

"You said… you wanted to speak to me about something?" I asked, curious. "Yes, I do." Her lips were pressed firmly against each other in a thin line. " Have you told them already?" She asked, wondering if the twins knew about me leaving to America. I swallowed, recalling how Youngmin had already knew… How did he find out? Did Kwangmin know as well?

I stared into my mother's eyes, suddenly guilty. Last night… I had already made my decision. "Youngmin knows…" I answered softly. She slowly nodded as she sighed, beginning to understand my averted eyes. " You're not coming with me, are you?" I bit my lip, my heart squeezing in guilt. 

"I'm sorry." My voice was thin and frail. After a long moment, she smiled gently, placing her hand against mine. " It's true that I am a little disappointed… but I am not angry with you, Hayoung." She my wrist with her finger, her hands warm and soothing. "You love Youngmin, don't you?" Her voice was similar to what I imagined of a mother's. 

Blushing slightly, I smiled. In love…. Those words, they were so new to me, and yet it felt so right.

"I think so… I have decided to stay here with him." There was sudden confidence in my tone, it surprised me. The thought of having Youngmin by my side…it gave me strength.

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 Youngmin's point of view

I began to wonder where Hayoung was when I realized she wasn't with Joori at the dining hall. 

"The Director needed to speak to her." Joori answered, while scooping a cup of corn flakes into her bowl. " The Director?" I asked, curious as to what Yoo Jin wanted with her. 

Perhaps… could Hayoung be telling her that she had decided not to go? Because of me? 

Suddenly, I felt a small pinch at the side of my chest as I came to realization. Because of me… she had decided to stay here. She had given up her mother, in order to remain my side… because of me.

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Hayoung's point of view

Closing the door carefully, I felt myself tremble in the hallway. Even though she had said she was fine... I could still see the dullest in her eyes. 

Shaking the thought away, I didn't want to feel the guilt anymore. She herself, had said she didn't want to me to leave with regret, and I knew if I left Youngmin, I would be drowning in it, but why…. Why was I feeling the regret I was trying to avoid at the thought of my mother? 

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Kwangmin's point of view

"Do me a favor?" Dong Hyun placed a hand on my shoulder as he handed me his card key. " I have to help load the equipment in the van now, so I need to you to go to my room and get my wallet. I think I left it on the bathroom counter." I rolled my eyes at how clumsy and forgetful our leader was. 

Once I found Dong Hyun's wallet, I entered the elevator, sighing. " Always making me fix his short comings." I muttered. Slowly the glowing numbers on the buttons decreased as I passed each floor. Absentmindedly, I drowned in my own thoughts, almost not noticing the elevator come to a stop.

Surprised, I blinked, taken aback to see Hayoung behind the opening doors. She had always managed to show up when I least expected it... 

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Hayoung's point of view

I felt my breath halt when I met eyes with Kwangmin. Startled by the sudden meeting, I almost forgot about the timed elevator when it began to close again. Quickly entering, I awkwardly greeted him, unable to look at him in the eyes. 

As if an enchantment was suddenly lifted, I began to feel the uneasiness and nervousness. Because of my blinding thoughts of last night… I didn't realize until now the effects of my own actions. 

I had chosen Youngmin. 

Secretly, I turned towards Kwangmin, gazing at his unreadable expression. Guilt. That was all I could feel. Even though I knew it was Youngmin I loved, I still had strong, unavoidable feelings for Kwangmin as well. It pained me to know that my selfish desire for Youngmin were to hurt and betray Kwangmin's feelings for me… even though he loved me. 

It was wrong, but I always knew his love was different from mine. The affection I felt for Youngmin… It was different from Kwangmin. I finally came to realize it, even though it was only now. 

Kwangmin…. he was besides me and always lending out a hand, but I trusted him as a friend. That was all it was. At first, I had to admit I was confused by these emotions. I had thought that I too had loved Kwangmin as a man, but I soon came to understand that only when I realized I was to leave, the true fear I felt… was abandoning his blonde and naive twin brother . 

Biting my lip, my heart ached as I stared at the brunette boy before me. Apologetic, I secretly wished he had never met me... that he had never fallen for someone like me.