❄ { 040. SiHae } Nothing
❝ℕeorago❞ — A Super Junior Oneshot/Twoshot CollectionTitle: Nothing
Pairing/s: SiwonxDonghae
Song featured: Nothing by The Script
Warning/s: a drunk Siwon and a brokenhearted Donghae
A/N; Yes yes it has a drunk Siwon.
Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now,
Than I ever was with her
"No!"
Siwon slammed his car door shut as Donghae left his car. Teary-eyed and frustrated, the older drove off his black Hyundai away from the heartbreaking place.
He his amplifier, hoping everything would be so fine. But as he volumed it up a little, it played their theme song. He was so frustrated that he almost crashed into a post.
"I should've let myself die into that post," the older man murmured as he quicken the pace of his car. It was a slow and dreadful night, and he wanted to let his anger out before the sun would rise.
While driving along the empty streets, he saw an open bar. He parked his car in front and went inside absent-mindedly.
"One vodka," Siwon ordered as he sat down on the countertop seat. He placed his cellphone on the marble top, waiting for someone's answer.
The waiter placed the glass in front of him, "Here you go sir." The toussled hair nodded and drank it all in one shot.
He felt unaccepted, so weak. He did everything just to make Donghae feel happy. He was his everything, and he was head over heels until now.
- - -
They say a few drinks will help me to forget her,
But after one too many I know that I'm never
Only they can see where this is gonna end
But they all think I'm crazy, but to me it's perfect sense
Siwon placed his glass on the countertop, and ordered another shot. He was so heartbroken with what he just heard from him. It made him devastated that he wanted to die now.
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"Siwon..." Donghae trailed as he parked the car in front of the park. Siwon looked at his lover and smiled, "Why? Is there a problem?"
The younger looked down, feeling guilty and flushed. He sighed and took a deep breath. "I'm sorry. It's over," he simply said as he stepped out of the car.
Puzzled, Siwon stepped outside and followed Donghae. "Why? I did everything. And I swear I didn't do anything harmful to you. Why?" Donghae held his hand and cried, "I like someone else."
Siwon gently removed his hand from the younger, and walked away from him. "Siwon, I'm sorry," Donghae pleaded. "No!" the older shouted as he stepped in his car and drove off the heartbreaking place.
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The older drank too much vodka that he started to hallucinate and go back to his home. He payed the drink and placed his phone inside his pocket.
He walked without balance, bumping into tables and falling down several times. As he stepped outside of the bar, he walked away from his car and started to be a little insane.
"Donghae!" he shouted. Clearly he was out of his mind, and he has been devastated. "I love you! Donghae!" he kept on shouting.
Just then, Donghae passed by and saw the drunken Siwon. The older man passed out and fell on the ground, completely unconscious. The gentle man helped his ex-lover up and walked him to his car so he could drive.
Just then, Donghae passed by and saw the drunken Siwon. The older man passed out and fell on the ground, completely unconscious. The gentle man helped his ex-lover up and walked him to his car so he could drive.
As they reached the car, Donghae placed Siwon in front, while he sat on the driver's seat. "Donghae..." Siwon said as the younger drove off.
"I still love you. Please... Don't leave me..." he kept on repeating the words, making Donghae cry while driving. He still love Siwon, but when he saw Eunhyuk, everything fell into pieces.
When they reached the house, Donghae guided Siwon to his room and placed him on the bed. He stripped Siwon's clothes and dressed him up in new ones.
After Donghae placed Siwon in deep sleep, he sat down on his ex-lover's study and examined the place. The study was so private that back then, he wouldn't let Donghae in.
The old and vintage study was filled with books, and a small fireplace. Two blue velvet chairs were placed in front, and one dark violet footstool. But what caught his attention is a small picture frame, inside of it was him and Siwon.
Donghae touched Siwon's face as his tears fell down. He felt guilty leaving Siwon alone and be together with Eunhyuk.
Donghae quietly sat on the blue velvet chair, and holding a piece of blank paper, he wrote a letter to his ex-lover.
After the younger wrote his letter, he placed it on a small wooden cabinet beside Siwon. He quietly closed the door and left without a trace.
- - -
And my mates are all there, trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I swearing if I go there now,
I could change your mind, turn it all around
The following morning, Siwon rubbed his eyes in confusion. "How the...?" he whispered to himself. He stretched and looked around until he saw a folded paper on top of the cabinet. He looked around who wrote it, but it's impossible since he's inside his room now.
The handwritting looked familiar, with curves and lines perfectly signed. Siwon took a deep breath and murmured, "Donghae."
To my dearest Siwon,
I'm sorry for leaving you alone. I know it's been hard for you. I just want to let you know that I'm happy to be with Hyukjae and he has been giving everything I wanted. You did everything to make me happy, but I guess there are times that we wouldn't get along. We have so many differences, but I still manage to love you.
I drove you to your house last night. You were so drunk and you reek of alcohol. I decided to fix you up and fall you back to sleep. Along the way back, you kept on saying my name and how much you love me. I kept quiet and let my tears fall down.
I'm sorry Siwon. But if you ask me to stay, then I won't. Take care, and good luck finding for your perfect half.
- Donghae
Siwon cried out loud as he saw the devastating letter. He decided to call his ex-lover again, and tell him to be back.
He dialed the numbers and placed his phone by his ear. The phone picked up, "Yoboseyo?"
"Donghae! Please come back. I miss you. I still love you. I can't believe I lost you. I still love you, just come back." But while saying those words, Donghae quietly hung up, making the older cry out harder.
He was so devastated, and depressed. He tried million ways how to die, but ended up having interruptions or second thoughts. He decided to enter the psychatric ward after one month of suffering and stay there until he's over Donghae.
He knew his family would come rushing. Asking him how and why he ended up here, he'll just simply say, "Nothing." He completely gone mad at the moment.
His family decided to throw and keep his and Donghae's photos. They knew that he would completely gone mad when he sees Donghae again.
Siwon, at the moment, is completely nothing. He's now quiet and calm, but talking about Donghae makes him a lot worse.
i've already edited 3 oneshots, thanks to new experiences and realizations in life lol— please check out the rewritten versions of gotta find you (kangteuk), only one (yewook), and back to december (eunhae)! <33
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