I opened my eyes and stared at the white ceiling.

I'm at the hospital again, aren't I? Tch. I hate it here.

I sat up and saw everyone looking worried at me.

"You're awake! Thank goodness!" Vic unnie went to my side and fixed my hair then everyone followed

"I'm sorry to make you all worry everyone.."

I felt guilty inside..

People were worried about me..

It's happening again..

My brothers came in with the doctor

"Amber! You're awake!" Jjong hyung looked like he was about to cry again

"This is all my fault.." Donghae hyung looked really guilty but it wasn't his fault.

"It's not your fault hyung."

"It's not your fault Donghae." Vic unnie and I unison

"Have you been experiencing this lately Ms. Liu?" The doctor asked.

Yes.

"No."

"Well that's good because it might just be from exhaustion from school and it would be just a false alarm, but we still need to monitor you every now and then just to make sur-"

"No, Doctor I'm fine. Yes it's just from exhaustion." I nodded

"..Well okay." The doctor looked unconvinced went to Donghae hyung and whispered something to him. I read his lips "Please check up on her at all times."

I don't want anyone to worry. I'm fine and okay by myself. I can bare this pain by myself. I'm alive and that's it. Period. 

The news about me spread out quickly in school. I came back to school the day the basketball game started, exo was surprised to see me when I was walking to the bleachers, they were louder than the audiences' cheers. Jiyong picked me up from my house to watch the game with him.

I cheered for Chanyeol and Kris, Coach scolded Kris for some reason.

I've never seen Kris this bad at basketball, they were 3 points behind and the time was almost up.

Coach made Kris time out for the last game and he looked so pissed off.

Chanyeol had the ball and was surrounded but time was running out then Chanyeol shoot.. HE SCORES!

Our school won! Chanyeol was lifted by the other members of the basketball team, I saw him looking at me and I waved at him and gave him two thumbs up.

When the game was over Jiyong and I went to a near diner and ate our lunch then we went our separate ways again, he said that he'd be attending a meeting with Suho, Sunny, and Henry and all the other officers.

I hugged him and waved bye.

When I passed by Seunghyun, Young Bae, and Daesung, Daesung saw me immediately with his small eyes and started yelling and sobbing uncontrollably, Young Bae and Seunghyun were both startled by Daesung's sudden cry.

"Daesung I'm really fine. I was just exhausted that day." he kept on sniffing and trying to hug me

"Let me go! I just wanna hug Amber!"

"No." Seunghyun and Young bae were pulling on Daesung so he wouldn't get close to me.

"Thank you guys for the concern but I'm really okay now. You too Daesung." I hit his face lightly.

"Bye Amber." they waved goodbye while they were still holding on Daesung

"BYE AMBER! Guys could you let me go now?" he sniffed.

Even the girls were concern. They group hugged me even Lay and the other guys in the squad. I apologized to them for making them all worry.

Minhyun and Ren ran towards me and someone back hugged me, I expected it to be Minhyun but instead it was Ren who I saw even pouted at me.

So cute.

"Amber.. You really made me worry there.."

"Yah! I was worried too!" Minhyun pulled Ren away from me. I bowed at them and gave them both bear hugs

"Awww thanks so much for worrying guys but I'm feeling better now."

"Bye Amber!"

"Ren says I Love You!"

"Y-YAH!" their voices echoed in the hallways filled with students. 

Baekhyun jumped and hugged me, I was so happy to see him again, he also found out the news about me and was about to burst into tears but I hugged him some more to stop crying.

"Amber, I have a confession to make.." Baekhyun pulled me and we went to the roof top.

"What is it Baek?" I softly said then he held both my hands tight then looked at me in the eyes

"Ever since we started hanging out, Chanyeol and I are having arguments.."

"..About me?"

"No! .. Well ummm.. okay maybe because it's about you but.." he sighed

"Because I like you Amber." he said with a soft smile

"Baekhyun I-" the door suddenly slammed open

"Amber there you are and.. Baekhyun? What are you doing here? I though you were with Kai and Tao?"

"Tch." they were fighting again... over little miss tomboy.

"Guys please don't fight." Baekhyun suddenly looked at me and stared at my eyes trying to find an answer

"I knew it.." he closed his eyes then slowly opened it

Huh? How-"She's all yours Yeol.. I've already said what I wanted.." Baekhyun ran downstairs, I was about to follow him but Chanyeol pulled me back and made me face him.

"Amber.." I waited for Chanyeol to say something, but I wanted to interrupt him and apologize to Baekhyun but.. I had to wait..

"Thank you.. again."

"For what?" he was still holding my arm like if he lets go of me I would ran away from him but I wont.

"For watching me play, it's because of you I had the motivation to win the game." he laughed then I noticed that he was blushing

"You're welcome Chanyeol, always a pleasure to support a frie-" he suddenly hugged me, my face buried in his chest. His heart beat was so fast I could hear it. I looked up to see his red face and smiled at him

"Chanyeol.. I know what you're about to say but.." he hugged me tighter and rested his head on top of mine.

"Please Amber.. Let me cherish this moment because I know what you're about to say.."

"..."

Another one fell for me.. *sigh* I like someone else is what I wanted to say but.. I didn't want to crush his heart.

We stayed like that for about 2 whole good minutes. When he said cherish the moment he really meant it. I rubbed his back slowly than patted it.

"I love you Chanyeol you're a really nice guy and it would be a shame if you only wasted your feelings for me because I know you still have a lot of girls who wants to take your heart too but.. but I like someone else.." his hug became a little loose and I looked up at him again but this time his eyes were closed. I put my hands on his cheeks ten he opened his eyes

"I just don't want to ruin your friendship with Baekhyun.. just because of a tomboy like me." I joked and he smiled

"There's that derp smile I always like to see." I kissed his cheek and he let go of me

"Now go.. Baekhyun needs you.." I pushed him out of the door but he stopped and looked at me again

"Just remember this, I don't regret ever falling for you and neither will Baekhyun be. Thanks Amber." I laughed at what he said and I heard his footsteps going down. 

I was still on the roof top.

.

I pulled up my sleeves and saw bruises everywhere. I leaned my back on the wall and slid down so now I was sitting.

My head hurts again and I feel really weak.. Endure it Amber.. Don't let anyone see this..

I watched as the clouds move slowly..

It hurts so much.. Forgive me for my stupid, selfish, and stubborn wish everyone..