"Amber.. Amber wake up.. I'm sorry I shouted at you last night.." Jjong hyung sat beside me while I was lying on the bed still sleepy. I'm usually grumpy in the morning but he didn't wake me up in a surprising way. I sat up from my bed and hugged him.

"I know you were just worried.. I'm sorry too.."

"Don't ever do the again, okay?" I nodded. Then Donghae hyung slammed open the door

"GOOD MORNING AMBEEEEE-" I threw a pillow at him.

"Morning!" I started going to school riding the bus instead of my hyungs bringing me there, it would be a hassle for them.

"Hey.."

"Morning Amber!"

I came just in time for the bus stop and greeted Ren and Minhyun like the usual.

Like always we talked and laugh on stupid things. 

I opened my locker and took some notebooks and a book and saw my other locker mate Sandara. 

"Oh Hello" I greeted

"Hey! You must be Amber. I'm Sandara, but you can call me Dara" She smiled and shook my hand.

"Oh! Guys! This is Amber, my locker mate"

"Hi Amber!" It was Bom my classmate

"Hi Bom!" she was really cute

"How come I haven't seen her?" One of her friends with black long hair said

"Because I only go to my locker when I forget something and we're always at practice"

"Ahhh oh yeah! My name's Minzy"

"I'm Chae Rin" I bowed at them and we talked about different things and they were part of the cheer squad in school

"Do you know how to dance Amber?" Minzy asked "I do but I'm a bit rusty and I was always in bed so.. I think I forgot alreayd" I replied and they all laughed

"Aww well you can watch us every afternoon, we always have practice in the field and maybe we'll introduce you to the other girls and our mascot if you pass by" said Sandara 

"Okay, well I better go now. Bye guys!" I waved bye

"Me too!"

"See you later blackjacks!" Bom followed me from behind

"Bye Bom! Bye Amber!"

We were walking back at the classroom and I had to ask Bom something

"Bom, do you know anything about Hyoyeon?"

"Well she's part of the cheer squad but she sometimes asks permission to leave practice because she said she has work at home so we let her. She's missed a lot of practice lately but we never thought of kicking her out of the squad because she's one of our great dancers"

"Why is she always missing out?"

"I think she has a family problem, one time in the shower room I went back to get some clothes I forgot and I heard the showers were on when I checked to see who might still be here. It was Hyoyeon." She whispered and went closer to me "She had scars all over her back and a few bruises on her upper thighs. I haven't told this to anyone except my friends. And I get goose bumps every time I share this" She was rubbing her arms

"You should tell Sunny, her friends are really worried about her" I said

"Okay" 

The bell rang.

We were inside the classroom.

"Good Morning Amber" Jiyong greeted me with a smile

"Good Morning Pres.." I said shyly Amber! Be cool! I mentally face palmed myself and went back to my sit.

"Good Morning Noona~" Sehun greeted me with his cute smile then Lay winked at me or more like a blink but he was trying and I laughed at how hard his trying "Fighting Lay~!" I said and winked back at him.

Everyday was so fun. And for the first time again in years I'm having so much fun hanging out with people. I got to know more about the others. Like Hyoyeon and I became friends, I learned that her mother was sick and she was the only one her mom could lean on. Then I bumped into Hyoyeon's dad one time while walking on the streets with my hyungs. I literally forced him to come with me and talk about how her daughter never complained about him being like that and coincidentally a Father and his little daughter was on their walk then Hyoyeon's Dad cried and we sent her dad home. Hyoyeon's dad promised to help her more and support them more, he even apologized for being a useless father. Hyoyeon cried tears of joy and they hugged. I remembered when Dad and I used to be like that.. Then I also got to know the exo, with each passing day we became more closer and They even sometimes visit me at home. Well.. Not all of them. I learned that Suho had a fear of being close to girls and I tried to help him once but it failed because his nose bleed so I apologized for that and I think Suho had a little crush on Vic unnie, Kai would always hit on me and I would just laugh at him and I'd always tell him there are a lot of fish in this sea we call school, and he was really good in dancing even Lay, I asked to him teach me how to dance, so every afternoon we'd go to Jjong hyung's music studio because they have an unused dance hall so we visit often during the weekdays, then i learned that Chanyeol and Baekhyun were bestfriends, Oh! Chanyeol, Kyungsoo, Baekhyun, Chen and I would always go to public places and sing to earn a few extra cash, When LuHan and I would go out to eat, they would always think that we were crossdressers because LuHan really looked more like a girl than I do, then sometimes i follow Tao to his dojo and watch him practice and it would always amaze me that he could do all those stuff like in movies, Sehun would always buy me food even though I insist not to, I notice a lot of times Minseok hyung would stare at me and he would just always say I look pretty which I always shrug it. But I still hang out with Ren and Minhyun sometimes and Ren has showed a lot more of emotions instead of always getting annoyed and always scolding me like a mom, he would sometimes laugh at my corny jokes and I sometimes that he just likes me then he'd be pissed and back to the old Ren, I go to President Jiyong and his peers to teach me how to rap sometimes.

Two and a half months has past since I started school and I think I still want to live, even if I want to see Dad so badly, I want him to wait for me some more. 

But lately I've been feeling very weak.. Is it because I've been missing my medicine a few times? I should remind myself a lot or Jjong hyung might get mad at me again..

is it short? I'm sorry but it's kinda hard to write when I don't know how some of my already-made-chapters will follow up in the story, but i'm really trying hard to fit it haha

there might be some errors there.. sorry I only write this stuff on my phone and I get typo a lot OTL 

please ask me anything if something confuses you in my story.. haha 

Comment guys! It helps me more to know you're not a silent/ghost reader :3 I'll call you ghost readers now haha 

[ Please read Piggytroll's fanfics haha if you like rated-m fanfics of exo hahaha (she hasn't accepted my friend request because she knows I'll read her fanfics xD) ]

BYIEEEEE~!