I went out of the bedroom carefully, trying not to make any sound that would wake anyone on the house, I was actually willing to let Minhyuk sleep on my room instead of him sleeping in an uncomfortable place like the sofa, but then I realized that the only thing that was going to mess with my sleep was sleeping on my other sofa, Lee Jonghyun.

I wasn’t going to allow Minhyuk sleeping on the sofa, so I thought, what could go wrong? After all, Jonghyun was sleeping. I hesitated before lying down on my sofa but I had made up my mind, if it was for my best friend, I would tolerate sleeping in the same place as my ex.

Jonghyun seemed to be sleeping already so I walked up to his sofa and took a look at his sleeping face, I wondered in that moment why did he break up with me in such a cruel way? He could have always explained in a nicer way, not the way he treated me. When I saw his sleeping face, it quickly reminded me of the Lee Jonghyun that I fell in love with years ago, I asked myself how in a matter of days he ended up breaking my heart.

I sighed and tried not to remember anything else, but it was hard, whenever I saw his face not only the bad memories would come to mind, but also the nice ones and that’s what bothered me;  I couldn’t help but to remember all the times that he had made me smile, the times when he said that he loved me, the way he confessed to me back when we were in high school…but then everything would make me even angrier when I remembered how he treated me afterwards.

Gentle Lee Jonghyun seemed to be there just when sleeping, or at least, the gentle look on his face that I liked was there only at that moment, when he wasn’t awake. I was standing all of this because of Minhyuk, if it had been Jonghyun the one to ask me for that favour, I probably would have hung up straight away, but still…thanks to him I had got to meet CNBlue.

I sat on the floor just right by the sofa Jonghyun was sleeping on, “Funny how that gentle look doesn’t fade away even if you are a jerk…” I sighed.

When I looked to the side, almost unconsciously, I had his sleeping face very close to mine. I gulped, for some reason he made me feel a little nervous  in a way I couldn’t quite explain, I decided to stand up and try to go to sleep on my sofa but before I could do anything Jonghyun suddenly  turned around, he turned around so fast that he ended up falling off the sofa, the hit made me shut my eyes tight

I felt some weight over me and was hoping that it wasn’t what I thought it was, but the heavy breathing close to my skin made me worry. I slowly opened my eyes and saw how Jonghyun was awake and staring at me from above in a total state of shock. Him being shocked made me more nervous than I already was, the thought of someone coming out of the rooms particularly scared me.

“Y-you…” he finally got to say, he had each of his hands over my shoulders and was not making any effort to move aside.

“I-I…”

“W-what are you doing here…?” he stuttered, his eyes still opened wide, he was different from the Jonghyun that had been annoying me some hour ago, for a moment he reminded me of his old self, but maybe it was just due to his expression nor because he was like he used to.

“I’m sorry I…I didn’t know you were going to fall off the sofa… I”

He looked around the living room, inspecting every place his gaze landed on, then his eyes were on me, “Where’s Minhyuk?” he suddenly asked.

“Oh… I told him he could sleep at my bed… I didn’t want him to feel uncomfortable on the sofa”

I saw how his hand turned into a fist next to my head but he just sighed, “Really? You give your bed to Minhyuk but you let me sleep on the sofa? How considerate of you” he said in annoyance.

“Be glad I didn’t tell you to sleep outside” I replied, not minding that he was just right above me.

“You know…deep inside, perhaps you wanted to sleep close to me”

“Pfft in your dreams, Jonghyun, in your dreams, now please, move aside”

“Why?”

“Because you are heavy” I said as I tried pushing him off of me but he suddenly locked my wrists in his hands, “Lee Jonghyun, I swear I’m going to scream if you don’t let me go”

He smiled though, like he was thinking I wasn’t being serious at all, “It’s not like you would do that”

“Hands off, Lee Jonghyun, I had enough of you bothering me in the kitchen” I tried to fake a serious voice, if he noticed that my voice was about to give in, then he would  think that he had won this time around.

But his confident gaze made me tremble and almost lose myself in the beauty of his eyes, the unfading beauty of his smile, I could barely breathe even if he wasn’t doing anything but just staring at me, the years that had passed had made him even more attractive than he was.

The rest that went on was something that I would be beating myself up for the following morning, but that reassured me that Lee Jonghyun had come back to confuse me. He had let go of my wrists and linked hands with me, his touch was so warm and it took me back to the times we were together, and I felt so weak when being under his gaze, he was winning me over and I didn’t want that, I didn’t want him to stare at me like that, to smile at me like that.

“Jonghyun…let go” I slowly said, it was almost like begging, something I wasn’t used to doing to be honest.

“I’m being serious…let go…”

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It had taken me all by surprise, I didn’t know why or how but right now she was