“Answering machine…” I let out a sigh filled with disappointment when the first call died; I thought it was odd she wasn’t picking up. My mind told me to not give up so easily and try again, so I did.

Once again

Twice again

…for a fourth time

She wouldn’t deliberately not pick up a call, something was up, I just could sense something was going on but I couldn’t quite figure out what it was. I walked from left to right inside my room as I tried figuring out what could be possibly wrong, Jungshin stood by the door frame looking at me curiously, seeming like he wanted to ask something –I had never been so uneasy inside the dorm, it was a new sight to him.

I waited a few minutes and dialed her number for the fifth and last time, not because I gave up, but because 5 missed calls would make me look somehow…desperate. I was already getting some weird looks from Jungshin and it got worse when Yonghwa appeared by the door. Yeah –it would seem weird to them, but I… I just… I just wanted to talk to her, to go out and talk to her… to at least see her.

However, she didn’t answer, I felt a little disappointed, my body just fell on the bed and my eyes were fixed on my phone’s screen, worry was taking over me. My fingers unconsciously typed a text message, a long one may I add, asking her if something was wrong, I could even see the reflection of my eyes on the screen as I typed. I looked just like who had been dumped without a chance to listen to any explanation.

“Minhyuk-ssi” my eyes went to a figure standing before me. That serious yet brother-like appearance instantly calmed me down.

“Yonghwa-hyung…what is it?” I asked, my voice sounded almost like a whisper. Yonghwa seemed worried about me, perhaps it was the expression I had on my face. He sat down on the floor just right by my side and examined my expression from very close, his eyes showed curiosity and concern at the same time. As he rested his head on one of his hands he bit lower lip before talking.

“Minhyuk-ssi” he mentioned my name again, his black eyes looking into mine, like an understanding brother –like a concerned brother, “Are you…”

“What?” I replied not knowing precisely what he wanted to say.

“Are you… feeling lovesick?” it startled me, it startled me so much that I pressed the sent button without noticing it, and when I looked back at the screen, I panicked as a notification told me how the delivery was successful. My mouth hung open, kind of regretting sending it.

“Oh gosh no!”

“What did you do now?” Jungshin asked me from the door frame.

“I sent a text I shouldn’t have…” my head lowered in defeat. Yonghwa smiled to himself and got up.

“Well, that gives me an answer” he proudly replied as he headed out of the room.

“Hyung!”  I exclaimed, pouting a little as I continued gazing at my phone, a defeat sigh followed. I had sent the text, well, it was just a text message, and what wrong could it do? I glanced at the clock and jumped out of bed ready to go and cook, it wasn’t my turn though but since Jonghyun wasn’t around…

Jonghyun wasn’t around, I hadn’t noticed that until I remembered that I had to go cook because we wouldn’t be eating just ramyun, it was Jonghyun’s turn that day, and he had just left the dorm. Where to? I have no idea seriously, but I felt something was odd.

No? Maybe not? Maybe yes? Perhaps I was just being paranoid…again. I sighed and started preparing our lunch, why not go out to eat something though? Don’t know, we like it here at home, Jonghyun could be considered the one who goes out the most…but today he just plain disappeared from our sight.

How come I didn’t notice until so late? My mind was on other things most likely… or… on other person to be precise. That day I left her flat, I left with a bittersweet memory, she and Jonghyun kissed… it’s not like it was the first time they did that, but the first time after 5 years, and I thought they hated each other.

I guess jealousy overcame me but I didn’t really make it apparent. And now Yonghwa just asked if I was feeling lovesick… yeah probably that too.

The day passed by fast, there was nothing much to do or more like, I didn’t want to do anything. I felt uneasy, and I didn’t even want to talk to anyone, I just went and lied down on my bed for some hours. When I finally noticed the time it was around 8.00 pm.

“That’s weird Jonghyun hasn’t come back home yet…”  I whispered to myself, but as soon as that thought hit me, I got to hear the sound of the door opening slowly.

It caught me off-guard, perhaps I had been spacing out for too long, not thinking