I didn't want to tell Aron the 18^th was my birthday, I would only make him feel uncomfortable.

Well, there were more important things to worry about. I realized I couldn't avoid it any longer and as more time passed it only became harder.

The next morning, I quickly got dressed and entered the kitchen but when I arrived, I didn't know what to say anymore. Everyone had become used to the fact that I always tagged along when they went somewhere. Even the staff didn't seem to mind anymore. But today I couldn't.

"Ah, you arrived just in time, we were almost planning on leaving you behind," Aron joked.

"I can't," I tell him but didn't know how to continue.

"What's wrong?" Aron asked after noticing I hesitated.

"I'm sorry," I said, "I can't accompany you guys today. I have something to take care of."

"What is it?" he asked curious.

But I shook my head.

"Can't you do that after we get back, I'll be to worried if you go alone, after what happened," he said and I knew he meant it.

But again, I shook my head, "Sorry Aron, this is something I have to do alone."

"Are you sure?" he asked worried.

I nodded, "Please let me."

He sighed, "Well, it's your choice."

I smiled, "Thank you."

After they all left, I checked to see if I got everything and walked to the train station but before I got on the train, I bought a bouquet of flowers.

The train ride took a while and I felt myself getting sleepy. I listened to some music but that didn't help.

Finally I heard the name of the town I had to get off. I got off but quickly jumped back on and grabbed the flowers. I got out at the last moment and sighed of relief. I'm being to absentminded.

I walked as in a trance. I didn't even need to look at the map to find my way. Knowing I usually get lost, I guess this was a positive point.

Finally I arrived.

Hesitantly I walked on the small path, leading me to her. When I finally arrived, I kept staring at the stone, not being able to do anything else.

Sarah Cole

An angel never to be forgotten! To live forever in our hearts!

18-02-1995               05-12-2012

Tears slide down my face.

I still remembered her funeral. Cold, distant with no on she knew. Even I didn't recognize her.

I sank down on the ground and cried.

Author's Note

Sorry, a really short chapter! Blame it on school!

Apparently Christmas and New Year passed too, but Niina didn't celebrate it... What's the meaning of celebrating it when your alone anyway? (At that time she hadn't met Nu'est yet)

I'll update as soon as possible!

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