Jays POV 

This game we are playing, I want it to stop. I want her. Seeing her look so sad pains me. But if I embrace her (a/n: not like CNUs type of embrace CNU: yah! What the hell! You did this to me a/n: ^.^) won't I just hurt her more late? I know very well that it can't happen. We can't happen.

If I ignore my planned and unavoidable future and do what my heart tells me against every voice and spec of knowledge in my head, won't I be a bad person? Carpe Diem, means o be reckless, if I live without considering the future won't I be miserable for a much longer time then I'm happy? wont I bring her into that too, isnt that unfair?

But I want her. No one but her. By my side. Forever. And no matter what choice I make, she'll be upset. And I can't garuntee that she'll be miserable without me.

I know, I know. Short chapter. But it's a double update so don't hate me!  gaah, so sentimental, and emotional. if this were a movie... i wouldnt watch it i honestly perfer to see things to blow up. or transform into some strange creature... or both... as long as its not a sparkly vampire im good. to make up for the shortness of this chappie here are some random pics of kpop idols. What do YOU think jay will do?

 (no doubt about it, sir)

(........)

(gaaaah! can i be that kid?)

 (one of my favorite divas >.<)

 (he looks so smart, nicec accesory Po!)

(not gonna lie, baro gifs seem to be the most fun ^.^)

 (until next tiime)