January 15,2012

 

It’s when you start getting sleep deprivation but waking up exceptionally refreshed because of someone special. :)

 

Although I knew it was only another one of JR’s random messages in the morning, I still replied naughtily,

 

Who’s so special? :D

 

He unexpectedly replied,

 

Hyung, I actually sent it to you knowing that quote best describes what you are currently feeling. ^_^V

 

I suddenly felt my cheeks grew hot. My soon-to-be band mate and friend was a really silly boy. I then replied pretending I didn’t know what he was actually talking about,

 

What do you mean?

 

The more he got mischievous and had all the guts to tease me with his reply,

 

Don’t be such a tease hyung, we both know you know what I mean :P

 

He seriously is so like Jihoo. If you haven’t known, during the past days, JR and I grew unexpectedly closer than never before, we’re actually like brothers already. We actually had a five-day break from our filming. It was because our director had some urgent business abroad which he had to take care of, so our filming temporarily stopped for five days. During these past few days, JR and I kind of hang-out on a few play houses together with Jihoo. And when we got drunk one night-out, in as much as I could remember, I accidentally spilled my real deal about Jiyeon.  From then on, JR and Jihoo kept teasing me. I was immune already that I no longer mind them do that as long as they aren’t doing it when we’re in public. JR also shared some pieces of his personal life to Jihoo and me so we felt like closer to him. We officially tied our brotherhood the instant he opened like that to us. You know that kind of feeling when you just get along really well and feeling really comfortable even though you haven’t been together for long yet, that’s how we felt towards JR after being together for the last five days. Not that I’m actually turning into a gay or something and I don’t have anything against  gays actually, it’s just that the bond we have right now is like that of real brothers, which is incredibly cohesive, considering we didn’t know each other for long as compared to my childhood friend Jihoo . :D

 

Our director came back yesterday and we’re to resume filming this day. We haven’t finished with episode four yet so we are targeting to finish the episode for the day. We would be filming the past scenes during our trainee days in the drama. And because of this, I felt restless. My senses weren’t stable at the moment because I had to be romantically involved with Jiyeon yet again.

 

We all, as usual, arrived promptly on the set. Jiyeon and I will be filming the most today, shooting JB’s and Rian’s back-story, while the others are on standbys, just in case there was a need for them to be included in the scene.

 

“Haesung, JB  and Rian,” our director then called for the three of us, “ We’d be filming first on Haesung’s first encounter with JB and then proceed to JB’s and Rian’s  break-up, hara?”

 

The three of us nodded in unison. “Okay, you may rehearse your lines first while you’re having your make-over. On the other hand, while we wait for you, we are getting the set ready.”

 

“Neh,” we then responded politely and made our own ways to the make-up artists and hair stylists of Dream High 2.

 

Our past looks will be heavily different from the looks we showed in our present roles. We were to look a little more naïve and innocent than the cold ice personality Rian and JB turned out to be while Haesung was so much chubbier back then. It was a scene from two years ago, I couldn’t help but anticipate Jiyeon’s new look, I bet she would look impossibly more beautiful. Oh well, while getting our make-ups and hair done, we were silently reading our lines. We were browsing the new script our director handed us earlier.

 

As I scan through the scenes, there wasn’t much of anything new to me but oh my gosh, I had to cry! And Like what? Why do I have to cry?!! Like I’ve always told you, I am naturally a cheerful person so how the hell am I going to shed a tear? I could only count a few times when I actually shed tears and it wasn’t heavy crying even. It was only my eyes getting a little watery and maybe a tear or two drops ran down from my eyes and that’s all.

 

It was alarming that I had yet to screw on set again. Will our director finally regret that he casted me? Will reality knock the hell out of him that casting a rookie like me was a mistake after all?

 

Aisshh. But how can he change the script like that, I wasn’t suppose to cry, I just had to appear a little miserable and that’s all, no need for anything close to crying. If only I knew earlier, then maybe I didn’t spend all of my time during the 5-day break playing with JR and Jihoo, maybe I found a way to have myself be acquainted with the laws of shedding a tear. Well, it wasn’t the time for me to be whining and blaming our director for not telling it ahead of time. It was only natural for actors to cry, so he really didn’t have to remind me. I’m the one to be blamed, I lack the natural talent an actor must strongly possess- the art of crying for reals.

 

I’m starting to panic again, the pressure is slowly eating me up; I got my phone from my pocket and hurriedly googled on how to shed a tear instantly. I’m hoping that my hair be done the longest time, though I highly doubt it, I need time to prepare. As I looked into the list of results the site gave me, I found all sorts of ridiculous ways of shedding tears. And the simplest way I found was putting an eyedrop and there, instant tears! But how could I do that, it’d be shameless for an actor to be doing that. How am I going to be looked upon by my co-stars and even our director if I would do that? . I need help!

 

JR was busy rehearsing so the thought of calling Jihoo crossed my mind. Yeah, that guy would probably have lots of suggestions, even though he’s kinda weird but when it comes to things like this, no matter how crazy the idea, he had always managed to come up with something else. I need to ask him. Yeah. He’s my last resort.

 

My hair and make-up were done with the make-over sooner than expected but thank goodness the girls were a lot longer in their make-over so I had yet the time to call Jihoo. I excused myself from our hair stylist and make-up artist. I distanced myself from everyone so as not to be exposed shamelessly with my dilemma.

 

I dialed Jihoo’s number. I wished he’d picked up immediately like he always does but he wasn’t! Darn it! The girls are surprisingly almost done with their hair and make-up! CRAP!

 

“Jihoo, pick it up! Answer my call, please,” I whispered desperately.

 

The set-up for our film was also ready! Goodness Gracious! I was getting impatient for the time of my life! My hands were getting sweaty!

 

At last, he answered, “ What made you call at this time of the day? I have my classes going on, you jerk!” He even managed to scold me! Oh yeah, I almost forgot that Jihoo was actually going to school. But, it was really urgent.

 

“Emergency Jihoo! I have scene where I needed to cry,I don’t know how to! You know me, I don’t really cry.”

 

“Uh-oh,” that’s all he can say? Aishhh.

 

“Yah! What do I do?”

 

“Hello? I’m not an actor, I’m just a student, how should I know that?”

 

“But you always had an idea. Please tell me you still have.” I was really desperate.

 

“Have you tried google?”

 

“Yes. And everything is ridiculous.”

 

“Ah-huh!”Something occurred to Jihoo, thank gooness!

 

“What?” I was eager, I knew it, that’s my best bud; he always had a solution to my problem!

 

“Try asking for Jiyeon’s help!” he sounded so excited, pshhh, this guy sure is something!

 

“Are you kidding me?” she was the last person I wanted to reveal my shameless self to. And we’re not even that close, we just had one rehearsal together, how the hell am I going to ask for her help?

                                                    

“But you don’t have a choice, that’s the best idea I could ever suggest. Sorry.” I don’t know if  he was purposely doing it or what. He’s seriously naughty sometimes.

 

“But I can’t ask for Jiyeon’s help.” I sounded really frantic. I'm starting to feel really hopeless.

 

“ I know but you have to.” Jihoo stood firm with his suggestion.  But I just can’t. Somehow, maybe I’ll find a way.

 

“What help do you need me for?”

 

I felt like my heart momentarily stopped the moment I heard that all too familiar voice. I was too caught up with my conversation with Jihoo that I didn’t notice her approaching me.

 

“Jaebum, did I just hear Jiyeon in there?”

 

I didn’t respond to Jihoo but my phone was still stuck to my ear, I stood frozen. Did I just get caught? No. No. This isn’t reality. It’s only a dream. Someone please wake me up now! >_<

 

“JAEBUM! You’re making me worry!” Jihoo brought me back to my senses, and this was nothing close to dream because my body was all tensed up. I could totally feel the heavy atmosphere. I was still fixed right to my place.

 

“I’ll call you again later,” I mumbled and then I ended the call. I was numb all over. She was clearly waiting for me to respond to her question while my back was still facing her. I couldn’t have the courage to face her because I’m sure I looked really pale right now. I felt like a criminal who was caught red-handed.

 

“Why can’t you ask for my help?”

 

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Good day readers! Another update is up, not much happening though! Sorry for being late again, I really at meeting deadlines. >_< But I have a reasonable excuse though, we recently just had our exams and I was too immersed with T-ara’s 5 music videos on YT and also with their comeback that’s why I didn’t manage to write.

 

Also, this has got to be the shortest update ever. XD Sorry for that and also for leaving you hanging in there. ^_^V  Don’t worry, I’ll update the next chappie as soon as possible. Have patience, please? :D Although I at meeting deadlines, I’ll make sure to meet the two-chapter update per week. ;)

 

And about Jiyeon's POV, it'll come later but not anytime soon.. we've had to unveil her feelings slowly on JB's POV.

 

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