“I like the way you like me, don’t give up just yet. I’m still on the process of trying to sort my feelings too..”

 

She didn’t say that she likes me too nor did she dump me but she has given me the right to continue holding on with my growing feelings for her, which only means that I have the right to hope for her heart even in this complicated world of idols and entertainment. I can only hope, right?

 

“Turowajo, our director will get suspicious if we won’t come back now, “ she said as I kept in silence.

 

As she turned to leave, “ Chakkaman.” I had something else to say.

 

She looked right back at me,

 

 “Kumowa yo, Chongmal Kumowayo for your kind consideration Jiyeon sii,”

 

She just smiled and nodded.

 

With that, I’m sure that this will be a good shooting day.

 

January 21, 2012

 

Brand new day again. What a good day to begin with. It feels so good having a heart filled with hopes.

 

“Hyung, your smile’s so bright today?”

 

I smiled at my younger friend, JR, “ It’s a good day, right?”

 

“I’m happy to see you smile like that hyung,”

 

“Anyway, have you talked to Jihoo recently?”

 

“Ani. Wae? Is there any problem that I do not know of?

 

“Nothing.”

 

“Kurom. Don’t be wearing that disgruntled look again, hyung. Continue smiling. It suits you best,”

 

“You have nothing to worry about me. “

 

We were back in the city. We finished everything that we needed yesterday in the far-flung area.

Today is a good day indeed since we’re proceeding to filming the next episode.

 

Hajiman..

 

 

Jiyeon’s POV

 

Jinwoon oppa came right unto me and grabbed me; thereby protecting me from the cake supposedly thrown at me. We have had lots of takes here but not more than what we’ve had yesterday. All I can say is, he really is a good actor. He’s such a gentleman too. I don’t know why but I’m enjoying his company as well.

 

 At the corner of my eye, I sensed someone looking at our way, sulking. If I’m not mistaken, that was JB. I couldn’t help but feel sorry for him. It’s not like I wanted him to keep brooding over trivial stuffs like this. He has to understand that this is only a part of the script, how could I even explain him this without the slightest hint of being defensive? Aigooo, Think whatever he thinks! I’ll not disturb him until I’m sure with my feelings. Aishh, Chincha! This JB is making me crazy.

 

JB’s POV

 

Hajiman..

 

She seemed to enjoy filming with Jinwoon hyung rather than me. Just looking at how compose she is when they are shooting together makes my heart feel unease.

 

This is the painful side of just merely hoping I guess.

 

I don’t know how to handle my feelings well.

 

I’m wishing that my hopeful heart won’t end up disappointed.

 

All I can do is bit back a sigh and wait for her to finally sort out her feelings for me.

 

“CUT!”

 

And then they burst out laughing. They were oozing with so much chemistry. Even the public’s reactions even to their offscreen interactions looked like they’re totally swooned with their tandem. Would have they reacted the same with Jiyeon and I?

 

 

Is this the feeling of getting jealous? Whatever they call it as, it . =.=

 

I needed to stop watching them; without them knowing, they’re torturing me with their undeniable closeness.

 

All of a sudden, someone tapped me on the back,

 

“Yah! Don’t be too worked up on petty things like that.”

 

I’m caught! Eottoke? Who the hell uncovered my being jealous?

 

I turned around to check on the person, who had seen passed my façade,

 

“Neh?”

 

“You’re too obvious, I told you.”

 

“Jihoo?”

 

“Yes, at your service,” he winked at me.

 

I didn’t recognize his voice. What’s wrong with me? I couldn’t even distinguish my bestfriend’s voice!

 

“What are you doing here?”

 

“I think I heard someone missing me, so I decided to visit your set.”

 

I punched him ever so slightly, “Yah! Where have you been? I never heard of you since ages!”

“Pabo. You were the one who kept ignoring my calls? Earth to Jaebum?”

 

“Aishh. Whatever.”

 

“Can we have a drink?”

 

“But..”

 

“Just for a moment; I have something to talk about,”

 

“I knew it, it isn’t because you actually missed me! There’s something going on that you’ve been hiding from me, right?”

 

“You’ll know later.. First, you have to excuse yourself from your director,”

 

“Okay. Wait here. I’ll be right back.”

 

Jiyeon’s POV

 

“Oh. Where’s JB?”

 

“He went to have a talk with a friend,” our director informed me. I guess our shooting will be delayed.

 

“Is that so?”

 

“Yeah. He’ll be back in 15 minutes. You take a break first,”

“Neh. PD-nim,”

 

I don’t know why I felt so disappointed. Aishh, seriously? What to do? I’m recently being so confused with my feelings. I’ll never be sure of what to feel exactly.

 

JB’s POV

 

“What?!” This can’t be. We’ve always been together!

 

“Mianhe. Don’t worry, I’ll be sure to watch your pilot episode!” He gave me his cheerful façade..

 

“When are you going to leave?”

 

“Tomorrow.”

 

“Baltuande!”

 

“Does JR already know?”

 

He stooped his head down low, “Not yet.”

 

“Pabo! You have to tell him too!”

 

“I will.”

 

An awkward silence engulfed us both. No way! Why is he leaving us at this moment when I needed a friend the most?

 

But I can’t be greedy, right? This is for his future, not mine.

 

Jiyeon’s POV

 

“Oh! You’re finally back!”

 

“Neh,” he shortly answered.

 

There was something wrong in his aura. It felt like he just lost an important belonging.

 

“Get yourselves ready,” our director commanded us.

 

“Neh,” we responded in unison.

 

He was not in his proper self; his eyes were filled with sadness and misery. I couldn’t help but get curious at what exactly happened that made him like this.

 

“Lights. Camera. Action!”

 

“CUT!”

 

“JB, are you okay?” Our director asked him because his eyes were not focusing on the right direction, his mind was elsewhere.

 

He wasn’t responding. He was definitely not okay.

 

“JB ssi..” I approached him. When I touched his shoulder, he was startled.

 

“Wae?”

 

“What’s wrong?”

 

“Neh?”

 

“You need to take a break, you need some air.”

 

“Ani. Gwaenchana,” he still insisted on filming.

 

“Jiyeon’s right JB, “ our director interrupted our conversation, “ We’ll just film the scenes which don’t include you. Don’t worry. Now, go!”

 

He looked like he was about to cry, “Kumowa kangdonmin, I’ll be back with a better self,” he kept bowing profusely.

 

Before he finally left, he looked back at me and smiled, “I’ll be back soon,”

 

It was a heartbreaking smile. I couldn’t help but get affected by his sorrow. I don’t even know what was it all about but, my heart aches for how he was hurting.

 

Am I starting to have feelings for this guy? Or I’m just getting carried away too?