think. kiss.
I need you, my other half.
~Sehun’s Pov~
Ouch. My lips hurt. I looked in the mirror, as I saw my hair was a mess. I tried to touch my bleeding lips, but it hurts badly, I felt like crying again. I totally can’t believe what just happened. Did Luhan Hyung just kissed me…?
Really. that’s what happened. I blinked for how many times to make sure I wasn’t dreaming. I’m not gay, I know it. when I say I liked Kai, I really like him as my brother. And I guess Luhan Hyung thought differently about it. was he.. jealous?
Hyung’s lips were soft. As he kissed me roughly, I can feel his soft lips. He bit my lips hard, I yelped in pain. But somehow, I liked the way Hyung kissed me. Without myself knowing, I was smiling alone, right before I felt my lips hurt once again. “Ouch!!”
I felt my wrists were in pain as he pinned me hard just now. I don’t really know how to react about what happened. Part of me felt like I was wronged by Hyung. But a little part inside of me felt like flying. Okay, I lied. 75% inside of me felt like flying. My heart flutters. Wait, what just happened to me? I was sure I’m not gay. I am.. am I?
I went back to practice room. My lips were no longer bleeding, but it was a little bit sore. The others arrived after lunch, but I can’t seem to find Luhan Hyung anywhere. All of a sudden, someone hugged me from the back, and I know who it was.
“Where were you??~” Kai asked cutely. I let go from his hug and smiled. But it hurts when I try to smile! He looked at me, noticing my lips were sore. “Yah, Sehun-ah. What happened?!” he asked worriedly. I don’t know how to say it to him, I’m afraid he’s over reacting if I explained. “I fell down, and I bit my lips..?” I don’t know what I was actually saying, but Kai seemed to understand me as he tried to re-do the actions that I was explaining. Kai, he trusted me, always.
“Yah, what’s with your.. lips?” oh, the guardian’s here. I’m doomed. He’ll ask a whole lot of questions till he got what he wanted. Suho Hyung raised my chin up, to get a closer look on my lips. “I fell down..” I lied. Kai explained how I fell down, which he believed was real. Suho nodded, but I guess he knew what was going on.
“Emm. Luhan Hyung’s not feeling well. He texted me, he said go on with practice without him. He’s in the dorm.” Lay Hyung said as he entered the practice room. Suho Hyung looked at me, but I tried to avoid his gaze. I guess Hyung knew something. Hyung always knew things.
~ ~ ~
I turned around on my bed for God knew how many times. I can’t seem to sleep! Ah, it’s frustrating. I kept on thinking what happened in the locker room earlier today. I kept on thinking about Hyung’s lips… it was so.. y.
I immediately sat up as I realized I was imagining Luhan Hyung, again. It’s not the first time today. In fact, it happened a lot. I even imagined it was Luhan Hyung when Kai hugged me from the back like he always did. I.. I don’t know why. And I kept on thinking how cute Hyung was the time I kissed him on his cheek.
Kiss. He kissed me roughly, yet I still like it. I touch my lips again, it doesn’t hurt any more. But Hyung’s kiss still feels real and it remains. Why.. do I seemed to like the kiss a lot?
He hurt me, but why am I liking it? ah, who cares. Hyung’s gonna avoid me now. He doesn’t even come to the practice room after what happened. It’s me who should be avoiding him, but he did it first.
~ ~ ~
“I like you, Oh Sehun..” Luhan Hyung looked at me seriously. “Wh..what?” I was confused. “I love you. More than a friend should.” “Hyu..hyung.. I..”
“I like you too, Hyung..”
“Hunnie..?” I was shocked when I saw mom’s face as I woke up. Mom was looking at me weirdly. “oh, mom.. good morning..” I said as I rubbed my eyes slowly. “Hun-ah, what did you dreamt about?” I looked at my mom with a blur face. ‘Luhan Hyung.. confessing to me.’
“Why?” I asked. “Nothing.. you mumbled ‘I like you too, Hyung’ as I woke you up..” mom said as she walked away. I was in shock. Wait, no way! Did I say that? Seriously?
I was searching for Luhan Hyung in the practice room, yet I can’t seem to find him. God, for how long are we going to avoid each other like this? I saw Lay Hyung and Chen Hyung talking at the corner of the room. I got to ask Lay Hyung where’s Luhan Hyung.
“Yi Xing Lay Hyung~” I tried to say it cutely, but Hyung’s face was blur. “Oh, maknae..” Chen Hyung said as he ruffled my hair. “What, Sehun?” Lay hyung asked. “Hyung, where’s…” “still in the dorm. On his bed, not moving nor eating.” He replied. I don’t even finish my question, yet he answered. “I was talking about..,” “Luhan Hyung? Yeah.” He replied shortly. I sighed. Was it wrong to tell him that I’m not gay? I am really a straight guy. But.. I can’t seem to hide that I actually, maybe for a little bit.. fall for Luhan Hyung.
“Sehun-ah, come here..” Suho Hyung said as he motioned his hand to call me over. I went to sit next to him on the corner of our practice room.
“What’s up, Hyung?” I said, but I wasn’t greeting him like I used to. Cheerfully. “You tell me.” Hyung held my hand tight. “Hyung. I bet you knew what’s going on.” “No, I don’t.” I sighed, knowing I can’t hide anything from this guy. “Luhan Hyung..” he looked at me, as he nodded. “What about him?” “He said that he liked me..” he smiled a little, “he finally confessed..”
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