Diary Entry 4.
Chasing the WindDiary Entry 4.
So many temptations. So many temptations that can allow all my thoughts to disappear and simply enjoy the moment. But once I start there will be no going back. Once I start I will not be able to stop. Just once and I will be into an endless abyss; I will be caught up in yet another downward spiral never to see the end of it.
I cannot even enjoy sleep now. Sleep, the one single moment where I can forget everything and pretend there is nothing wrong with me. But now, now darkness is no longer my friend. The moment I close my eyes fear and loneliness grips my mind. The moment I close my eyes I lose my sanity. Sleep is no longer an ally. Sleep has betrayed me. Sleep is now poison. I am only simply trapped in an endless cycle.
Can anyone help me? Do I want anyone’s help? What am I doing? Who am I trying to reach out to?
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