Diary Entry 33.
Chasing the Wind
Life is just an endless cycle in the end is it not? Try as hard as I may to escape and embark on a new path, every time I unknowingly find myself facing yet again the same cliff edge.
Should I jump?
Should I stay there?
Or should I turn back?
But what will there be awaiting for me once I turn back?
Am I allowed to turn back?
Am I even able to turn back?
I thought that I had reached the point in life where I could enjoy small moments of stability and sense of being content with life. I thought I had reached the point in which I could let down my defences ever so slightly and allow myself the luxury of peace. I thought I could finally sit back and not have to fight for my sanity during every step of my passage through life.
But I am still scared.
What if it all comes crumbling down again?
What if I fall down yet again?
What if… if works out this time?
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