Diary Entry 8.

Chasing the Wind
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Diary Entry 8.

 

 

But I felt it creeping inside of me, the wish, the desire to hold onto you, to taste romance, to taste love, to understand what having someone like that felt like, to experience the feeling of reciprocity. But I knew I couldn’t, I knew I shouldn’t.

 

I am such a hypocrite. A huge hypocrite. And yet I wanted love. I wanted to be loved. I wanted your love. I wanted you to accept me, the whole me. I wanted you to accept who I am, to accept me for who I am.

 

I was starting to feel more. But did I want that? Wasn’t it better before? Before meeting you I felt nothing, cared for nothing. And yet here I am, hoping that this is all a nightmare, that I have not lost you. But were you ever mine? What am I doing? What am I thinking? This isn’t me. This can’t be me. This shouldn’t be me. I need to be rational. I need to be logical. I need to be grounded. I cannot take risks. I cannot believe in fate and destiny.

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15th September 2020, finished editing!

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AiiSoo #1
Chapter 70: Aww. It’s a pity that their sweet moments are only in the last 2 chapters.
This is a good read too. Like all the other stories you’ve written here..! I seriously hope that more people will read your writings.
Daepits #2
God this is such a good fic because I can’t seem to move on from this. I shall reread this fic forever and ever :D thank you for writing such a wonderful story <3
cheonchoni
#3
Chapter 70: Your stories are my comfort place •́ ‿ ,•̀
cheonchoni
#4
Chapter 70: Your stories are my comfort place •́ ‿ ,•̀
cheonchoni
#5
Chapter 36: Eyyy mark, be careful dude.
cheonchoni
#6
Chapter 24: I think 'him' is jin. Might be wrong tho
NoraMyFics #7
Chapter 70: When I was suggested to read this story, I thought maybe I'll read it in few days, I certainly didn't expect myself to check it out immediately the next day and especially finish it in one go. It is really incredible and this makes me think of what kind of crap I've been after all this while, all these years, wasting 90% of time reading those many not so good stories just to fill the numb feeling that never goes away. This one is clearly, different one, at least to me. Makes me wonder if I would ever go back to reading those few silly ones I've been reading till now. Thanks for the story, even though this got me into lot of thinking, especially those diary lists, So full of life expressions, the longing, holding on and then realizing, moving forward towards serenity where the hope of living again stood. Simply amazing and wonderful and marvolus. Thank you for the story.
KimHyeJoo #8
Chapter 70: This story need more reader, seriously
This is wonderful!! :))
momoxia #9
Chapter 70: I loveee this story! I like the words and phrases you've chose, and the way you serves the plot, and the most important thing you did well by making the background of this story not-so-westernish (i mean the culture). Im sorry if I'm lacking in describing this :") but the thing is i loveeee this story!! You deserve the stars!