Diary Entry 3.
Chasing the Wind
I have allowed myself to become too comfortable with human company. I am losing my ability to be by myself. I am losing my ability to cope with everything by myself. Or is my state simply deteriorating so much that I cannot deal with it by myself anymore? Every time I feel like things are improving, taking a turn for the better, I am proven wrong. Something happens, an invisible trigger is pulled, and any colour in my world is washed away. What is wrong with me? Why am I like this? This is so tiring. So so tiring. I’m am drained. I am so so drained.
Numb
This is all I can feel right now. Numbness. A numbness that is ripping my soul away. A numbness taking complete control of my body, my mind, and yet ironically producing an agonising pain. I want to cry. I want to scream. But nothing. Nothing comes out. I am broken and I cannot be mended.
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