Mina’s POV

I thought it hurts to see the one you love obviously not love you back.

But the thing I am feeling right now? Makes that feeling comparable to ant bites.

Ever since Uncle died, I never saw her cry. Not even once.

But I know that it doesn’t mean she isn't hurting.

As uncle said, Chaeyoung is more fragile than she looks.

She does not cry, but she looks dead inside.

She won’t even eat the at the wake. She just stood there. Holding his dad’s frame.

I never left her side.

After the wake, she never left her room.

Even Auntie looks timid. But Chaeyoung is worst.

It’s been a day after the wake, but Chaeyoung still won’t leave.

I go everyday to her house to check up on her.

And it hurts, seeing her like this.

I tried to be strong in front of her. I will feed her, that thank god she willingly accepts. 

I put all sharp things in her room away after I saw her intensely stare at the knife I was using while feeding her.
And after that, I will leave her to rest.

And in Auntie’s arm, I will cry.

She knew that I was also hurting. Seeing Chaeyoung like this.

Auntie was a great mother.

She whispers courageous words to me.

And she thanked me for not leaving her daughter alone.

After that. I went to the hospital.

“Hey, Dad!” I greeted after I entered his office.

“Hey honey.” He stood up and kissed me on my temple.

I slumped myself on the chair.

“Still not good?” He asked and I nodded.

I always inform dad about things on Chaeyoung. 

Thinking about it. Now I understood how Chaeyoung felt.

Just thinking about losing my dad squeeze my heart.

“Is she….. umm…..” Dad wandered.
He doesn’t need to finish his words for me to understand.

“No. I check her wrist time to time.”

Both of us sighed.

It’s been what? 5? 4 days? After uncles death??

“We have a new psychiatrists hired. Why don’t you ask him some advice?” he suggested.

I smiled. “Will do.”

I stood up. Eager to help my love feel better.

I went to the psychiatrists department office and knock.

“Come in!” A low voice shouted.

“Uhmmm… Hi…” I greeted.

“Hello. You must be the infamous Myoui Mina.” He exclaimed.

“uh haha yeah.”

“You really are gorgeous. What brings you here?”

“Uhmmm I would like to ask for some advice?”

“Sure.”

I told him everything I saw. Signs. And asked him what to do.

He told me the same thing as what I was doing and thank God I am helping her the right way.

“So. Ummmm. Are you asking for yourself?” He asked.

“Ah. No. I was asking for someone really important to me.”

“Oh. Okay………….. Boyfriend?” 

I shookt my head.

“Girlfriend.”

“What?”

He didn't hear that?

“Anyway. I gotta go now. Thank you for the advice.”

“Anytime. And…. Hey… can you uhm….. comeback tomorrow? Just an update about the person’s mental health?” 

“Yeah sure. Thank you Mr……..”

“Just call me Bambam.”

“Thank you  Bambam.”

And with that I left.

My routine became school, then Chaeyoung’s house, and the hospital.

I update Bambam about Chaeyoung. And  for the third day. I told him that I can manage on my own.

I was about to leave when….

“Mina!”

I turned around and looked at him

He looks sheepish

“Can I uhm…… are you free this Saturday? I heard it’s your birthday and I was wondering if I could treat you with something…..”

I smiled at him. “I’m sorry  Bambam. I’m afraid I have to decline. I have something going on that day.”

“Oh… uhm… that’s cool.” He chuckled. 

I turned again to leave when...

“Can I get your number though?”

I looked at him again and just smiled. Then left.

It is now Thursday. And I was going on with my usual routine.

Someone snapped me into reality.

“Yah Mina! You haven’t touched your food! Break’s almost over.” Nayeon looked worriedly at me.

“That’s not true. It’s 2 hours more till the bel- OW!” Jeongyeon was punched by Nayeon.

“I’m sorry guys. Just….. thinking about something.” 

“Is she okay now?” Jihyo asked this time.

I was fighting the urge to cry in front of them that I didn’t notice them smiling when they looked up.

Suddenly, a familiar scent engulfed my nose. An arm wrapped around my waist.

I Froze. 

“Hey.” She said and kissed my cheek.

The tears I was holding suddenly bursted.

She panicked and went in front if me.

“Hey hey hey hey. Shhh. It’s okay.” She hugged me.

“It’s okay….. I’m here…..”

I hugged back. Tighter than ever.

Everyone left the table smiling to give us some private time.

“It’s okay….” 

“You idiot…” I said after a long time.

“Yes I am. I’m an idiot. Now stop crying.”

After I calmed down. She pulled.

She smiled at me. She still looks tired. But I know she is trying.

“Hey……. I’m sorry I took so long.” She smiled.

I just nodded like a kid.

She chuckled.

“Are you free this saturday?”

I nodded.

“Do you want to go out with me?

I nodded again.

“It’s your birthday.”

I nodded again.

I heard her chuckle.

“Can you do something else aside from nodding?”

I nodded again.

But before she could talk, I pulled her and kissed her on the lips.

I pulled back and I can tell she was stunned before sighing a low laugh.

“I’ll Pick you up at 7 okay?” She patted my head while I nodded.

She smiled. “I’ m going now. I still have something to do.”

She was about to leave when I tugged at her shirt.

She looked back.

She sighed.

“Mina……”

I Shookt my head.

“I have to go…”

I shookt my head again.

She sighed.

“All right. You big baby.”

She sat down beside me.

“I will stay. But only until break time’s over okay?”

I nodded again while rubbing my eyes.

“My big baby.” She said while I leaned on her.

After that, I continued the afternoon class feeling a little better.

Of course I still went to her house after.

And she smiled at me.

I stayed the night and cuddled with her till we fell asleep.

Friday went fast. Still doing the same routine.

I was now leaving the hospital when someone stopped me.

“Uhm ….. hey…. Bambam….. do you need something?”

“Yes. Uhmm…….. your uh……. Number?”

I chuckled.

I wrote a number down a paper. Not mine. And quickly left.

After I got home. I quickly changed into a comfy clothes and went to bed.

So excited for tomorrow.

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