Only Tears ..
My INFINITE charm !!
only few chapters left before the scenarios start so be ready to choose your destiny/plot ~
You sit outside chan's house crying taking out all of your anger alone and away from everyone else .
" ahhhh!!! " you scream as your heart squeeze in pain after few minutes your mother come looking for you .
" sweety! don't do this to your self !! it's going to be ok~ " your mother said hugging you from the back .
But You scream harder and push her to run away with the speed of light .
You run and run without stopping or looking back you just run with no destination in your mind , you run as long as your legs can survive .
20 minutes later ...
" chhhhaan ! Chhhhaan ! You stupid ! How could you leave me like this ! " you shouted standing in front of a big empty outdoor stage .
Your eyes scan the place as you remember your best friend chan standing there imitating sungjong in be mine .
" chan " you whispered as you see him on the stage smiling at you .
You break down in that moment and start crying your heart out and once his picture start to fade slowly you scream in pain .
Myungsoo pov
Infinite members show up to Chan's funeral ceremony ( the wake ) in black suits with irises flowers in their hands after
receiving the call early this morning .
" where is ( ___ ) ? " myungsoo asked your mother as soon as he couldn't find you .
" I don't know dear , she ran away and she didn't say a word I'm scared something bad might happen to her " your mother said sniffing .
" don't worry ! I will try to find her and bring her home , you stay here with Chan's mother she needs you " myungsoo said staring at chan's broken heart mother crying in front of her son picture .
Your mother nod as she go to sit next to her while myungsoo talk to the rest of infinite members .
" you go ahead ! I have to go somewhere ! " myungsoo said .
" I'll come with you " Sungyeol offered but myungsoo turn him down .
He give respect to Chan's mother and kneel down in front of Chan's coffin and give respect the he put down a white envelope
filled with cash before he run out to start looking for you .
" where is she ? " tired myungsoo wondered for an hour before his eyes sparkle as he remember one last place .
" ha ? I really thought she is gonna be here " myungsoo thought when he arrived the place .
Myungsoo hear a girl crying and screaming " chan! " just before he turn his back and leave .
" this is ( ____ ) voice ! " he said tracking the sound .
He start walking fast and then he glance your black dress , he slowly walk closer to you as he hear your heart breaking screaming
getting louder .
" why you left me ! Why you became my friend ?!! i already miss you so bad!! " he heard you shouting looking pathetic sitting on the grass .
" all these plans we had ~ Who is going to go with me to Korea next summer? you promised me!!! you said we will do everything together!! Why you lied to me! why you left me! I hate you! " he watch you as you you break down .
hearing those sad and painful words coming out of your mouth makes his heart squeeze in pain and he suddenly stop walking .
" what should I do ? What should I say ? I cant even give her comfort ! I can't think of any warm words "
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he thought looking at you as you scream in pain for your lost .
He start to walk backwards with eyes full of tears and sorrow " I can't give her anything " he thought feeling helpless .
" myungsoo ~ " he stop as soon as you call his name .
Your pov
You continue to scream " chan !! Comeback please ! " sitting on the grass tears falling like a river from your small red eyes .
Just when you wipe your tears away you look in front of you to see myungsoo's back , you blink twice before you scream
" myungsoo !! " as you sniff .
You see him stop for a second before he go back to walking away .
" myungsoo !!! " you scream louder .
You stand up and stare at him while he stop again before he walk faster this time as his tears start to fall down .
" what ? You gonna leave me too! alright~ Leave! everyone leaves me at the end ~ " you shouted staring at the back of his black suit .
After you say that you break down and collapse on the grass crying harder while burying your face behind your hands .
Seeing you in that state myungsoo turn around and walk to stand behind you .
" it's not like that~ it's just i .. " myungsoo said with trampling voice .
" not like that ? But You gonna leave me eventually ! If not today you will leave tomorrow if not tomorrow the day after ! At the end everyone gonna leave me! You are nothing but a dream ! You are not real ! Chan was not real ! Nothing is real ! " you scream as you cry .
" I don't wanna live anymore ! No one love me anyway ! why you didn't take me with you chan~~ " you said as you fight to breath .
suddenly you your nightmare stop when myungsoo wrap his arms around your chest to take your pain away .
" myu .. ng ... " you wanted to turn around and face him but you stopped when myungsoo hugged you tighter .
" shush , don't say a word~ everything gonna be alright~ " myungsoo said pulling you closer to him to the point you
found it hard to breath.
Not able to hold it anymore you turn around to face him and cry even louder .
myungsoo softly rest your head on his shoulder " cry all you want ~ i'm not going anywhere~ " he said sliding his hand on your short hair
as he shush you like a little baby .
you fall asleep on myungsoo shoulder once your eyes completely dry .
Everyone pov
It was almost night and you were very tired and barely can walk so Myungsoo decide to piggy back you the rest of the way home
you refuse at first but then he force you and you finally accept the offer once you get on his back you hug him very tightly
not wanting to ever let go " oppa promise me you will never leave me " you blurt out when myungsoo start to walk .
Myungsoo heart stop beating as he hear you say that but he doesn't response instead he walk faster .
" oppa why you don't answer ? " you asked with sleepy eyes .
" we are almost home ( ____ ) you should take rest! how about sleeping ~ " myungsoo said before you close your eyes and fell in sleep .
Myngsoo can only think of your words all the way " why i feel so attached to this girl? i only have known her for a week!!"
he take a quick glance at your face that resting on his right shoulder and think " why i feel i want to protect her for the rest of my life? "
he whisper your name when he stand in front of your house " we arrived ~ " he added as he ring your house doorbell .
since you were in a deep sleep you couldn't hear anything so he continued carrying you .
Your mother quickly open the door and let him in as your sister and father watch silently in worry , myungsoo make his way directly to your room after taking the promission from your parent to put you in bed .
" ( ____ ) here we are , sleep well ~ we pushed our schedule behind so I will see you tomorrow "
myungsoo said as he put you down on your bed .
suddenly you grab his hand " please stay with me little longer " you stopped him from walking away .
Myungsoo nod in silent and sit next you " now sleep~ " myungsoo said looking at you with love .
you stare at his charming lovely eyes " not before you sing for me~ would you do that for me? " you said with eyes full of tears .
Myungsoo nod and start to sing for you with a voice of heaven " jikyeobwa wat Janha ni sarangeul gin ibyeoreul ... "
You smile as you hear myungsoo angelic voice singing be mine for you .
You lye on your right side eyeing him while he hold your hand .
" I don't wanna close my eyes , I'm scared if I do I wont be able to see you again " you thought tears falling from your eyes
down to your cheeks as you slowly shut them to fall in a deep sleep .
hope you liked this chapter~ and sorry for anyone who lost his/her bestfriend * never ending i did lost my bestfriend like 2 years ago and i know how does it feel but as we all know life don't stop and in a point we need to let go and learn to live again .. i always say live to love ^^
at the end i wanna say love you and miss you my bestfriend " hope " <33
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