I Can't Understand My heart

Why Must Him ?
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FIRSTLY, I WANT TO SAY I'M REALLY SORRY BCOS IM NOT UPDATING THIS STORY YESTERDAY. I was really busy with homework T.T

 // Night change to Morning //

 

   "Where in hell my History text book!" Bambam looking for it everywhere but he can't find it. He start to became stressboy when he not see the book that his class need fot today lesson. "Wahhh! Where are you actually?! I'm not in mood to play hide and sid!" Bambam slam the table hardly so Jackson also can hear the bump sound from outside. "WHAT THE HELL YOU ARE SCREAMING FOR! IF YOU GONNA KILL YOURSELF PLEASE DO IT AT OTHERS PLACE. I DONT WANT YOUR STUPID GHOST PLAYING AROUND THIS HOUSE!" Bambam get shock when Jackson cursing to him. He better be mute from now or he just enter the heaven today. He try his luck again to search the damn book but he do not see it. Under table, under the bed, Toilet, in the kitchen, in his closet and every ing where in the big house but he can't see anything. He only welcoming by a annoying Jackson who are now ready to get his off and go to school. 

"Hyung!" Bambam collecting all his bravery and decided to ask the others if perhaps he know where was his books. Jackson stopping from tying his shoelaces and looked up facing the hazy Bambam with his sharp gaze. "Err.. hyung.. do you emm, maybe seen my History book anywhere?" Bambam asking the question without looking into the older eyes. He is too scare for do that. "No." A words from the badass. Bambam nodding his head, do not want to ask more damn things to save his life. The smaller pinkish hair boy then walking into his room to grab his beg and walks to school. He have giving up to finding the books and then.. "Wait. It was in my room." Said Jackson suddenly then he leave to the school. Bambam rush to his hyung room when he heared that news. "Here you are! Why in hell you in hyung room huh?" Bambam took the book and place it in his school back. He stood for a little in his older brother's room and take a good look over the room. Bambam's lips make a C shape. "Hyung have a good taste." Said the younger boy while he checking the room. Out of sudden he stop his foot from walking infront of the desk. They are a lot of his family pictures. When they are at his grandma house, when they are having a party for his father birthday, when his brother won the soccer match, when Chirstmas day and too many of special day. But then his tears drop one by one. His heart feel like been shooted by bullets. His legs became weak and finally he broke down with tears falling like a waterfall. "Why.." He clenching one of the pictures while crying sadly. "Hyung.. Are you hating me this much?" He looking at all those pictures who some had cutten by half and some all those have a red and black mark to cover his face. They are not one of the pictures have his face on it eventhough he was there in everypart of the time. "Why do you hate me so much hyung. Whats my fault to you.." Bambam can't control his emotion when he saw all the pictures. He really broken inside. All this times, he tried his best to forget what his hyung did to him and always stay by his hyung side becuase his love to his hyung are so strong and he fall in love with his hyung every single day but this is hurting his self too much. He knew, Jackson do not liking him because he was a nerd but he do not understand why his hyung hating him from

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cuzpcy
#1
Chapter 10: Markkk! Why aren't you falling For Yugyeom?ㅠ.ㅠ*crying My heart out*
cuzpcy
#2
Chapter 8: Aww Mark calmed down i mean lately he's more soft and he helped bambam Too!❤❤
jackbam07 #3
Chapter 30: Please update it been a long time ):
Kcrescent_V
#4
Chapter 30: Update soon authormin
goteat7 #5
Chapter 30: Fightiiing....... thank u for update. U are the best ;)
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purplenekochan #6
Chapter 30: Please do not abandon this fic. :(
It's okay. We will wait but just don't leave us hanging :(
selumiere
#7
Chapter 30: finally update and this story make me cry as always ;;;;

i'll always waiting until this story reach the end, take your time authornim and fighting!♡

(i'm sorry i'm not good for making words TwT)
wawa_ika200 #8
Chapter 29: Oouuuhhh...its so heartbreaking ya know authornim...i wish jackson could have at least alittle time to spent with bambqm together bfore he died...i felt so sorry for bamie....guys take a gud care of bamie...authornim...when will u update it again...iwant to know the ending...