On his desk sat some new fan letters, each one with similar chronological order that he memorized.

First, they would always start with a ‘Hello! I’m ***, I’ve liked you since I saw you at that talk show...’ And it would develop into things like, ‘Oppa eat more… you’re losing your cheeks…’ or ‘Take lots of rest! We’re worried about your waist^^’

The endings are pretty diverse, though.

Some girls would say that they will support him, some love him, and others just wish him all the best. (There was one that suggested for him to get a nice girlfriend but let’s not talk about that.)

Whenever Yixing would feel lost, or burdened by the hectic lifestyle of an EXO member, he would resort to those carefully written words of support from his Xingmis.

This was one of those times.

He just got back the other day to perform LOVE ME RIGHT with EXO on a music show, and some of the fans posted harsh comments on the internet.

Yixing tried to understand that this was largely due to the fact that Tao was on a leave for a year- and it was because he had lost the faith of the fans completely.

But this time he couldn’t think of a way to regain their long lost trust.

Last time, when Kris and Luhan left, he composed a song to appease the enraged fans. He named it ‘Promise’.

JinHee helped in monitoring the making of the song, but she didn’t involve herself in it, since the song was an ode to the fans from Yixing. It had to be as sincere as possible.

It was interesting how trust was so hardly gained, but so easily lost.

Some of the netizens cursed at him within the comments. And even though he didn’t try to think much of it, it would’ve been a lie to say that it didn’t bug him one bit.

What else could he do?

He had already tried everything. He had put all his heart and soul into promoting EXO- even in his solo activities. Flying back from China to Korea and vice versa took most of his energy, but he still did it to not disappoint the fans.

Zhang Yixing was tired, he was stressed, and if he heard one more person saying the term ‘CEO Zhang’ he would barf.

It started as a joke between the fans, but as more people used it, the more pressured he feels.

Now it’s funny to think that debuting was the hardest thing to achieve in the life of an idol. Debuting is simple. You just work your off and pray to God that it works out.

The real challenge lies in maintaining the position of an idol.

Scandals may come, group members leave, health issues and contracts will make you want to steal a time machine and turn back to the time when you were a trainee. And if you meet your pre-debut self, you would tell them to run away. As far away from the training room as possible- and never come back.

It made him remember his conversation with Luhan while they were drinking last week.

“Gege,” the younger one started, “Do you regret joining EXO?”

Luhan smiled, looking angelic yet sad at the same time, “EXO… was one of the best times of my life. Sure there were times I got fed up real bad, but in the end, it was an experience I would cherish for the rest of my existence.”

“Even HunHan?” Yixing snickered.

The other male laughed out loud, holding his aching stomach. “Yes… Good lord. I even miss the crazy shippings our… your EXO-Ls woul