Jjong and I were sitting under the tree where I previously went to be alone at lunch. It made me feel kinda special because he ditched his popular frinends to have lunch with me without even hesitating it. He just met me at my locker and the next thing I knew his head was resting on my shoulder as he munched on a sandwich. 

"Jonghyun-ah?"

"Yeah hyung?"

"When did you start...liking me?" I couldn't help but ask. This question had been burned at the back of my head ever since he had confessed to me.

"Hmm... I've always felt something special for you, but this summer is when I was really infatuated I guess" He mumbled while eating his lunch. What a messy eater.

"This summer? We never saw each other though." I didn't know what answer I expected but it wasn't this. 

"Yeah ...not to sound creepy or anything, but I sorta saw you reading in your front yard one morning and...you looked really beautiful the way the sun hit your face. I watched you read all morning. And then another time I saw you at the coffee shop and you looked even nicer because your hair was a little bit rustled from the wind. I wanted to go and say hi but I got a bit too caught up in...well staring" We were both blushing like crazy sporting tomato red faces.

"Hehe really?" Holy Jonghyun is so cute I can't believe he went into mild-stalker mode because he liked me.

"I can't explain why but ever since those two moments, I couldn't get my mind off of you. Anyways, that's kinda what led to my breakup."

"I thought you said you broke up with your girlfriend because..." I trailed off.

"No you're right, but what made me realize I was biual, was you. I mean I always had a hunch that I wasn't just into girls, but I guess my feelings towards you made it definite. And obviously I couldn't go on dating my girlfriend if I liked someone else, so we had a discussion. Okay no. We had a huge argument and then we broke up. It was mutual I guess"

"Oh" was all I could muster.

"When did you realize you liked me?" he questioned.

"Umm... a while ago" I didn't really want him knowing just how long I had fantasized about my childhood friend being with me.

"Care to specify?"

"Um…not particularly" Maybe I could wait a bit longer until I told him.

"Oh c'mon Jinki, how long? I really wanna know, hyung" He whined.

"Okay, are you sure?" Of course he was sure, why did I even ask.

He vigorously nodded in response.

"Okay it's been around...three years?"

"So since the start of high school?" I nodded, not wanting to speak at that time.

"I wish I had known, then maybe we could've gotten a three year start to this" I wondered what 'this' even meant exactly. Our relationship was still completely undefined. It didn't matter much to me. I was happy with this spark of a relationship that we shared.

"But you didn't like me then"

"That's not true, I told you I've always felt something for you Jinki hyung" Jjong said matter-of-factly.

"What do you mean?"

"Like I've always found you attractive, and whenever I've been around you I've felt the need to kinda impress you and look extra nice. It wasn't a clear 'crush' but more of a subconscious sense of desire"

I blushed at his word choice. Desire. That made it sound so....ual. I blushed even more as I noticed how intensely he was staring at me.

"Aww you're so cute" He cooed planting a small kiss on my cheek. The blushing once again intensified.

After that interaction I was a giggly mess for the rest of the day. Whenever I glanced my eyes in the direction of Jonghyun I couldn't help but start getting red-faced. It was just so mind-blowing that someone with a jawline that defined and who had eyes that adorable along with biceps that toned could have feelings for someone that lame. I made a mental note to ask Jonghyun why he liked me later. I mean he said he found me attractive but that's definitely not the whole story. My looks were not that great as to make Kim Jonghyun fall for me. 

Later that day we were lying down on his bed doing some of the project. We were resting pretty close to each other so that our sides and feet brushed each other's.

It didn't seem to affect Jonghyun, but damn did it make my heart flutter.

"Do you wanna go out with me this weekend?"

"What?" I sputtered out.

"I wanna take you out on a proper date" He spoke voice confident and smile as wide as ever.

"Uhh...yes"

"Yes?"

"Yes." Again I was at a loss for words and complete sentences were out of my capability. 

"Yay" he chuckled. "This will be the first date I've been on, actually"

"Your first? But you've dated before...?" Words were slowly coming out of my mouth once again.

"We never really went out. I mean I guess to the movies, but...I don't know that's something I would do with a friend platonically so I don't count those as dates."

"So...what will we do?" Maybe I wasn't allowed to ask this. Perhaps it was a surprise? How do dates work someone help me... 

"I don't know yet. We'd need like a full week to do everything I want"

"Okay narrow it down, then tell me"

"Nah I'm gonna surprise you" A-ha maybe it was a surprise.

"What if I'm dressed inappropriately?"

"Then I'll tell you to change, duh hyung" He teased me and we resumed working. 

An hour later the work was interrupted when Jonghyun asked the even more nerve racking question of "Jinki, how're things with your mom?"

"We haven't talked about it since. The piano is still in the living room, but I haven't touched it since the argument"

"That's not good Jinki, you have to sort things out"

"Yeah I know, but it's just a matter of her coming around to the idea of me being a musician, because there's no way I'm compromising. I mean it's my life, my decision." I didn't mean to sound so pissed but I couldn't help it. The whole situation . It put my career on the line, and I was far from okay with that.

"I get it, I'd feel the same way. I'm just lucky my parents accepted my decision of going into music. But hey, you're welcomed to play our piano anytime. And by welcomed, I  mean please please play because you're wonderful and your music makes me so happy" 

"I think I'll take you up on that. I don't want to get out of practice."

"Will you play something for me?" He pleaded.

"Of course, Jonghyun"

"Now?"

"Umm..." and before I could finish he was dragging me outside his room down to his living room, sitting me on the piano bench. He looked up at me with puppy eyes. I could practically hear them whine, "Play something, play something". 

"I don't really have anything prepared..." I trailed off feeling a bit of pressure.

"You said you've composed right? Well you've got to know those songs by heart, right? I don't know though, I've never composed whole songs. Just bits and pieces of ones"

"Okay" I spoke blatantly, "I don't have a name for this one yet" and with that I started playing. 

It was a slow ballad I had written about not being good enough for anyone. At the time I was encompassed by loneliness. It was before I met Taemin, but after Jonghyun stopped being my best friend. I had no one, and it made me feel rather depressed. I played this song over and over again at the time in hope that it would combat my sorrow. Of course it didn't, and only made my feelings more intense. Needless to say I knew this song like the back of my hand.

The song was over before I knew it, and it took me a second to process my surroundings again. A hand suddenly crept onto my shoulder, and that shut me right out of my dazed thoughts. 

"Wow" a stunned Kim Jonghyun said. His puppy eyes were wider than normal. It was safe to say they were seconds from popping out of his head.

I told him that and he laughed. 

"Sorry, just wow. That was the best piece I've ever heard you play. 

"Really?" 

"Yes, Jinki that was marvelous. Like seriously. Please share your music with the world. It needs it. There's too much crap nowadays. I mean c'mon this doesn't compare to any of that over produced kpop . 

"I thought you like f(x) though, Jjong?"

"Well yeah...but this is way better, I promise you"

"Thank you Jongyun" I spoke quietly, leaning my face towards his. Quickly he leaned in too and melded his lips into my own. Our lips moved in sync with each other's and I got lost in the touch.

 I felt something warm and wet brush on my lips and I didn't know what to do about it. It took me a minute to fully realize what it was and that I should open my mouth. So very cautiously, I parted my lips every so slightly as I let his tongue slip inside. Not really knowing how to react, I gradually twisted my tongue up to meet his.

I felt his hands creep down my back and slip under my shirt. It shocked me a bit, but I reveled in the feeling of having his soft hands glide across my skin. His tongue moved a bit faster and I took in his taste. It was so new and so addicting.

I unconsciously let out a whimper as his hands moved to my chest. It was embarrassing, but he didn't seem to mind so I moved my hands under his shirt because damn did I want to feel his back. And god it did not let down. I felt those y smalls of his back and then made my way up his tan toned muscles. I could feel him shiver as I trailed my fingers lightly down the center of his back. I made a note to myself that he liked that.

He nibbled on my lower lip before he moved his lips down across my jaw to my neck. He brushed his lips along the expanse of my neck before settling at a particular spot to his liking. At first he just kissed it, but then he started . When his teeth lightly dug into the skin I released a gasp, which only encouraged him to involve his tongue as he quickly starting marking a new area.

I starting scratching my nails into the flesh of his back, which he seemed to be enjoying the action by his strong exhales. 

He brought his face back up to mine and gave me a chaste peck while slipping his hands out from under my shirt, as I did the same to him.

He gaped at me for a sec before bringing the back of his hand lightly onto my forehead, "Oh hyung, you're burning up. I hope you aren't coming down with anything" he gave me smirk.

"Oh shut up." 

(A/N) Hey there what'd u think of this chapter? Good? Bad? Boring? Fluffly? Plz lemme know. I'm gonna try to update one more time before school starts and I die, so yep. Talk to you later