Mino Pov

It has been a year since Min Young left, I threw myself into work and also stopped going to clubs. Sajangnim and the rest of the members just left me alone because they knew how hurt I felt. I knew she went to New York but I couldn't find the courage to go and face her because I knew I deserved what she did to me. That dawn, after I saw her note and cried, I ran all the way to the dorms and practically almost banged down her door before I remembered that I had her keys. I went in and it looked like how it was the last time I left there but I noticed that our photos and the things that I gave her were missing.

Her clothes were gone too and I couldn't find anything to indicate that we had dated ever, I jumped into the car and drove all the way to our secret apartment hoping that there is still some traces of her or us there but the same thing, there were no more photos of us and there was just her set of the key on the dining table. I even drove all the way to the airport hoping to catch her but Lydia unnie must have spotted my car or something and she texted me to not even dare to step into the airport. She mentioned that sajangnim was with them and he is extremely upset with me so if I wanted to still have a job, I better just pretend like I never came to the airport at all.

I went back to the dorm and just stayed there. I only went out of my room for meals, shower and work, otherwise I just kept to myself. I guess you never really know what you are missing until it is gone somehow. I know that she talks to the members except for Jinwoo hyung and for that, I'm somehow grateful to him because it felt like at least one person understood my pain. She rarely spoke to Taehyun as she could never stand his sassiness but she spoke a lot to Seunghoon hyung and Seungyoon. I mean if I did not know, I would think that she is dating either one of them somehow. One day, I was just browsing the internet and stumbled upon an article of Hilary Duff saying that she worked with a Korean-American producer and dancer for one of her songs and a Korean rapper-songwriter for another one of her songs on her new album however they only allowed her to reveal their pen names. I got a shock cause I recognized both of those pen names to be Min Young's and Hanbin's pen names!

Flashback

"Hyung and Min Young, if you ever wanted to write a message for someone but you don't want to do it directly, what would your pen name be if you wrote a song that someone else would sing on your behalf?", Hanbin asked me and Min Young during one of our hang out sessions not long after I joined YGE. "I would put MYL so that the person would know me by my initials", Min Young answered. "I would have the balls to tell the person directly but if I have to, then I guess I would put M.S so that it stands for Much Sorry", I said then Hanbin responded with "Well, I will do like Min Young and put KHB, my initials too."

Present

I rushed to look up the wikipedia of Hilary duff's album and there it was, MYL on "Breathe In, Breathe Out" amongst several other songs and KHB on "Arms Around a Memory". I am guessing that Hanbin's song is a message to her and looking at the titles that Min Young worked on, somehow it felt like it was directed to me so I decided to purchase the albums off iTunes to have a listen although Hilary Duff definitely was not my favorite singer to listen to, I guess I owe it to Min Young to at least listen to her message towards me.

I remember what I wore on our first date
I remember how you felt against my face
I remember all the songs we used to hate
I remember we were sleepless in New York
I remember how my avenues were yours
I remember when they weren't anymore

No more rain or shine
Well, I guess this is goodbye, I

I made a top ten list
Of all the things I miss
Your lying eyes and lips
They didn't make it
And when I'm cold at night
I know that I'll survive
Until I feel alright
I'm gonna fake it
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out

I remember when we had too much to dream
I was hanging on your words like I'm sixteen
I remember being high on your caffeine
I remember when we fell too deep to feel
I remember when the real became too real
I remember when it hurt too much to heal

No more rain or shine
Well, I guess this is goodbye, I

I made a top ten list
Of all the things I miss
Your lying eyes and lips
They didn't make it
And when I'm cold at night
I know that I'll survive
Until I feel alright
I'm gonna fake it
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out

"X" marks the spot where we left our hearts in
"X" marks the spot where we fell apart in
"X" marks the spot where we left our hearts in
I know, I know
[x2]

I made a top ten list
Of all the things I miss
Your lying eyes and lips
They didn't make it
And when I'm cold at night
I know that I'll survive
Until I feel alright
I'm gonna fake it
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out

"X" marks the spot where we left our hearts in
"X" marks the spot where we fell apart in
"X" marks the spot where we left our hearts in
I know, I know

I can't believe that she remembered everything and the moment she surprised me and told me that she was in New York to spend time with me, that was the best moment of my life. Our one year anniversary was around that time but sajangnim wanted us to shoot our album photos in New York so I thought that we would never even have time to have dinner together. I may not be the perfect boyfriend or always treated her like a girlfriend but I loved her so much, I guess I will just live with the memories of what could have been and today is the day whereby I will go out of seclusion and try to slowly move on without her in my life.

An update from Mino's pov. I guess still no love for Mino?

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