Someone like you

Nothing compares, no worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste? (Adelle-Someone like you)

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“I’m sorry, but I can’t with you anymore”

“Why?”

“I-I will getting married and that person is not you. I’m sorry”

I can feel my eyes hazy with tears. I withdrawn my hand, not let you held my hand any longer. My heart clench in pain, bleed and dying. I want shout at you, slap your face, cussing you but I can’t. I love you too much until I’m afraid I’ll still loving you even if you getting married with someone else.

“Congratulation. Don’t forget me, okay”

“Teuki..”

You whispered softly but I don’t want hear anything. I’m leaving you behind before my tears brimmed and I will ended crying in front of you. I don’t want to show my weakness anymore although I know, you have see all of my weakness. You not calling me to come back to you nor you not run after me. I know you serious.

I feel my world become strange in my eyes. Not familiar, not friendly. I see you in every way I take and I still can smell your fragrance in me. “I never think that I will so fragile like this without you, Kangin”. I’m sobbing again. I pack my stuff silently. I want to hate you but I can’t that’s why I choose to leave. Far from this place, this town, far from you.

Three years has passed without news from you. I think you really happy with your marriage life. I decide to come back not for dig my past wound nor to make new wound in my heart. I just must to come back for my best friend. “Leeteuk hyung?” a soft voice can be heard from my back, I turning my back and see two man standing each other. The smaller man smile softly and the taller smile with hint of sadness in his eyes.

“So you leave this town because Kangin hyung married?” Sungmin asked with confused face. “No and yes. Kangin's marriage only one factor which make me leave this town”. I see Kyuhyun and Sungmin look each other in confused, “But-but hyung, Kangin hyung..” “Minnie”, Kyuhyun has cut off Sungmin word and make me curious. “What happened?. Tell me the truth”. Kyuhyun pull out a letter from his pocket and give that to me. “This is the reason why we looking for you almost this one year, Leeteuk hyung. I accidentally found this letter last year when I cleaning up Kangin hyung room. He’s not longer with us in this world, hyung”.

My hand trembled when I opened the letter. My tears falling when I read each sentences in your letter. “Kangin hyung was very ill when he decided to break up with you and he never married with any other person. Believe me, even until his last breath, he still loving you hyung.” Kyuhyun word sound clearly in my ears but the truth inside his word slicing my heart leaving sting pain and blood. “Why he not tell me his condition, Kyuhyun?. Maybe if I know, I wouldn’t leave him and now I’ll definitely continue my life in regret”. “Don’t hyung. Continue your live happily as before, that’s what Kangin hyung want. He doesn’t want tell you, because he doesn’t want you mourning when he death. He prefer you hate him than see you mourning” I smiled bitterly after heard Kyuhyun's word and I let my tears flow freely when I read your last sentences. Tears that I had hold for this three years.

Leeteuk my angel. Mianhae. Until forever I’ll loving you.

Yay, Kangteuk, finally..Hope you like it..picture not mine