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Yongguk walked into his apartment, sighing heavily. It had been a long day and all he wanted to do was collapse on his bed. His boss had been on his back all day, despite his boss knowing that he had lost someone close to him. What his boss didn't understand was that he hadn't just lost a friend, but someone who owned his heart. Himchan had been everything to him, and a part of Yongguk had died with him. He could only show his true grief at home, where he knew his cousin was going through the same loss. Himchan had been like a second father to Junhong, where Yongguk was his first. This was hard on them both.

As soon as he stepped into the house, he heard hard rock music coming from one of the bedrooms. He knew from that alone that Junhong was depressed and angry. He would normally listen to rap driven songs, rapping along with it. This was different, because it was a way that he could simply zone out and void himself of any emotions.

Frowning, Yongguk made his way to Junhong's bedroom and knocked on the door. When he didn't get an answer, he turned the doorknob, pushing it open. He saw the tall teenager sitting on his bed, staring at the floor. He was zoned out, just as Yongguk knew he would be.

Yongguk started to step over to him, but Junhong shook his head at him, motioning toward the door. He obviously didn't want to talk, and Yongguk wasn't going to push anything.  "I'm ordering pizza if you want any, okay?" He smiled when Junhong nodded. It was a start, at least. The teen glanced at him, then the door, signalling that he wasn't in the mood to talk. Yonnguk sighed again, walking  out of the room and closing the door. He felt a stabbing pain in his chest that had been re-occurring for the last six weeks. Things weren't getting any better for either of them. This was coming on the anniversary.

He felt the pain that was still in his chest, taking a deep breath as he ordered pizza. They needed to eat, even if neither of them seemed to want to face the fact that Himchan was dead and wouldn't ever be coming back. Things were still awkward between them.

Once the pizza arrived, they the tv to distract from their pain. One of their favorite shows was on, so they laughed and talked about it. It was something good to distract them from the hell that had been surrounding them since Himchan's death.

After watching the show, Junhong excused himself to go back to his homework. When he was leaving, he turned and smiled at Yongguk. It was nice to see."Goodnight, hyung. I love you."

Yongguk smiled back at him, turning off the tv. "I love you, too. Goodnight." As soon as Junhong was gone, he picked up the pizza box and threw it in the t