Sandara’s POV

I was still a bit shaken from the incident a while ago – not so much with the accident but on Joongie’s sudden outburst. I mean, banging my forehead on the car window happened before but that was the first time I saw Joongie reacted that way. If looks could kill, I’ll be 6 feet below the ground right now. I couldn’t even describe his face and I certainly would not be able to forget it.  When he hugged me, it felt like he was clinging for life. I giggled because it wasn’t really a big deal, it happened like four times or so in a year for me and when he reacted like that I thought it was funny but apparently it was the opposite for him. Thinking about it made me feel good knowing that he really cared for me but whenever I remember his face I feel that there was something more to it - Something really deep. He was terrified and I felt ashamed for how I reacted.

I’m also anxious of Joongie’s reaction for my Strong Heart appearance. Though what Seungri and Dongwook said was true, there were also some lies. I mean, we talked about it before broadcast and they had to spice up the topic a bit to make it more interesting but knowing Joongie I’m sure he’ll go ballistic once again before I could even explain. I just hope it won’t be as bad as I thought.

After all that happened the past weeks, Joongie’s still a little edgy and emotionally sensitive. Though he’s trying his very best to bounce back but there were still visible signs. He seldom went out unless it’s necessary; he never went to clubs; he’s very cautious around people; and he kept on checking on me and the members’ whereabouts. He just won’t stop calling us. His fear of losing someone dear to him is extremely great nowadays.  Losing me either in death or to someone else will surely be a big blow to him and the incident awhile ago just proved it.

Jaejoong’s POV

I was drying my hair inside our room and when I was done Dara still haven’t notice my presence. She was staring at the television blankly, letting out a deep sigh from time to time. I gazed at her for awhile, trying to guess what was on her mind. She must still be thinking about what happened; she must still be shaken. I nearly lost my mind thinking that I was on the verge of losing her and it was because of my carelessness. While I was hugging her, it felt like I was clinging for life. I was petrified. Another lost in a month is more than enough to make me crazy.

I climbed on to our bed and settled my head on her lap gently. She jolted a bit upon realizing it.

“Omo~”

I smiled and took her hand, “Angel, what are you thinking?”

“Huh?”

“You’ve been staring at the television for quite some time and you’ve been sighing too.”

“Oh... you’ve been observing me huh?” she cooed playfully trying to change the subject.

“Not intentionally... “ I said giving her a thin smile.

“Hhhmmm... nothing... Oh~ Strong heart is starting now,” she said excitedly pointing at the TV screen. She was forcefully cheerful and I noticed her giving me a worried glance. Something’s really bothering her and I’m sure it’s not only about the car incident a while ago.

I turned my body sideways to watch the show properly. It was Strong Heart YG Family Special. I was looking forward of watching it too since most of YG’s artist are my acquaintance. I really admire their family. They’re very close-knit and their strong support for one another’s very evident. I’m actually jealous on how YG sajangnim treats his artist.  In business and in private, he is fair.

My girl looked so beautiful and cool. I loved her fashion style. It’s very unique; not so girly yet it still defined her beauty.  We were having fun watching the show. We laughed and exchanged comments from time to time until it was time for Seungri’s talk. I felt her legs tensed and she let out a deep sigh as soon as Seung Gi read out Seungri’s board, “Bad Woman Sandara Park?”

Her worries must be related to Seungri’s revelation, I thought. I feign ignorance but I was itching to know what it’s all about.  I was taken aback when he talked about Dara’s love life. My eyes widen and my mouth hanged open as I listen. I knew Dara was waiting for my reaction but I never turned to look at her. I kept quiet and listened to every single word that’s being said never wanting to miss anything.

 Dara's SH performance :   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WJB_srz1GMs

I kept on staring at the television even when she was performing. Though my mind was in turmoil I can’t help but chuckled as I watch her parody Dongwook hyung’s song. I smirked when she was done; somehow it helped me relax a bit. When Seung Gi moved on to another topic, I was still tight-lipped then I felt her fingers brushing my hair gently.

“Joongie~ Joongie... please say something,” she said cautiously. Honestly, I don’t want to say anything because I really don’t know where to start. I was wondering when it all happened. Was Seungri talking about me? If not, who are those guys? I was also curious to what Dongwook hyung has revealed.

“Joongie...” I heard Angel whispered once again.

I turned to face her but I never muttered a word. I just stared at her trying to read her mind because I don’t want to get the wrong idea.  I wanted to hear her explanation even though I felt so uneasy about it. Somehow, she must have read my thought because she started to explain without me asking.

“Joongie, let me explain.” She said and when I just look at her she continued, “Please don’t misunderstand. You know how it is when we go on variety shows. We often add something to it to make it more interesting. You heard me right when Seung Gi-sshi asked if it were true and I said some of it were. “

Creasing my forehead and raising an eyebrow, I waited for her to continue. “The first man happened when I was still a trainee. I don’t know if you remember but you asked Seungri for my number when we first met at NB. I waited but you never called.” She pouted feeling disappointed that it made me chuckled.  “I had a crush on you then but you’re such a big star and you’re often surrounded by a lot of beautiful and young celebs so it crashed all the hope I had.”

[Note: Remember I wrote in Chapter 1 that they first met at NB club?]

“Winter 2009, we were on our way home from broadcast when I saw couples happily dating in a cold weather.  I felt envious and sad so I jokingly asked Seungri to find me a boyfriend. I didn’t know he will act on it and when he called to inform me, CL took care of him just as she said.”

“Who is he?” I finally asked, intrigued.

She looked at me, contemplating whether she’s going to say it or not but I stared at her fiercely wanting to get the information I wanted.  “Suju’s Donghae,” she whispered shyly, looking away from me. I sarcastically chuckled after hearing the name.

I waited for her to continue but she never did so I asked dryly, “Why did you stop? There’s still one left?”

Suddenly, she gave me a deadly glare. “Waeyo??” I asked.

“How could you?” she sternly muttered.

My eyes rounded in disbelief. What is wrong with her? I’m supposed to be the one fuming here but why did it suddenly became the opposite? I wondered as I looked at her in disbelief.

“What?” I exclaimed.

“Huh! I can’t believe this. I feel like a criminal being investigated.” She suddenly exploded.

I hastily sat up and faced her. “Boh? Huh!! Why are you mad? Aren’t I supposed to be the one upset here?”

 “You sounded like I cheated on you?” She yelled.

“Yah~ why are you shouting? “ I countered.

“You’re shouting at me too.” She howled back with a very deadly glare.

“I was just asking. I let you explain right? I never said a word about it. Why are you so defensive? “

“Defensive? Huh!! Why should I? I never did anything wrong.”

“Seems like you have based on the way you’re acting right now... When I was observing you before the show started, you looked so worried so there must be something more to it otherwise you won’t care so much on my reaction, right?” I cried out.

“Boh?? What are you talking about?”

“Oh~ don’t act innocent on me Dara. I already caught you red handed.  You w