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Sandara POV

I was not expecting Joongie to say all those things. Though he said it in a mischievous way, but I know there was a hint of truth and hurt on it. Somehow, I can’t bring myself to look at him. I feel ashame because I know he was right. Thinking about it, I seldom tell him how I really feel. I usually just respond to whatever he’s telling me. Though I also feel insecure and jealous, I often kept it to myself. I thought it was the right thing to do and what he wanted from me. I struggled with my feelings too. I tried my hardest to understand everything. I feared that if I am too clingy he might feel suffocated and leave me. I wonder if I was being selfish or too cautious.  Was I over thinking everything? Should I take a risk?

Jaejoong’s POV

“Angel, I didn’t mean it in a bad way. Miane, I hurt your again.” I started. Dara was wrapped in my arms but she’s not responding. She remained silent and unmoved. She was not crying either. Was I too tactless? Did I hurt her again? Ottokae~ what have I done?

I released her and forced her to look at me. She had this blank look on her face and she’s scary whenever she’s acting like this. I really don’t know what’s going on her mind. She just kept on staring at me. “Angel.... “I touched her cheek tenderly, “Jebal... say something. You are scaring me.”

“Angel....” I called out again capping her face with my palm and waking her from reverie.

Her eyes rapidly blink, “Huh?”

I gave her a peck on the lips, “Thank God. Forgive me, baby”, and hugged her again.

I felt her arms around me and that made me feel lighter and I hugged her even tighter.

“I’m fine. Why do you keep on saying sorry?” She muttered rubbing my back. “There’s nothing to be sorry about.”

I let her go and hold her shoulders, looking at her in the eyes trying to read her mind.

“You didn’t do anything wrong. You just told me how you feel.” She chuckled lightly but I know she did it just to make me feel lighter. “Honestly, I think you were right. So you see, there’s no need for forgiveness.”

“But...” I started to explain when I saw a hint of sadness on her eyes. She maybe saying things to make me feel better but her eyes can’t lie.  She’s doing it again - Hiding her true feelings. I really wish she will share her burdens to me, that’s what couple should do right? Don’t get me wrong. I am really thankful for having a very understanding girlfriend but it just that I sometimes feel that she too cold. I mean, all of us feel jealous sometimes right?

“Joongie, it’s me who should be sorry. “She touched my cheek lovingly and emotions mirroring her eyes. “I’m sorry I failed to show you how much I love you.”

“Ani... Angel, it’s not what I meant...” I tried to explain but she cut me off.

“I know, baby. I understand.”

That’s it!! “Dara, will you just stop being too understanding. For once, show me how you really feel. I want to know. I want to share your burden.” I exploded, removed her hand from my face, and glared at her, I can’t take it anymore.         

She jolted back in surprise but was able to recover right away. She reached out for my hand and covered it with both of hers, gently . “Joongie-ah, I am sorry. I am sorry that I can’t be like you who’s able to express feelings freely. I love you... very much and I am sorry if it doesn’t look that way. Through the years, I’ve learn to be strong for myself and my family. I’ve learned to keep my feelings and problems well so as not to worry or be a burden to others”, she calmly said.

“Baby, you are not a burden to me.” I stated.

“I know....” She caressed my cheek lovingly and smiles thinly, “If it will comfort you to know, I do get jealous. Who wouldn’t when my boyfriend is Kim Jae Joong, one of the hottest men alive. The most sought after bachelor in the world. Of course, I get jealous. It pained me that I have to share you with everybody. But, I have to keep it to myself. Do you know that it takes so much effort for me to hide it? I don’t want to be labelled as a clingy and possessive girlfriend. I fear that you might break up with me if I do that. I have to condition myself especially my heart that it’s part of our work. You see, Joongie, I love you very much that I am so afraid of losing you.”

“I am sorry if I being scared and cautious have hurt you,” she continued. “I do understand how you feel and I promise I will try to be showy and vocal about how I feel. But, don’t say I didn’t warn you, I can be a really ... really jealous girlfriend,” she teased emphasizing her point.                                                                   

I pinched her nose and grinned. “Thank you Angel.... and I’m looking forward to seeing that side of yours.” I capped her face and gave her a light kiss. I started to tickle her until we were both rolling in bed, screaming and laughing. I ended up on top of her and my face close to hers. My smile faded as I look at her beautiful brown eyes.

“Do you know how pretty you are Angel?” I whispered seductively as I her neck gently. Her soft skin against my palm and the rapid movement of her chest gave me a different kind of sensation. She stared at me with her lips parted due to heavy breathing. She hands encircling my waist bringing the lower part of my body close to hers. She remained silent but her eyes fell on my lips. I smirked and lowered mouth to her ears, “Kiss me Angel”, I said ily. My hot breath gently caressing her skin and nose seductively tantalizing her face until our noses touch.

With courage, she leaned forward and brushed her lips against mine. Her kiss landed softly – unhurried, warm and affectionate.  She slipped her hands over my shoulders and linked her fingers behind my neck, pressing me closer to her. She parted and gave me access to her cavern, our tongues played with each other and leaves nothing unexplored. Our breathy gasp and moans filled our ears making us both want to taste each other more.

“Baby...” I hoarsely moan.

I broke our kiss and latched my mouth onto her neck, kissing, and . She moaned and lightly gripped my hair when I scraped my teeth on her smooth skin. With me on top of her, Angel started to move underneath me, rubbing her thigh provocatively over my hips.

“GaWd! Angel.... “I growled as I claimed back hungrily. She’s driving me crazy with desire.

Our second night ended well, with my girl soundly asleep in my arms soon after of love making. She must really be tired from work and partly because of me. I took her hand and slowly interlaced our fingers and placing it on my heart. Replaying what she told me earlier, a smile formed on my lips. I’m happy now knowing that she also gets jealous. I just hope that she’ll show it more. I turned to look at her, admiring her sleeping beauty. I touched her eyes, nose, and lips. This girl is mine. I wrapped her in my arms and bid the night goodbye.

The morning came with Angel still snuggle against me. I noticed her phone was vibrating so cautiously I reached for it but it was Jjangmae. I placed the phone under my pillow to lessen the noise. Why didn’t I take the call, you asked? You see, I am not sure if Dara informed him about our sleepover. I just don’t want her to get in trouble. Her phone ring again but this time, it’s a message, to inform her that he’ll pick her up in 2 hours.

I slowly pulled away from Dara, not wanting to wake her up. I went to the bathroom to freshen up then to the kitchen to prepare us some breakfast. When I was done, I went to wake her up. I sat on our bed beside her and gently wake her up.

“Angel...” I run my fingers on her hair then slowly caress her face. “Wake up. Time for breakfast.”

“Five minutes more, Joongie.” She hoarsely said pulling the blanket tightly.

“Baby, Jjangmae hyung already called.” I said as I lowered myself beside her and wrapped her in my arms.

“Huh.... what did he say?”

“He’s giving you 2 hours baby.” I muttered as I nuzzle my face on her neck.

She stirred to face me and wrapped her arms and thighs on my body. She squeezed me tightly but warmly. “Hhhh... I love you Joongie. Good morning.” She meekly said.

“Mornign and Happy Valentines Day, love of my life,” I cooed and kissed her forehead.

We were having breakfast, talking and teasing each other. I am not a morning person but waking up and starting my day early with Dara beside me is heavenly. It gives me energy that made me look forward to happening it more.

“Joongie, what is your schedule for today.” She asked waking me from reverie.

“I’m going to Cjes to work on our new songs then after lunch I have a meeting to attend again.”

“I see... what time will it be finished.”

“I am not sure. It might take long since I am meeting with some people for a drama I am considering. Why? Do you have plans for tonight?”

“Oh! Nothing. It’s just that I might come home late tonight too. Sajangnim wants to meet me after the photo shoot.  So, I am not sure what time I’ll be home.”

“Okay.” I said as I continue eating.

“Joongie...”

“Yes....”

“Can you call me if you are on your way home?” she cooed.

“No problem. I’ll call you as soon as my meeting’s over.” I answered.

Sandara’s POV

Thank God, he’s busy today. I also have enough time to prepare for tonight. I’m hoping that Durami will be able to get everything before I pick her up. I looked at Joongie who was enjoying her breakfast and I smiled. Tonight will be the first event I’m doing for him. It will not be as fabulous as his but I will try my best and hopefully he’ll like it. I smiled to myself as I continue stuffing food to my mouth.

Etude interview:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=KnN3cZIuK80

The last day of photo shoot went well. Shinee’s been very professional and caring. They all treated me well. It was a really a pleasure working with those boys. We ended our shoot with a group interview explaining the concept of our new commercial. It was a short but an entertaining one too. We finished everything just in time for lunch and the boys were kind enough to invite me but I politely decline. I have to be at YG by one-thirty and with the little time I got and with Seoul’s traffic problem I wouldn’t make it on time if I went out with them.  They were saddened of course but I promised them next time, I will treat them out.

We arrived at YG building almost 1pm already. I headed to our cafeteria to eat lunch and there I saw the girls and Bigbang.

We chatted about work and the girls asked me if everything for tonight is ready. Minutes away from my meeting time, I excused myself and headed to the 7thfloor where Sajangnim’s office was located. I didn’t know what the meeting was about and it made me more nervous especially that I’m alone.

As soon as his secretary saw me, she let me in. I bowed and proceeded to sit on the chair in front of him. I tried my best to smile and calm myself.

“How are you Dara?” he asked