I'm BACK...

Sandara’s POV

I was beyond shock with the news that welcome me when I arrived from Japan that night. Audios and videos of JYJ were all over the internet and even entertainment news programs were on it too. Others condemned them but some also rallied behind the three. They said it was edited to make JYJ look bad. Incidents from the past were brought out too. I don’t know what to say. I mean, I knew that they’re very popular and they have sasaeng fans but I didn’t know to what extent they have suffered.  No wonder Joongie was extremely worried for me when he found out that I was harassed by his fans.  Oh~ My poor baby.

Joongie called me when they had a stopover in Los Angeles. He was very depressed and tired. As soon as they landed, they’ve monitored the controversy. They knew what was happening in Korea and how people judged them without hearing their side of the story.

I let him pour out his frustrations and sentiments. I let him talked most of the time. I knew he needed someone to listen to him. Hearing him talked about the issue made me cry that I wanted to be with him badly. My heart went out for him.

“Angel, are you crying?” he asked.

“Ani...” I tried to deny.

“Baby, please be strong for me... for us. I want your comfort not your pity. You are my source of strength and if you broke down then what will happened to me.”

“I’m sorry Joongie... *sniff* I just wish I am with you right now.”

“Angel... I am sorry for letting you down.” He muttered lowly.

“Ani... Joongie... don’t say that. It was not entirely your fault. You are human too. You have feelings and you make mistakes. I understand and I am with you all the way. Please be strong...”

“Thank you Angel. You made me feel lighter.”

“Baby, always remember that – ‘Every setback is a setup for a comeback. God wants to bring you out better than you were before ‘- so have Faith. Everything will be all right.”

“Thank you baby... I don’t know what to do without you. I love you very much and I’m really grateful for having you by my side.”

“I will always be with you Joongie whenever you need me. I will never judge you but love you more instead. “

JaeJoong’s POV

Many fans welcomed us in Chile. However, there were no securities to help us get out of the airport so our managers took the job of protecting us alone. It was hard.  Yoochun and Junsu was a little fortunate than me. They were able to go inside our waiting van without too much problem. I, however, was the last and fans started grabbing and kissing me. I was stunned when fanboys kissed me. I told the members about it as soon as I was settled inside the car and they both laugh hysterically. It was the most heart warming laugh we all had since we left Korea and it felt good.

Due to exhaustion, we hit the bed right away as soon as we arrived at the hotel. After a few hours of sleep, we got ready for work. While we were getting ready for the press conference, I received a call from Angel. She was fretful when I answered. She happened to read the news about Junsu’s tweet regarding our flight problems. I explained everything to her and told her about the fanboys incident to help calm her down.  I also informed her that the members and I agreed to apologize about the scandal at the press conference.  She supported our decision and wished us luck for the concert.

The tour ended successfully and well. However, I was so nervous about going back to Korea. I don’t know what’s waiting for us and how grave the scandal is. I barely able to get some sleep and I was so stress out. While Junsu and Yoochun tried to enjoy the little spare time we had in Peru, I was at the hotel trying to calm my nerves and trying my best to get enough rest.

As soon as we touched down in Incheon, just before we pass through the immigration, our manager gathered the three of us with a very grim expression. He kept on glancing at Yoochun and kept on opening his mouth then closes it again.

While Yoochun and I were waiting patiently what he was going to say, Junsu decided asked, too anxious to go home and rest. “Hyung, what is it?”

He let out a heavy sigh and looked down. Just then, Yoochun’s phone rang and when he was about to answer, our manager stopped him; looked at him sadly and said sorry.

“Huh?” Yoochun was puzzled.

“Hyung, what’s the problem? You are acting very strange.” I cooed, starting to get irritated. He was not on his usual self. Normally, he’d say whatever’s on his mind. He was still holding Yoochun’s wrist and the phone just won’t stop ringing so Junsu’s took it and answered. It was Yoohwan.

“Oh! Yoohwan-ah, this is Junsu Hyung.”

We were still looking at our manager, waiting for him to explain when we heard Junsu said “Hello... Yoohwan-ah, are you crying? What is wrong with you?” and that caught our attention. Our manager slowly let go of Yoochun’s hand and turned his back on us. Yoochun instantly grabbed his phone and talked to Yoohwan; and that’s how we learned about their father’s death.

I can’t exactly remember what happened after. Everything happened so fast and the next thing I knew the three of us were already at the wake. Yoochun, Yoohwan, and I can’t stop crying. It felt like I’ve lost my own father and my heart went out for the brothers. Junsu was doing his best to be strong for the 3 of us.

Early morning of March 15, Yoohwan was so exhausted that he was given a jab to help him relax and rest.  Junsu went home for awhile to change and rest; and when he got back I was still there with Yoochun, trying to share his grief. They told me to go home since Hyung Joong and Tae Sung were there to accompany them. Junsu even called Dara to help convince me but I stood firm and insisted on staying.

However, the members and staff were really concerned for me. I can’t stop my tears. I was too exhausted and stressed out and I haven’t had enough sleep for days. Nob