The model's crush

Seeking for Certainty
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Suzy yawned as she looked at her laptop’s screen with droopy eyes. Her elbow was on the desk while her hand supported her head. She glanced at the ticking clock and realized that it was already past ten. Her eyes then fell on the boy who slept on the couch in the office and a mischievous smile spread on her lips as she walked towards him with cat steps. She crouched down and looked at Sehun’s ungraceful sleeping face; the boy was sleeping with his mouth wide open. Biting back a laugh, she grabbed her phone and took a picture.

“Black mail material,” she whispered with an evil smirk.

But then her naughty expression quickly changed when Myungsoo’s caller ID flashed on her phone screen. She coughed first, trying to get away the sleepiness in her voice before saying,

“Hello.”

“Hello Su,” a smile quickly graced Suzy’s lips as soon as she heard his voice. “Are you home?”

She then walked towards her desk as she answered, “Not yet. I’m still finishing some documents.”

“So you’re still at your office?”

She bit her lower lip as she traced worry in Myungsoo’s voice but then she mumbled back, “Yes.”

“But it’s already late. You should have had taken your laptop with you and work at it at home.”

She sighed before saying, “You know how much I hate letting work meddle up with home. Work is where you stress yourself and home is where you relax.”

“But it’s dangerous for you to stay in your office alone at this hour.”

She stayed quiet as she put her phone between her right ear and shoulder, now freeing her hands so that she could begin typing once more. She took a quick glance at Sehun and she resumed her work until she heard Myungsoo spoke again.

“Su?”

“I’m not alone. I’m with a co-worker,” she retorted.

“Hoya? Key? Bora? Jia?” he took guesses on who was staying with her.

She gulped, remembering that she was not able to tell Myungsoo about Sehun. But then she said, “No. I have a new coworker since a week ago. He’s the model we hired.”

“He,” Myungsoo repeated.

“Hmmm,” Suzy innocently hummed. “We’re boarding the same train so he kept on insisting that we go home together so you don’t have to worry since I have company.”

“I don’t have to worry,” Myungsoo paused. “That your company happened to be a ‘He’.”

“Wait,” Suzy said and silence followed until she let out a chuckle upon noticing how his voice sounded different just a few seconds ago. With a smile still on her lips, she added, “Don’t tell me you’re jealous.”

“Not yet,” he clarified. “I’m just worried for now.”

“Worried over what?” Suzy asked with a pout as she raised her brows.

“Well, you said that he’s been taking you home for a week now,” he started. “He wouldn’t do that if he’s not interested in you.”

“No, he’s not!” she quickly replied with eyebrows furrowed. fell wide open as she let out yet another chuckle. She then continued with assurance in her voice, “He’s just a simple employee trying to make a good impression on his employer. There’s surely nothing more than that.”

She heard Myungsoo sigh before replying, “I hope so.”

Her gaze on the computer screen softened as she suddenly realized that at that moment, Myungsoo was insecure not of Sehun but of himself. She never pressured him to take her into movies every Friday night, have a date on the weekends, call her every day or take her home every night because she knew that he couldn’t. He couldn’t be the perfect boyfriend and that’s not what Suzy wanted. She just wanted him to be Myungsoo and it was the perfect reason for her to fall in love with him over and over again. Myungsoo knew that he could also not be the perfect boyfriend, at least as of now, but thinking that he couldn’t even be a normal boyfriend to the only girl he loved made him feel worse. The insecurity always gets into him when other people get the chance to do things he wanted to do with her.

“Soo-yah,” Suzy whispered tenderly. She knew the perfect words to calm Myungsoo’s troubled heart and mind. “I love you.”

She couldn’t see it but she knew that by that time, Myungsoo was smiling from ear to ear. She knew, that just like her, sometimes all Myungsoo needs is a reassurance that despite the conflicts they were facing, their love was still surviving.

“Hmmmm,” he hummed happily. “I love you too.”

They listened to the silence as they let the words linger much longer in the air. It did not take shorter than a few minutes before Suzy spoke again.

“I’m done with work, so I’m going home now. I’ll call you later okay?”

“Okay,” Myungsoo replied. “Take care.”

She ended the call with a warm smile. Sighing, she saved all the finished documents and closed her laptop, locking it with other valuable files in her desk. After arranging her bag, she walked towards Sehun before tapping his cheek.

“Yah. Get up. I have to lock the office now,” she said.

“You’re done?” he sat up with half-lidded eyes. Sleepy, he reached for his backpack and followed Suzy as they went out. Locking the door behind them, both of them walked towards the train station and between the two of them, only Sehun’s words resonated.

In a few days that he was accompanying her home, Suzy learned that Oh Sehun never ran out of something to say. He would start talking about random things, like how the weather was so cold or how the sky was so starless, until his stories would go to his odd and funny experiences. Occasionally, she would answer back with “Why are you so noisy?” and it would make Sehun smile, apologize and stay quiet but only over a few minutes. However, most of the time, she would put on her earphones as if telling him that she wasn’t interested.

But the other thing he learned about Oh Sehun is that he was persistent.

No matter how cold she acted towards him, Sehun would still greet him with a warm smile. No matter how numerous times she would reply with silence, Sehun would still keep trying to create a conversation with her. No matter how hard she tried to shoo him away, Sehun would still be there, waiting for her every night.

Suzy fluttered her eyes open upon noticing that tonight was quieter than usual. She glanced and noticed that Sehun had already fallen asleep again.

That explains the extra weight, she thought as she glared at the sleeping male, who comfortably rested his head on her shoulder.

Just one shrug would have woken him up, but something told Suzy to let him be. She might have stayed too late in her work to drain the always energetic Sehun. At that m

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gyuhyeon #1
Chapter 34: 2021 and I'm here to bawl my eyes out. Thank youuu
gyuhyeon #2
Back to this story after years, I'm so sad so many beautiful stories about suzy are deleted :(((
Markzy4ever #3
TashiLhamo129 #4
Chapter 35: Jaka nim, thank you so much for this story. I loved it so much and I have never felt such emotions for a long time...U made me realise how important it is to love yet that love must be pure and certain. Seeking for certainty is such a powerful love story and I learned that life will always throw u back and forth, you just need to be certain of who u meet and who to trust. But first of all, you gotta trust yourself and believe in ur innate strength that no matter what, u can stand up on ur own. Thank you once again. ?❣️??
Washingtowndc
#5
Chapter 35: Taehyung, despite his parents state, i mean his father's gone and his mom is psychologically ill and barely remember him, he is still the sweetest and full of love for his parents omg i hope he grow well :") *sobs* haha thanks author for this great story
arnicutie #6
Chapter 35: I can hear my heart breaking..this is a superb story..I just wish that Myungsoo did not die and find his own happiness that was deprived from him..whether with Suzy or with someone else..but kudos to you..i hope to read more stories from you..
Exozy_88
#7
Chapter 35: Can't stop Crying !! Oh ghoooood :(((
lucidhoney10
#8
Chapter 35: Okay first I'm not really into angst and I loved the fact that you aren't ending this in the most tragic way.
Confession, I am more rooting for Sehun and Suzy than Myungsoo and Suzy. Okay, I probably the minority here but I have my own reason for rooting on Hunzy.
Yes, sehun and suzy started the wrong way. Sehun started it wrong. He court her not because he loved her, it's started with a kind of dumb revenge which shouldn't be existed. So why do I still am rooting for them even between all of the lies? Because Sehun is courageous enough to choose Suzy over anyone else. Call it selfish, but I think it was form of courage. The only coward thing he did after fully realising his feeling towards her was that he didn't let Suzy know the true story before Soojung did. If only he is brave enough to spill the bean, perhaps Suzy will be a bit less hurted. After all, knowing the truth from the one you love will be a lot better than to have another tell you how you actually had been toyed all this while added with nothing but confirmation from those who held your heart that what other told you was somehow true.
Then why am I not rooting for Myungsoo? Simple because he wasted his chance. He could've runaway from his family even before the engagement yet he don't. He could've reject the option to marry Soojung (even runaway from the wedding is always an option) yet he didn't. He always had the chance to choose Suzy over everything else yet he hadn't. Even if he had been written as someone who loves her unconditionally; someone who is willing to sacrifice himself for her, it still didn't hide the fact that he is not courageous enough to pursue their forever.
If they said that Soojung and Sehun's love were selfish, then what were theirs? Myungsoo and Suzy also practiced that selfish love; a kind of selfish love which actually way worst than the one Soojung and Sehun had.
However, this is good for my not so "angsty lover" taste. I am thankful that you write this. Sorry for the long comments!
Markzy4ever #9
Chapter 35: Authornim I love you and your fics. I almost cried while reading this fic. Anyway I'm happy that it's a happy ending for hunzy