Taemin could feel Sulli’s eyes, drilling into his neck, as he walked up the stairs – her being right behind him. She was looking at him; she actually couldn’t look away from him. Taemin was pretty sure it was because he was such an ugly, silly , who was nothing but a nuisance to the world. That’s how he saw himself. That’s how his parents saw him, and that’s probably also how Sulli saw him.

Did she know, though?

Did it actually shine out from Taemin, that he was gay? Was an arrow flying behind him, with the letters “GAY” written on it?

Probably not, that would be very weird.

“So? This is your book collection, oppa?” Sulli smiled at Taemin, as if she didn’t know – she had been looking at them all a little earlier. Taemin just rolled his eyes at her.

“Yes,” he simply answered and crossed his arm, leaning against the wall while Sulli continued her interrupted search for books that might interest her.

In the meanwhile, Taemin just stood there, not even looking at her. Not minding her. In his thoughts, though, he was killing her. Strangling her mentally, because he couldn’t stand her sugar-sweet voice that made him want to puke so badly. He was pretty sure that he would do the world a huge favor if Sulli just disappeared.

Yes, he actually had those kinds of thoughts sometimes. It was a bit creepy, but being bullied and made fun of the whole life did this to people.

The only time when he wasn’t being bullied… Was when he was a little kid. The time, when he hung out with his childhood friend, yeah… He truly missed those times.

I sometimes wish that I could go back…

“Whoa, oppa?” Sulli suddenly said with a small chuckle as she took a big, thick book from the shelf. ‘World Lexicon’ was written on it. It was plain grey and boring-looking on the outside, but it kept on huge secrets on the inside.

“You really read these kinds of things?” the younger girl chuckled, but lost her smile immediately as Taemin pulled the book out of her hands, hugging it a bit against his chest, as he looked away from her.

“Stupid girl…” he heard himself mumble quietly, and Sulli just raised an eyebrow at her oppa, not really understanding what was going on – of course. She didn’t know about his secret, she didn’t know what was inside that book.

“Oppa, can’t I see what’s in it? I’ve never really seen a lexicon before?” Sulli said, flashing one of her angelic smiles.

Taemin could feel the dinner from earlier on its way up his throat.

“Why? There’s nothing special about a lexicon,” he grumbled, rolling his eyes again. Sulli stood up, standing right on front of Taemin, who just hugged the heavy book tighter, not trusting the angelic girl at all.

“Give me the book, oppa,” she said with a pleading voice with a hint of a small whine. She then did what Taemin used to do – she pouted.

Ugh.

Seriously.

“No. You can look at the other books, but this one is just plain boring… Trust me,” Taemin said, trying to force a small smile at his ing annoying ‘friend’.

“If you don’t give me the book…” Sulli started, smirking slightly at Taemin, who finally turned his face to look at her, raising a brow slightly.

“Then what?” he mumbled back, not really affected by her threats, even though she was so close to him, having his back against the cold wall. Taemin refused to be affected. Even though his heart was racing a bit, because of fright – what if his arms weren’t strong enough to hold the book away from her?

ing annoying girl. Couldn’t she just mind her own business?

“Then I’ll kiss you!” she stated.

Oh hell no, .

“W-What?” Taemin almost stuttered, having completely wide eyes while Sulli was smirking at him, humming sweetly as she neared him again, making their legs touch slightly. It sent a small shrill up Taemin’s spine – he definitely didn’t enjoy being held captive by a small girl who he probably easily could overthrow.

He turned his head a bit away, biting his lower lip.

I’m ing going to kill this .

He would get in trouble if he did anything to her – he knew that. She was the kind of girl, who came running to her dad, crying fake tears if she didn’t get her will. Then Taemin would be in trouble – more than he already was – not only would he be a , he would also be a bastard for making a cute and innocent girl cry.

“You heard me, oppah~” Sulli nearly whispered in his ear, just making him hold more onto the book, hoping that she would just go away – his lips were reserved for Kai’s only! Kai’s ing, perfect, plump lips.

Holy … Stop thinking about him now, Taemin…

Suddenly, if became completely silent in the whole room. Taemin froze completely, gasping quietly. Sulli turned her face to look away from Taemin – she turned her face against the ground, where the reason to Taemin’s gasp was.

Shush~

Something fell out from the thick book, something that definitely wasn’t supposed to be in a ing lexicon.

The nicely cut picture nearly flew to the ground, soundless. Moving a bit back and forth in the windless air, finally landing on the light floor of tree between Taemin and Sulli.

Of course the picture was faced up, showing a picture of none other than Kai.

“Who is that?” Sulli asked, bending down to pick up the picture, looking curiously at it.

. . . . . .

ing .

“G-Give it back!” Taemin said, reaching out for the picture. Sulli, however, just jumped away from him, still looking at the picture of the freaking handsome, young man.

“Sure I’ll give it back to you,” Sulli smiled sweetly, walking to the other side of Taemin’s bed in safety, “When you tell me who it is.”

.

“It’s no one! Just… Give it back, please!” Taemin heard himself almost plead – he usually never did those kinds of things. Never.

“No one? I’m not gonna believe that, Taemin-ah,” Sulli hummed, waving a bit with the picture, using it like some kind of high class fan that should cool her down from her high of power, “You wouldn’t hide a picture of a certain ‘no one’ in a lexicon, now would you?”

Taemin kept silent, not knowing what to say. He was kind of surprised at the way Sulli had changed in just a few seconds. She had turned from an innocent, cute girl, to a truly annoying, evil . Was that all because Taemin didn’t want to kiss her?

“Oh well, if you wont tell,” the girl sighed and grabbed the picture with both of her hands, “Then let’s rip ‘Mr. No One’, shall we?”

Taemin stared at her with cold eyes, while she was being completely confident. Of course Taemin wasn’t afraid that she could rip a photo of Kai – he could just print a new one – but just the fact, that Kai, the ing perfect Kai, didn’t mean anything to her, pissed Taemin off. Kai was Taemin’s everything, even though they didn’t really know each other. Kai was the person, Taemin always was happy to see every day on his way home from school – even if Kai had his back turned against Taemin’s path… It made him happy. Taemin was sure, that he would do anything Kai asked him to – even if he asked him to off, he would. He didn’t care about what the other members of the gang said, though.

“So? What will it be?” Sulli said again, making Taemin wake up from his thoughts, turning his head against the girl.

If his dad could hear his thoughts right now, he would be dead.

Come here, … Let me strangle you with your …

Yeah... Definitely dead.

“I don’t know his name,” was all Taemin said, his eyes completely cold, though he was slightly sad on the inside – because it was the truth.

Kai wasn’t his true name. It wasn’t his real name.

No one knew the gang leader’s name.

“Eeh? Isn’t that weird?” she asked, tilting her head a bit to the side. She was kind of right, but really… Did Taemin have to know the name of his crush, in order to fall in love with him?

“And still… Why are you hiding this picture?” she asked again, not seeming to give up. Her oppa sighed deeply and looked away from her. He was as good as caught. She had actually found his secret scrapbook of pictures of Kai and other handsome males, which he liked to use for… Personal stuff.

He thought that no one would look in a boring lexicon, but he was wrong.

Maybe it was a bit too obvious?

“You just wont give up, will you?” Taemin said, making Sulli pout a bit, lowering her threatening hand with the photo of Kai. None of them said anything for about a minute, while Sulli slowly walked to Taemin, standing right in front of him again, but not in a threatening way. This time, she was feeling small, vulnerable and innocent, but guily.

“Why wont you think I’m interesting?” she finally asked, making Taemin’s eyes go wide yet again.

“Excuse me?”

 “You heard me… Why wont you find me interesting? Am I not pretty enough for a handsome oppa like you?” she asked, and this time… Taemin actually felt slightly guilty for behaving the way he did towards her.

She was, after all, just behaving like a little girl.

“Am I boring for you, oppa?” she asked again, making Taemin finally open his mouth.

“Look, girl… I don’t even know you,” he sighed deeply, mentally facepalming himself, “I only know your name, that’s it, how am I supposed to fall in love with-…” Taemin stopped himself, just realizing that what he said didn’t make sense at all.

But… Isn’t it the same with Kai?

“I’m sorry oppa,” Sulli sighed and looked away, “I just want a handsome boyfriend like you.”

What.

“Handsome?” Taemin couldn’t help but laugh a bit at the girl. He then walked to the book shelf and put the book back on its place – in the back of the shelf, hidden by the other books.

“Yes… Handsome,” Sulli said, watching Taemin.

“Look… It’s not that you’re not beautiful or anything…” because she was very beautiful, “But you’re just not… My type.”

“Eh? Then who is your type?” Sulli couldn’t help but ask, raising a brow at her oppa, who just nervously scratched his neck.

“Well… You see…” he mumbled, but being interrupted by the door being opened, and Sulli’s very fine parents stepping inside – having smiled on their slightly wrinkled faces.

“Sulli! Honey, we’re leaving now. Say farewell to your friend,” Sulli’s mom said, smiling at Taemin – like she didn’t know he was a .

Sulli’s mom looked a lot like Sulli – having the same hair color, eye shape, lips and nose. The only thing that actually seemed off, was their cheeks and cheekbones as well as jaws.

“Nae, umma!” Sulli smiled at her mom, then she turned to Taemin, bowing nicely to him, “I’ll see you another day oppa!”

Taemin didn’t really know how to react to this – this girl sure was strange. Having the craziest mood swings and all.

To be honest… She actually kind of scared the crap out of Taemin.

“And oppa, one more thing!” Sulli said, as she was on the way out of his door, turning to Taemin one last time, with a smile on her pink lips, “I wont lose to ‘Mr. No One’, okay?”

And then Taemin was back to wanting to strangle her with her own for saying that so loud.

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A/N: 

Omg, please don't freak out because of Taemin's scary thoughts, ahahah. ;A; ~

And no, don't think that I hate Sulli~ She's my 2nd bias in f(x), Amber being no. 1 ~ 

Sulli is so fluffy~ Which is why I chose her for this story as Taemin's stalker ... Yeah, she'll come back. [evil grin] 

Oh, and next chapter will be with Lulu again~~ c': *thinking about a good apology for Tae~*

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