Jonghyun walked through the empty schoolyard with Taemin on his back, riding piggyback on him. The rain was still pouring down, but none of them gave a . Taemin’s arms were around Jonghyun’s neck, Taemin’s head on his hyung’s shoulder. The tears were still running down his cheeks, being mixed with the cold, yet clean, rain – something that Taemin thought would be able to wash him clean again, after what just happened.

None of them really said anything, but finally Taemin decided to open his mouth, hesitating a little bit, since he didn’t really trust Jonghyun fully yet.

“I-I… Don’t know how my parents will react when they see me…” the younger mumbled with a shaky voice, hiding his face in Jonghyun’s broad shoulders again, as he was too scared to actually look up.

“They’ll be so ashamed…” Taemin added with a small whisper.

“Don’t think about your parents right now, Taemin,” Jonghyun said as they came closer to the parking lot, “You aren’t going to see them yet, anyway.”

“E-Eh?” Taemin quickly asked, looking up again with a puzzled face, not being able to look at Jonghyun’s face, “W-What do you mean, hyung?”

Jonghyun lifted Taemin a bit higher onto his back, preventing him from falling off, “You’re bleeding, so I’m taking you to the hospital right away.”

“What?! No! Please don’t!” Taemin whined, starting to struggle a little bit against Jonghyun’s tight grip on his legs, “I don’t want to go to the hospital!”

“Are you crazy?! Bleeding in there can’t be a good thing!” Jonghyun said with a harsh voice, immediately making Taemin stop struggling as his hyung was right. His cheeks started to blush a little bit as he bit his lips, feeling embarrassed. It was going to be horrible, to go to the hospital because such a thing.

“B-But… They’ll know why I’m there…” Taemin mumbled quietly.

“Because of a , yes,” Jonghyun said, “They don’t have to know that you’re a homoual, Taemin.” Jonghyun succeeded in opening his car door some way, opening the door to his, at that time closed, cabriolet, helping Taemin to sit in the passenger’s seat. Earning a small whine from the younger, as his touched the nice leather cover of the seat.

“H-Hurts…” he whispered quietly, before Jonghyun closed the car door and got into the driver’s seat, handing a dry blanket to Taemin from the back seat.

“Take this,” the elder said, before he started driving towards the hospital, not letting Taemin protest again, as he just wrapped himself in the comfortable, warm blanket.

“T-Thank you…” Taemin stuttered a bit as he looked at his hyung, “I’m really happy that you came around, hyung… But how did you find me?” Taemin couldn’t help but wonder about that last question. It wasn’t normal to just take a walk around the school – especially not since the back of the school was quite scary at times. Especially on a rainy day.

“Someone told me, that you were in trouble, so… I came to find you,” Jonghyun told him, making Taemin’s eyes go wide in surprise. Who had told him?!

“Why did they even do that to you? I don’t understand,” Jonghyun groaned a bit in frustration, “I mean… You’ve never done them anything!” Those words came from the person who had been bullying Taemin the year before – for no reason, too.

“I-I know that I bullied you last year… But I would never even think about such thing as you,” Jonghyun said, still feeling deeply shocked. Taemin hid a bit in the blanket, as his hyung said the word “” – he still couldn’t believe that it had just happened. Him, who had been so eager the last few years to get laid for the first time… Got .

No, he wasn’t allowed to have with his true love, like other people. He got .

“They… Didn’t want me to see Kai, so… They even took pictures and all,” Taemin bit his lips, new tears starting to run down his cheeks, “P-Please don’t tell Key.”

“What? I can’t just turn a blind eye to this, Taemin! It’s a serious crime!” Jonghyun said, his voice still serious and harsh – just like how a dad should be.

Funny how Taemin started to think of Jonghyun like a dad.

“But… If Key finds out, he’ll do something about it… And… Then they’ll leak their pictures,” Taemin said, more tears coming, “I-I’ll be such a shame for my parents!”

“Taemin… It’s time you start thinking about yourself, what you want! Instead of thinking what your parents want from you,” Jonghyun said, and Taemin could easier and easier think of Jonghyun as some kind of dad. He was really surprised of his behavior.

“They shouldn’t get unpunished away with this, so I’m sorry, but I’ll have to tell Key,” Jonghyun told Taemin, sending him a small, soft glare, “It’s gonna be okay in the end.”

Taemin sighed and leaned back in his seat again, turning his face to look out the window, watching how the raindrops hit the window, running down the glass. Just like how his tears ran down his cheeks.

Because at that time, Taemin couldn’t see how anything should ever be okay again. His body shook every time he thought of the way Joon had touched him. How Joon had penetrated him without preparation! How the blood was drying on his legs under the fabric of his pants.

He felt so, so ashamed and weak.

“I’m really sad,” Taemin mumbled quietly, closing his eyes as he could feel the tiredness taking over his body.

“Because of the ?” Jonghyun asked, as if it shouldn’t be obvious that Taemin should feel sad because of that.

“I feel more sad because of the fact, that I can’t see Kai again,” Taemin answered, his eyes looking at the dark sky, wondering if anything would ever be fine again, “And those guys will be there next year, too. Where you and Luhan wont be able to help me.”

There was a silence in the car, as Jonghyun still focused on driving. None of them said anything, so Taemin just listened to the sound of the rain outside. It was so calming, so nice. He liked the rain in some way – because it was so clean. Unlike how he felt.

He would never be clean and pure, like the rain.

He would always be filthy, because he liked guys and not girls, and because he just lost his ity to such people.

He felt so cheap that he wanted to die.

“I’m sorry, Kai…” he sighed, just before his tiredness took over, and he fell asleep, dreaming about his childhood...

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“Taemin, don’t go!” the little boy yelled, as he stood a bit away from Taemin, with tears on his slightly chubby cheeks, “Don’t leave me! You promised you never would, hyung!” His voice was shaking as he tried to hold his tears back – calling for Taemin.

“I don’t want to go! But my umma and appa wants us to move soon!” Taemin said in protest, just having told his best friend, that he would be moving to Seoul very soon – too soon. He didn’t like the idea, and his friend clearly didn’t either.

“But hyung!” the younger boy said, rubbing one of his eyes as he kept crying – the other kids in the kindergarten looking in their direction. The boy stomped the ground a few times in protest, as if it was going to make Taemin stay.

“I’m sorry! I really am,” Taemin said, tears running down his cheeks, too. He hated anyone else but his friend.

“But Taemin! You promised me, that we should be together forever!” the friend said, as everything about them slowly turned dark, “You promised me!”

“B-But…” Taemin said, not being able to say anything against his friend’s words, since it was true.

“You even said, that we should be married when we got older,” his friend said, sniffing a few times and wiping his tears away as he looked at his hyung once more, not wanting to though.

“What’s going on here?” an adult suddenly said – it was one of those young women who worked at the kindergarten. She shot Taemin a cold glare, as she probably thought, that he had been bullying his friend to make him cry.

“Taemin, I didn’t think you would make the younger children cry,” she said, lifting Taemin’s only friend up in her arms, carrying him off – making Taemin send her cold glares, as she took away his friend.

His love.

His “fiancé”.

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Taemin finally opened his eyes again, a single tear on one of his cheeks. He quickly realized, that he was lying in a hospital bed, wearing hospital clothes, which were white, just like the rest of the room. Colorless. His hair was probably the most colorful thing in the whole place. He saw, that he had a small drop on his hand, which most likely consisted of some kind of painkilling substance, since he was in no pain at all.

He was a bit curious, so since he was alone, he lifted the blanket to see how his lower parts were having it. He wasn’t wearing any pants, since the shirt was very long – long enough to cover his cute little and other parts.

Taemin carefully lifted the shirt, to see that he had been given a pair of very soft, loose boxers to wear. They were really comfortable, but Taemin couldn’t help but blush at the thought that someone had been stripping him as well as dressing him. Other than that, it looked like he had been given some kind of medicine down there, since it smelled pretty much – it wasn’t a bad smell, though. Just the smell of… Medicine.

“Nasty…” he mumbled, covering himself with the blanket again, as he sunk under it, groaning a little in pleasure, as the warmth surrounded him once again. He wasn’t soaked anymore, like in Jonghyun’s car. And he was safe… Away from Joon and G.O.

He was just scared, that his parents would know about this. It would be so embarrassing. And… Key probably already knew about it.

So…

It just couldn’t end well, could it?

Because someone was gonna pay for this – he just knew it.

And if he knew Key well, then he would find the very worst way to revenge Taemin.

Taemin only knew one person, who could be more frightening than Key for other people… 

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A/N: 

It's weird for me to write such things between Jonghyun and Taemin, when it's not... "love". Because I'm a huge JongTae shipper, too. ;;~~~;; <3 

They're just so cute together, asdfghjkl.. But yeah~ Jonghyun is Key's here~ XD 

Soooo~... Jonghyun is going to tell Key... OuO''~ I wonder what will happen then. kkk~~ ^o^/ 

Oh well...~ I love you all for your comments~ And I'm really sorry aobut what happened last chapter.. I hate myself, too. ;;~~;; 

AND... the thing about my mom reading my fanfic.. She skips all chapters with an "M" on them.. Because I told her to... XD''' 

Yes... Yes it's very awkward... 

BUT STILL... 

Comments are love~!