Jan 19, 2014

A/N: This chapter tells about the event from previous chapter from Seul-ki's POV. :)

"For someone who was recently injured in an accident, you look much too happy." Myungsoo commented, once he caught her trying to run away from him after finishing her second last paper. Seul-ki said nothing, and she was only staring at his shoes, wanting to run away because she couldn't help but to feel awkward around Myungsoo, and it made her a little sad. "I hope your wounds are healing?"

"I'm completely healed!" She said, managing a smile as she gathered her courage to look at his face, which was brooding, and his eyes were looking at her strangely. "So Myungsoo shouldn't be worried..."

"When did I say I was?"; came his reply, as he scoffed and ran his tongue inside his mouth, looking at her face which was scrunching up in annoyance.

"Then how did Myungsoo know I was involved in an accident anyway?" She asked, with a smirk, and Myungsoo only raised his eyebrows and shrugged.

"News travel, Lee Seul." He said, and looked at her worriedly, at the small band aid on her forehead.  "You should really be careful, you know. What if it leaves a scar?"

"I'll just do plastic surgery." She laughed, and Myungsoo shot her a glare. "And then maybe I'll just work on my nose and lips, too?"

"I won't lend you the money to do that, you got me?"

"I know. I'll just work my a** off and earn the money for it." She said, with an air, and a small smile formed across Myungsoo's face.

"Maybe you want to work on your forehead as well? You know, shorten it up or something?"

"Yah!" She shouted, blinking in disbelieved at him. "My forehead isn't that wide!"

"And your nose and lips need no work as well." He said, quietly, and so Seul-ki fell silent, a bit awkward again as she felt as if Myungsoo's gaze was piercing her skin. "And instead of working and earning money for such thing, wouldn't it be better to spend them on posters and tumblers or badges or more socks?"

"I will earn money to help with the household." She replied, sniffing, not daring to look up once she dropped her gaze.

"You're growing up well I see." He mused, and laughing a little, he patted her head, and Seul-ki fell silent. He then quickly took his hand away, cursing himself for not able to get rid of the habit, and quickly turned away, not wanting to look at her face. "Take care then, Lee Seul."

"I know." She muttered, watching him walking away, and she couldn't deny that it felt a little lonely to think that she would have to keep some distant from him, and probably she would find herself missing him, as a really good friend, but she knew well what was more important then; and it was Sunggyu, she thought, smiling dreamily.

Living without Sunggyu was pretty much lonely for her; she figured she had familiarized her routine taking care of the house for the whole period that she was married that waking up and doing nothing felt so exhaustive for her. She missed ironing out his clothes, and doing laundry and preparing him breakfast, and she wanted so much to tie his necktie for him again. She thought it was a little crazy to miss doing all those chores but they made her happy just by thinking that she was doing them for her husband.

Ye-eun had been her tutor for her education the whole time she was staying at her house. Seul-ki had to listen to them, although she felt nothing but embarrassed but she would rather discuss about it with her than Halmeoni, she thought, with a slight shiver.

"Forget everything you read in fanfics." Ye-eun said. "Those first thrilling first nights you've read about, well, those are just uh well, writing." She paused, and took a deep breath. "Since you are not experienced, you'd likely to be at loss on what to do, and so, just let him guide you."

"But how do I know if Sunggyu-sshi has experience or not...?" She asked, quietly. Ye-eun went silent as she stared at Seul-ki's face. Somehow, it made Seul-ki felt a little upset to think that Sunggyu might have some experience, but she then decided that there was nothing she could do about the past, and it didn't count because he wasn't their husband, and so, she was more special (because she was his wife) than the other women that Sunggyu might have been with. But she became more miserable as she thought about it.

"If the two of you are , I suggest you guys watch together first." Ye-eun said, suddenly.

"NO!" Seul-ki shrieked, and buried her face into her pillow. "That'd be crazy! No!"

"You have to learn!" Ye-eun scolded her, "Or else you will end up being a for the rest of your life and your husband will start messing around with another woman."

"Will he?" Seul-ki asked, worried. "Will Sunggyu-sshi leaves me if I don't um, have it with him?"

"You bet he will. So, stop running and try throwing yourself at him again." She laughed, making Seul-ki more miserable. "But maybe for the first time, you won't have the confidence to do a full-fledged activity, but more to cuddling, and touching, and kissing."

"But we did that." Seul-ki paused, and scratched her nose in embarrassment. "A bit."

"Then do it more." Ye-eun said, excitedly. "You have to make yourself comfortable when he's touching you, so that he'll know that you want him but just not so ready yet."

"So I need to uh, let Sunggyu-sshi, touch me here and there..."

"Exactly." She paused and wriggled her eyebrows. "Without clothing."

"It's embarrassing..." She muttered, and buried her face again while shaking her head violently. "I think I will die of out embarrassment... I can't even... look at Sunggyu-sshi's face without blushing and feeling shy. How am I going to be able to...let him see me without any..."

"Ah geez!" Ye-eun rolled her eyes. "You know, once you're in the flow, I bet you will willingly take off your clothes without him asking! So don't worry too much, okay? Just go with the flow~"

"I don't want to..." She rolled under her futon, just to be jolted by the sudden vibration of her phone and it was of course Sunggyu, and Ye-eun was eyeing her excitedly. She quickly got up, and ran out of the room, and sat near the verandah again, answering his call. "Sunggyu-sshi."

"What were you doing?"

"Nothing much..."

"Did you do your revision?"

"I did..."

"What's wrong with your voice? Are you sick?" He asked, his voice genuinely worried.

"No! I'm just fine!" She said, loudly, and then she laughed awkwardly. "Um, Sunggyu-sshi?"

"Yes?" She gulped, and gulped, but she couldn't find the words to say. "What is it, Seul-ki?"

"I like Sunggyu-sshi." She said, shutting her eyes. "Very, very much." Sunggyu was only silent at the other line, too speechless to even say anything, but Seul-ki could hear him breathing through his mouth.

"I... I like Seul-ki, too." He said, with an awkward voice. "But why are you suddenly..."

"I want!" She exclaimed, loudly again, feeling her eyes burning.

"You want?"

"I want, um..."

"What is it that you want?" He asked, and Seul-ki could hear him laughing a little.

"I want... to sleep." She bit her tongue.

"Yah!" Sunggyu cried, and then she could hear him making a 'tch', and she was panicking because it wasn't what she was going to say. "If you want to sleep that much, then go to sleep, I'm hangi-"

"NO! Wait!" She roared, and shut her eyes again, and gulped several times before she went on, "Sunggyu-sshi... There's something I want to ask Sunggyu-sshi..."

"What is it that you want to ask me?" He asked, and his voice was kind, and it made her shy again, and she thought that this question could never be asked if she was sitting in front of him.

She took a deep breath. "Sunggyu-sshi once said that... Sunggyu-sshi will only... make