Because of you, I’m suffer like this.

***

Naeun finally discharged. Doctor said she’s fine. But she doesn’t look like it. I don’t know. I wish to help. To help her. Overcome her problem. But how ? I can’t. I can’t even solve my problem. My own problem. With my so call lovely husband. Even right now. At this moment. He’s in front of me. Holding Naeun’s hand. To the car. Shouldn’t I be doing that ? To Naeun. At least.

            “ Sungyeol-shi,” I heard. Naeun called. “ Could you please let Yoo hold me ? I feel uncomfortable. Since you’re my bestfriend husband,” she said. Sungyeol. Look at me. And finally. Nods. I passed Naeun’s bag to him.

            “ Let’s go Naeun-ah,” I hold Naeun’s hand.

^^

Yoo brought me to her house. Sunggyu oppa was so excited to see me back. He even suggested to just moved me to this house. All because Yoo is married. And he left all alone. After Yoo moved out. I like the idea. But I really dislike the idea that Yoo’s moving out. It’ll be hard to meet her regularly again. But, what can I do ? She have a husband. She must follow his lead.

            “ Sunggyu hyung,” Yoo’s husband called oppa. He look at him. Firmly. “ Can I and Yookyung not moved out ? Yeah, I mean Yoo must be wanted to stay with her bestfriend, right yeobo ?” he caresses Yoo’s hair.

            “ Says who ? I didn’t say anything,” Yoo said. Frowning. Nice move Yoo-ah. I chuckled.

            “ Oh really ? Ah okay then if you say that,” he startled.

            “ But I would like it if I could stay here,” Yoo said. Her husband look at her shocked without her looking back. But the, he smile. “ Without you,” Yoo continued. “ Can I oppa ?” she ask Sunggyu oppa.

            “ But we’re married. Shouldn’t we lived together ?” Sungyeol immediately say.

            “ We’re not gonna die even if we stay apart, aren’t we ?” she said cynically. He sigh. Don’t know what to say.

            “ It’s a good idea, KyungKyung-ah,” Sunggyu oppa patted Yoo’s shoulder. “ Don’t worry Sungyeol-ah. I’ll talk to your parents. That you’re living with them. But you must fetch Yoo and send her back here each time she got class, okay ?” oppa ask. He nods. Lightly.

            Poor you.

^^

A year later…

It’s a relieved that I’ve finished studies. So do my husband. So do Naeun. So do Myungsoo. So do everyone. Talking about me. My husband. Naeun. Myungsoo. And everyone. These past a year, never heard of them. Right ? Well, my husband graduated same as me. He stop fetching me up at house after 3 months doing that. Why ? Because Naeun left so early in the morning, while I have class only in the afternoon.

Myungsoo, Myungsoo. He disappeared after Naeun’s discharged from the hospital. And never come back. He even stop his studies at the college. But, he don’t really disappeared because I still know where he is since he kept looking for me. The reason he’s leaving ? Because he felt guilty to Naeun. The reason he look for me ? Come on. Life must go on. And money is important.

Everyone. Or to be specific, Hoya. Yeah him. After 3 months, which Sungyeol stop fetching me up. He confessed. To me. Maigod man. I thought he really loves Naeun. Well, he’s just the same type as Sungyeol. Which, never care of girl’s feelings. Well, he should be. Because Naeun didn’t love him too. Just someone to make her easier forgetting Myungsoo.

Eotteoke  Eotteoke Eotteoke mareul halkka
Do you hear me that I’m fallin in love ?

The phone rang. Whose the hell calling this late at night. I wonder. Still. I answered the call. I heard the caller said some things. I startled. The phone drop off from my hand. The tears. Formed in my eyes. Is it true ? What I just heard. Is it true ?

^^

In front.

            I’m standing in front of his body. Why does it have to turned this way ? Why must you end up like this ? Why ? Why ? Wake up. Please. Don’t die.