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Kibum P.O.V

"Alright once agian Kibum may you please describe your feelings for the person you're thinking of?"

Taking a deep breath i stumbled over the first few words i wanted to say.

"W..we...well...um....they...make me feel...."

Stopping short i felt the pit of my stomach do a little flip. Regaining my composture i tried once agian to express the feeling that Jonghyun left me with.

"Um...well....i feel...."

I couldn't do it. The emotion was too hard to put into words.

"Take your time Kibum. However why don't you just let whatever you want to express come naturally? Dont try to make sense out of your emotions, just let them guide you to the answer youre looking for."

That made sense and seeing as how i really did want to figure just what i felt towards Jonghyun i shielded my eyes with the back of my hands and pictured Jonghyun.

The first time i had met him, i could still remember the feeling he cast over me as he pulled me through the stormy weather.

"Free."

Trusting me enough to take me back to his apartment and clean me up.

"Considerate."

My mind suddenly roamed to the second time i had met Jonghyun. I remembered the sound of his voice pulling me from some distant place. Saving me from my own darkness.

"Astounding."

Then i remembered right after he had pulled me up and ran with me to the school roof, leading the way the whole time. Out into the rain we went, amidst the confusing setting of our clothes getting soaked all the way through and rain pelting our bodies i couldn't help but admire Jonghyun as he screamed his heart out.

Not caring if the whole world knew of his frustrations, his outburst was so contangious that i longed to join him. And when i did, though my cry wasn't as powerful as his, i couldn't help but wish to stay in that stormy setting with him, letting the world hear my meekful cries.

"Admirable."

Jonghyun was all these things and more. I really was amazed by his ability to stay by someone that is a complete stranger to him, sticking by a guy that hes only known for a few days. Even though he had no reason to be apart of any of this he was helping me out even now.

"To me this person is all these things and way more. What i feel towards them....hm...lm pretty sure that i wont be able to put it into but words. I cant place a particular feeling on it either. This person makes me want to become a better man. Makes me want to be good enough for them.....if that makes any sense."

I wasn't too sure what i was saying or trying to get across but i did as Minho had instructed. Let my feelings flow and shape into thier own words. And in doing so i felt that my soul had become somewhat lighter but my heart felt heavy as it thumped rapidly against my rib cage.

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Minho P.O.V

I was completely taken about by what Kibum had just expressed to me.

As he spoke about that certain person his eyes lit up like he was remembering an amazing treasure he had just found. It truly was amazing however i was more shocked at how fluently his face curved and uncurved when talking about that very person.

A small smile had landed on his face and though he only named three things i could tell that he was thinking about way more. Perhaps if he unleased this bottled up feeling that he could not place on the one he was thinking of then he would be able to regain all his emotions.

I watched as his eyes clouded over once again, surely he was thinking about that person now. However this time was different, his small smile widened a little and a hint of blush came to his cheeks.

Even though i had an idea of what he was feeling for this certain person i decided to ask a few more questions before i confirmed my theory.

"Kibum."

No reply.

"Kibum."

"Hm?"

Though he answered i could tell that he wasn't all there. So inhaling deeply i asked the question that i was sure was going to bring his full attention back to me.

"Kibum, can you tell me the name of the person you're daydreaming about right now?"

For a while there was a long pause. It seemed as if he was trying to figure out if he heard me right. And then when all of my words finally clicked his face turned to a darker shade of red.

Interesting.

"Well Kibum?"

"Um...uh...um...n....no..."

Watching as his eyes as they darted from mine, i couldn't help but chuckle as he stumbled over his answer, now i was beginning to become even more curious.

"Why not?"

"I..i...i dont know."

"Well can you at least give me a hint?"

Watching as he shook his head back and forth i couldn't help but feel a little bit frustrated.It wasn't as if he liked....

"You dont happen to like Taemin, do you?"

At this i watched as all emotion ran from his face and he gave me a simple answer, no. Sighing in relief i smiled to myself a bit as i remembered the way his light body fit snug in my arms. Crashing back to reality i decided that i would try again.

"How about Onew?"

Once again his answer was the same. I wasn't too sure why i was just asking about guys but  seeing as how i asked about Taemin i couldn't help but try to save face, since i had asked about Taemin on a more personal level.

"Then maybe Jonghyun?"

And just like that his whole body seemed to stiffen and become a shade of red. Had i really hit the jackpot?

"Well Kibum?"

Seeing as how he hadn't answered me yet i was anxious to learn his answer. At first i heard him mumble something and then i asked him to repeat himself. Since i hadn't heard it.

"Well im not sure if i do like him in that sort of way but he is special to me."

I noticed as his face softened as he spoke.And thats when i knew.

"Youre right Kibum you don't like him, you love him."

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Kibum P.O.V

Frozen.

I was completely and utterly frozen.

Minho had said something that made my heart stop completely, as well as the blood in my veins freeze.

He said that i was in love with Jonghyun.

At this sudden realization, an amazing sort of heat spread throughout my body, firing the blood in my veins and sending my heart into double time.

However just as soon as the feeling came it disappeared, subcoming to another feeling. This one on the other hand was the least bit pleasant. This new feeling was fear. It brought doubts into my mind and played out situations that i knew were to happen if Jonghyun found out that i was in love with him.

Wasting no more time i turned towards Minho.

"Please..pl...please dont tell."

"Of course im not going to tell him. Thats your job."

Shaking my head i knew that that would never happen.

"And why aren't you going to tell him?"

"Because he'll reject me."  And call me disgusting. The glint in his eyes when his attention is on me will completely disappear and i will have lost him to something as feeble as my emotions.

Id rather be stoic and have Jonghyun be by my side than have to face all these emotions without him.

"And exactly how do you know he will reject you?"

"Arent you Jonghyun's friend?"

I seemed to have caught Minho off guard with my question.

"Yes i am but why does that matter?"

"Well dont you know what type of gender he prefers?And im sure that even if he was even a hint of gay he wouldn't waste his time with someone like me."

Wow. Where the heck was all this negativity coming from? I couldn't help myself really. All these images kept playing my mind, and they were making my head hurt as well as my heart.

"Look Kibum, fine i won't say a word. But i hope you know what you're doing. But a piece of advice, if you're not going to tell him then try to keep your facial expressions in check around him."

Giving him a questioning look i wasn't too sure what he was talking about.

"I doubt that youve noticed but whenever you think about Jonghyun or even talk about him your face expressions all sorts of emotions. But seeing as how you dont want to make him, or anyone else aware of your feelings for him, then you better keep yourself under control. 

You can use the reason that seeing as how youre new to using your expressions again after so long that theyre a bit out of whack but remember, that can only last for so long."

As much as i hated to admit it i knew that what Minho said was true. I hadn't realized my facial changes whenever it came to Jonghyun but i knew it was true. I might be able to get by on that excuse of just experiencing physical emotion again but i knew that i would have to concur my physical emotions soon.

"Also one more thing Kibum. Jonghyun had never had girlfriend nor boyfriend. Hes never taken an interest in either really. So dont run away at least try first."

How i wanted to curse Minho, planting hope into my already bursting heart.

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Jonghyun P.O.V

How long had it been?

No body was really keeping time but we all waited patiently.

Thats when we heard it.

The door Kibum and Minho had went into had opened revealing Minho walking confidently first and Kibum shuffling behind him.

I hadn't realized that i had stood up until i looked over and saw that Taemin and Onew were in the same tense stance that i was in.

We all waited to see if Minho had been able to help  Kibum at all. We got our answer once Kibum meekly stepped out from behind   Minho.

On his face he wore a meek looking smile while his cheeks were beautifully enveloped in a dark shade of blush.

"Thank you guys for waiting for me. And especially you Jonghyun. Thank you for giving me this...this ...chance."

All of a sudden Kibum broke down into tears.

"Sorry about that. You his emotional system is out of whack and will be for a while but just be patient with him. But other than that he should be fine."

Exhaling the breath that i didn't know i was holding i watched as Taemin was the first to appoarch Kibum. Wrapping him soundly in his body i felt a pang of jealousy spur through me.

I wanted to hug Kibum too. So making my way over to him settled for petting his silky smooth hair.

Being content with this i felt myself tear up at the realization that Kibum could express himself fully now.

"How can we thank you Minho?"

Surprisingly it was Onew that spoke up.

"Oh no. Jonghyun has helped me out more than i care to admit and so this was one of the things i could do for him at least."

Looking down i felt different pairs of eyes one me. Not wanting to be embarrassed i turned to where Taemin and Kibum were still locked together.

"Im glad youre doing okay Kibum. Just tell me if you need anything okay?"

I watched as Kibum wiggled himself out of the arms of a crying Taemin and anticipated as he appoarched me with tiny steps. Finally when he was in front of me i almost melted as he leanded in for a hug. Gladly giving him one i felt shivers run down my spine as his he burrowed his taller body into mine.

"Thank you very much Jonghyun."

I was frozen stiff. I didn't dare move, as Kibum was talking his lips had brushed against my lower neck and i couldn't help but wonder exactly how anyones lips could be so plump and soft. 

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