He’s pulling me in his room but I don’t feel a thing. All I keep asking myself is ‘why?’ He is just staring at me but I can feel his anger. I don’t know why. It’s not like I’m the one who ed another girl right? I am not the one who cheated right? I don’t even get him anymore…I just..

“What are you doing here?”

his knuckles are turning white, I can see it. I didn’t respond. I am trying to hold myself together right now. I don’t want him to see me cry. No…no one deserve my tears..No.

“I am asking you Sara what are you doing here?”

 but still, I didn’t speak. Truth to be told, I am scared. I am scared to show him that he hurt me so damn much that I can almost hear my heart shattering like a glass. I am scared that I might burst out and just scream. I am scared that if I respond, I will lose him

He just stared at me too. We have been like that for a long time…but I need to ask. I have to know

“did you sleep with her?” he sighed

“Sara, please…”

“Please what? Did you slept with her?”

“Yes.” It was almost a whisper but it was too loud it my ears and it keeps on repeating in my head

“Just one time or…or..in that two weeks you were…gone?” I am trying to keep it together. .

“I was already with her when I arrived”

Then tears just keep flowing…why?.. What on earth did I do wrong to deserve this? Why did I ever come here? Why did I even flew for hours just to see him? Why did I even worry about him? Why did I ever cared about him? Why did I even love him?

“you’re a ing jerk do you know that?!”

 I hit him and hit him and I just wish he can feel half the pain he caused me

“Just ing stop yelling!”

“This is like Jonghyun all over again!”

“I am not anything like your ing boyfriend Sara! As far as I know, you’re not even my girlfriend to begin with!I didn’t cheat on you or anyone so it!”

And I stopped. If anyone can die due to heartbreak, I may be the first one. Everything in my body felt weak. Everything.

It hurts cause he can never realize what wrong he had done