ONEW’S POV

I don’t know why she suddenly had the interest in my past life. I am not proud of that. I fooled around with so many girls with so many times and I don’t want to let the girl I am starting to fall in love with regretting why she even became friends with me.

But her eyes, they were looking like she can see right through me. I have been with a lot of girls, believe me but I have never felt like this, only with her. I don’t know how to explain this but do you know that feeling when you think you’re bare? like this one single person can read you in the back of her hand. Like she can see how you really feel even though you try your best to hide it? I just want to lay it out on her.

“fine, if you are that interested in me. Well you know my parents didn’t work it out when I was there. I stopped playing the sports I really like just to piss them off. I had a lot of girls and fooled around…I mean a lot but I had this serious relationship too. Her name was Nadine. She was a little tall not the petite type I like, she was smart and amazing, everything I hoped for. She was always there for me. She was Korean so we get along well. I was so lost when I went to school. New culture, new way of talking but as awesome as I am, I got along with them well and made some friends. She was my first serious girlfriend after some time”

“Why did you break up with her then?”

“She broke up with me”

“Why?”

“I-I don’t know, things happened and it really didn’t work out on us but I loved her”

“How about now? Do you still think of her?”

“Yeah I do. I have been friends with her after the break-up. It was a mature relationship. We just fell out of love at some point I think”

“Yeah, some people just feel like that”

“yeah”

I stared at her and looked up in the sky. There was silence but the kind of silence where there is no awkwardness at all. We both know how it feels to be left by your parents alone, I know mine was not ideal, and hers ended up in divorce. We broke up with the people we love…You know, when the people you trusted, the people you love the most breaks your heart, you become unsure in how to even love or trust again.

“Onew, sometimes I wonder if I still can fall in love again”

“We can”

“You think?” she wondered. I looked at her and we are staring at each other

“Yeah, I think I already am”

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We went back to my place after our long talk.  We seem to be a little comfortable with each o