"SARA'S POV"

I guess he won't come. Time really does slow down when you are watching it tick every second. I faught the urge sleep even thoug I want to close my eyes. I have busied myself reading some books in my phone. You should try Colleen Hoover's books, they are awesome and by the way, my book crushes are Miles and Holder. Such dreamy characters. I wonder if I wiould become a character in a story, how will it end? Will I also have someone to love me so much they won't be able to breathe without me like those romantic books that I have read?Oh how I wish.

I checked on my phone and it's nearly two in the morning. I still have early classes tomorrow and If Onew doesn't want to come, then let him be. I am too tired to think right now or to even talk. I feel like I am exhausted from doing nothing. I feel like I am so stressed with everything that is happening. Onew is such a pain in the sometimes

the thing that I don't understand about him is that he made it very clear that he doesn't want to go beyond that friendship thing and up to now, I still don't know the reason why. But he always got me so confuse, sending me these signals and making me feel like he wants me to be his girlfriend. I got the feeling that maybe he is considering having "more" than this but something is stoping him and that's what I need to find out. 

I keep on asking myself every damn night...Am I making the right decision for myself and for my heart. That bastard Jonghyun really scarred me so deep that sometimes I don't trust people anymore. I can't just give everything again and cry in the end. It hurts that someone who you love can't give you what you are expecting from them...

I'll just let this pass and sleep for now. I set my alarm and placed my phone on my night stand. He'll talk when he wants to talk and I won't just force him on what I like. it makes things more complicated...I dozed off thinking about him

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A sudden motion beside me woke me up but I didn't dare to open my eyes. I am sure that it is not morning yet. Sunlight illuminates from my room when it does. Should I dare? Is there a ghost beside me? but it's so warm..

An arm wrapped around me and pulled me close, i breathe. he is here

"I know you're awake,baby" I slowly opened my eyes

"Onew.."

"Sorry to wake you up"

"Am I dreaming or what? Is it morning yet? how did you come here"

"Through the window. You didn't lock it. Double check it before you sleep! I may be a or something"

"I'm sorry.."

"For what? for not locking your window?"

"about yesterday and about that.. and you're really creepy just coming here without notice!"

"I came here yesterday.."

"I am sure you didn't!"

"I did, you were really sleeping like an angel and I didn't bother to wake you up"

"You should have, I feel terrible before I went to sleep. What time is it anyway?"

"2 am. I was not planning on coming yesterday cause I was so pissed off but I just couldn't sleep without seeing you first so I came"

"My window was locked yesterday"

"Yeah, I used the key your brother ga