"SARA'S POV"

Another week and my brother will finally come home. But for this weekend, Onew has a game out of town. We decided to go together, stay in a hotel and spend the whole weekend after his game. This was his first game as the team’s captain and I really don’t know how baseball works. I just really wanna see him play again. I love that look in his face every time. Different from the Onew I normally see.

“So we’ll just drive a day earlier then?”

“Yes, I just wanna spend time with you alone”

“you know we can do that here right?” I said to him as I was packing my clothes

“you know we can’t right? Everyone knows that you’re my best friend’s sister and a word from people and it will spread like ”

“Are you scared that much?” I smirked. And yes, I am disappointed

“let’s not talk about this and let’s just have a good weekend together”

“Okay,”

“Please don’t be mad. I just want to spend time with you alone with no one to judge and we can do whatever we want”

I don’t really get where all of this is coming from. We’ve known each other for too long. I don’t know if it’s because he is so scared of my brother or just have commitment issues. It’s been so long and every time I wanted to ask him, he quickly changes the topic so we remained like this. No commitment, no assurance, no labels.   I’m happy, I truly am but I wanted this relationship to be something more. I tried to open things up with Joy with all those frustrations in me but she told me to understand it for a while, that maybe he has his own reasons too. And I keep figuring him out until I give up and still, I can’t get anything out of him.

We arrived late in the afternoon at the hotel. He planned this well. Kudos to him. I don’t know how to explain this but every time I spend time with him, I feel like were drifting far away from each other. I love him, now I know that because I have been wanting more from him not just this casual and late night talks with him. We’ve been having for most of the time and he’s good. Oh he is. Plus we live together, we talk all of the time. We spend time almost together and I know he feels something for me. I know he does cause I can feel that I am very special to him but why can’t he just make this official for us? Why can’t I be just his girlfriend?

“what are you thinking?”

“Huh? Nothing.”

“you’re thinking something”

“just the things we will do before your game” I lied.

“we will have a lot of  fun”

“what’s the plan?” we have tomorrow and tonight for our free time

“I plan on making you l