It wasnt a good day for him. He had been feeling so down and had been crying for hours. He didn’t know why he was behaving like that, he just couldn’t control. He hated himself for not being able to control his emotions and leaving the place first.

Junhwe mentally cursed as he sobbed hard along the street. He didn’t even care if people were stealing glances at him. Jinhwan and Hanbyul went to find him after he didn’t come back. They saw the melted icecreams on the floor and went to search for him.

Junhwe didn’t go home either. He didn’t want to go home, he didn’t want to think about anything else. He was hurt, so hurt. The evening wind blew strongly as he sat on the bench at the playground. He wasn’t feeling good. He was feeling sick and nausceous. He was having a headache too.

He let out a sigh as he recalled everything from the start, from the day he first met Hanbyul till that moment and he placed his hand over his chest. He sighed again, closing his eyes and a tear slipped onto his face.

* Is this love? Or what is this? I don’t know either. And…. Jinhwan hyung ah… * He thought. He used to like and respect Jinhwan so much but everything has changed now and Junhwe hated it. He hated all of this.

If only, he went together with B.I, he probably wouldn’t be experiencing this whole drama thing. His stomache grumbled and he slightly cleared his throat with embarrassment. Taking a deep breath, he got up from the bench and headed to the snack shop nearby.

The rest bench right outside the shop made him frown immediately when he saw it. * I miss you. I miss Yunhyung and Donghyuk too. * He thought with a frown. That rest bench held memories of the three of them including Hanbyul as they went for snacks after duty roster.

Junhwe bought cup ramen, instant deokbokki, banana milk, triangle-shaped rice and icecream and sat down on the rest bench.

“ will they even find me? Will she even notice that I had left without them? Will they even have dinner without me? Will they look for me? “ He questioned, mumbling to himself as he waited for his cup ramen.

He put the deokbokki into his mouth and sighed, chewing it with a frown. * how are you Yunhyung hyung, Donghyuk ah… I shouldn’t have stayed behind… everything would be different if either one of you or even Chanwoo stayed behind with her instead of me… * He thought. The thought of Chanwoo made him almost choked with the deokbokki.

Guilty. Guilty. Guilty was what he was feeling that night about Chanwoo. “ Jung Chanwoo. If you only you stayed behind, you would still be alive… “ He muttered, stirring his ramen to see if it was cooked.

Jinhwan and Junhwe had been searching for him for hours. They called him but he didn’t answer his phone. Junhwe wanted to be alone. He finished the cup ramen and the deokbokki and the rice, ending with a burp. He rubbed his tummy with a sigh and took a sip of his banana milk.

Checking the time, he sighed again and took his icecream. Chocolate icecream. He softened as he put the icecream into his mouth. He missed B.I so much. * Hanbin hyung… I’ll treat you to lots of chocolate cecream when we’re back together. * He thought. One by one, he thought of them till Bobby and he rolled his eyes.

Both of them decided to head home to see if he was already home. Hanbyul ran upstairs to find him but he wasn’t around. A frown appeared on her face and she was worried for Junhwe.

* Junhwe ah.. are you alright? Did he by chance saw us kissing? * She thought. She felt it. There was something wrong.

She dialed his number again, caling him but Junhwe just wouldn’t answer. Jinhwan went upstairs to see her frowning and he softened.

“ he’ll be back… don’t worry~ go have a warm shower and take a rest. I’ll wait for him “ Jinhwan stated but she shook her head. She asked Jinhwan to take a rest instead while she wait for Junhwe to come back.

Jinhwan couldn’t disobey and nodded eventually, going into his room, closing the door behind him and leaned his back against it. He let out a sigh and closed his eyes. * I cant believe I said it out… because of you, everything has changed. What is brotherhood, what are friends… * He thought. He felt guilty. He always was.

Hanbyul waited for Junhwe outside the deokbokki shop. She kept looking around, looking left and right, for him. She was worried. The beeping sound of the phone sounded and before Junh