SIXTEEN

Jiyeon’s POV

I couldn’t help but to get flustered when Sehun suddenly pushed my body onto the bed before positioning himself on top of me. His unfocused eyes caught mine, and I saw he slowly leaned closer. I know what’s coming, but I couldn’t even move an inch. I’m too flustered to even say anything. And finally it happened. His soft small lips landed on mine and it stayed there for about 30 seconds. This is something I never experienced, so it seems so long to me. His hands are running down my arms. His every touch is giving me chills, but why I couldn’t stop him?

“Jiyeon…”

He called again once the kiss broke, but all I could do is silently staring at him. I’m seriously speechless right now. The more I looked at him, the more tears are forming. I could feel his cold palm landed on my left cheek and he slowly caressed with his thumb. A light smile appeared on his face, while more tears rolled down my eyes. I even started sobbing. I just feel bad, I feel really bad for him. I was being a really bad friend for him.

“My world is spinning.” Sehun muttered and he looked really unstable. Before I could do anything, he passed out and his body fell onto my body.

“Ugh!” I exclaimed as he fell onto me. But then… I can actually feel his heartbeat as he’s so close to me now. I halted a few seconds, letting his body onto mine, but then I pushed his body off and made sure he comfortably lied down the bed. I pulled the blanket and covered his body up to his waist with it. I sat down next to his body and just like before, I started staring at him sleeping.

“I’m sorry, Sehun.” The words slipped off my lips.

I took a deep breath before pouring all the feelings I’ve been holding for so long.

“Honestly… I knew you like me, I knew you sent me the letter. N, U, O, H, E. It is obviously you. You know what’s funny? You told me this by yourself when you’re drunk and ended up in my house. I can still clearly remember your words, I send you the Dear Jiyeon letter because I have no confidence of telling you by myself that I like you sooo much! At first, I thought you’re lying, but I heard when someone is drunk he said real stuffs. I refused to believe, but you made your feeling obvious as days passed. I gave myself some thought about it back then, but at a point when I received that letter saying that you had no reason to send me the letter again, I realized you’re still my playboy friend. You flirted around a lot, and it made me feel like this Dear Jiyeon thingy was a joke from you too. I really thought it was you in the library, but Baekhyun appeared instead. I was really confused. I didn’t know what the truth was.”

“Day by day, you started treating me very differently. You cared a lot. I thought I like you too because I was happy to have you around, but then, I like Myungsoo oppa as well. I couldn’t like you back, because I know how much Krystal love you. I was afraid that I’d fall for you, so I decided to leave so both you and Krystal would be happy. I told myself a few times that the person I like is Myungsoo oppa, so I didn’t have to think about you. You’ll be okay here with Krystal. I told myself that. But the feelings grew severe because for five years, I’ve been thinking about what I’ve done to you. I know you like me, but I left and ignored you when you told me not to go. You must be hating me so much right? I saw it in your gaze. I’m sorry…”

“I hate you…” Sehun suddenly grumbled in his sleep once I finished my story.

Tears rolled down again. It hurts me so bad to hear it from him. I’ve hurt him so bad before. I couldn’t stop myself from sobbing hardly. I covered my mouth with my palms so I wouldn’t wake him up with the noise from my sobs. But this time, Sehun once again opened his eyes. He looked at me blankly, while I was crying hard. He reached out his hand a grabbed my wrist. He pulled me again and I ended up lying down next to him. His hands encircled around my waist and he tugged me closer into his chest. I cried even harder to have him so close. I couldn’t hold myself. As much as I want to push him away is as much as I want to have him closer. Because through the letter I received lately, I know he’s in pain because of me.

Author’s POV

Sehun slightly moved as he felt quite stuffy. Once he opened his eyes, he slowly groaned to feel a massive headache poking him. He tried to hold his head when he felt something heavy is blocking his right hand. Sehun tilted his head to the side just to notice that Jiyeon is sleeping on his arm with her hand on his chest. She’s so close to him, and Sehun could feel his heart thumping hard. However, he couldn’t think much as his head is still aching. He carefully pulled his arm off Jiyeon’s head and slowly attempted to leave the bed when Jiyeon unconsciously grabbed his arm and hugged it.

“.” Sehun whispered.

“I’m sorry…” Jiyeon mumbled, still sleeping.

Sehun heard that and his eyes fixed on the sleeping Jiyeon. He started observing her features. Those sleeping eyes, perfect nose, alluring pink lips… pink lips… Something came into Sehun’s mind as he’s staring at Jiyeon’s lips. He bit his own lips as he remembered something.

“I kissed her…” He whispered, “I must be drunk. But why did she has to help me?”

“Hmph…” Jiyeon suddenly grunted and released her grip from Sehun’s arm.

Sehun just kept staring as Jiyeon started rolling around, probably feeling uncomfortable sleeping somewhere else other than her room. Sehun smirked to see Jiyeon moving around but he then left the room. He took a glance on the wall clock just to see it’s 3.00 a.m. He walked to the water dispenser and drank a glass of cold water. His headache is slowly healed. Sehun then sat at the table where his friends stayed that evening. He remembered how awkward it was the moment his hand touched Jiyeon’s.

“I was once a professional player known as filthy playboy Sehun by my friends. But I was ruined by a clumsy girl named Jiyeon.” Sehun muttered to himself while blankly staring at the cup on the table.

BAMM!

Sehun flinched when he heard something from inside his room, “Ouch…” A small murmured followed. Jiyeon? Sehun thought. He heard the door cracked open and a figure slowly walked out while sleepily rubbing her eyes. Sehun quickly hid under the table and secretly watched Jiyeon as she passed by where he sat just now. Her face is covered by her messy hair and she seemed quite unstable too. Sehun even saw she carried her handbag.

“Where is she going at this hour?” Sehun whispered under the table as Jiyeon walked down the stairs.

He decided to follow her just in case things gone wrong. When he arrived at lower floor, he saw Jiyeon exited the back entrance. Sehun ran upstairs and rushed back down with a jacket to follow Jiyeon. It’s late and it’s dangerous for her to walk alone, that is what in Sehun’s mind as well. He saw Jiyeon rode a deluxe taxi so he fetched one too. Gratefully tomorrow is weekend and the café is in the middle of the city so there are more taxis late at night too.

“So Jiyeon went back home. She must have thought I left when she woke up.” Sehun muttered while getting of the taxi in Jiyeon’s residential area.

Jiyeon looked quite sleepy as she walked unstably into her house. Seeing Jiyeon disappeared inside, Sehun huffed. I should just stay at the café. Sehun told himself. But then he remembered Chunji lives at a building around here too so he walked to the nearest neighborhood while phoning Chunji.

“Hmm… what is it?” Chunji answered the call with an extremely sleepy yet annoyed voice.

“Unlock the door. I’m on my way to your house.” Sehun told him.

“Why must you come this late at night? You’re crazy!” Chunji scolded.

“I’ll bang the door if you don’t open it so your entire family will wake up.” Sehun threatened.

“Fine!” With that, Chunji angrily hung up, making Sehun proudly grinned after annoying his own friend.

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The next morning Jiyeon arrived in front of Chunji’s apartment bringing some homemade California rolls, beef and kimchi stews, and also a few rice balls. She rang the bell about three times, but no one opened the door for her. She sighed before taking out her phone and took a look at Chunji’s text message she received about at six in the morning.

CJ: Jiyeon-ah. My parents left to my hometown last night. I know this is random but can you come over today and make sure to cook some foods for me? Let’s spend some times together today okay! I’ll be waiting.

CJ: And oh! Just in case no one open the door for you, I must be sleeping because I