We’re going to the hang out together.all six of us.maybe we going to watch a movies first.well today’s the day.after discussing with Luna and Jessica i decide to do the “confessing” thing today.i looked my self in front of the mirror again.trying to convince my self that everything is going to be okay.i take a deep sigh and then go downstairs to meet them who already waiting for me.

“Moom..i’m going now i’ll be home at night “ I yelled looking for her.and then she appear

“Alright.but  just until 9 pm okay?not more”

“Okaay..i’ll be home as soon as i can “

“Be careful Ambie..”

And now i’m in Kris’s car.again.fuuuh what is i got rejected later and it make the situations gets awkward?oh man,i’m in the same car with him.i’ll try not to be nervous and act normal like usual.and thank God that he doesn’t even realize that i’m nervous.

So..as i expected we’re going to watch movies first.eergh none one of them who willing to queue and buy the tickets.they all running away and give me the money.what a nice friend.i’m standing alone for a while but then someone sudenly next to me.it was Kris..

“What are you doing here?I thought you’re going to the toilet” I asked him

“Well I just did,i don’t know where they are so i’m here.they really mean letting you stand here alone”

I just laugh at his words..”Haha..it’s fine.it doesn’t matter”

We all decide to watch a horror movies.and after we bought the ticket we sit in the front of the studio waiting the door to be open.

“So..after this we might be going to eat right?and after we finish eating we will drag Luhan and Lay with us.okay?” said Luna

“Okay.got it.and so there will be you and Kris together,so tell him that time Am..” said Jessica to me

“Yeah..okay.i’ll tell him”

And then the door is open so we going in and looking for our seat.nice,i’m next to Kris.haah it must be them.they just sit and easting their popcorn like nothing happen.the moment the movies start,it already made all of us shock because of the music.

Well this movie not that scary for me it’s just because the sudden move and the sudden appearance of the ghost.and it succeed to make me suprise.but then Kris ask me..

“You’re not scared Am ?”

“No..really.it’s just shocking not scary”

And he just smile and laugh “Whoa..you really different you know?most of the girls would be screaming and grabbing the arms of people next to them”

“Soo..do you expect me to do the same thing?” I asked

“Not really,i’m just saying.look at them” He said while pointing at Luna and Luhan who seems like hugging each other Jessica cursing because she’s shock and Lay who close his eyes with his finger.and I just laugh it off.

And as Luna’s expected we’re now at a restaurant for dinner.we ordered a different food.and while we waiting Luhan starts the conversation first

“Whooah that movies really make my heart pounding really fast “

“Yeah..it’s pretty shocking you know.it made me curse a lot haha” Jessica added

“And you know what there is this person who keep calm even though she’s shocked.she’s not even screaming a bit “

Aaah..I knew it they must be talking about me.”It’s not that scary Luna but it is shocking of the sudden appearance” I said

“Well she is the tough one guys” Lay said it

“She’s Ms.Tough anyway.of course i won’t scare her “ Kris said it with laugh.

“No i’m not.what kind of nickname is that?” I replied

And they all just laughing at me..zzz but soon after that our food coming.and so we eat it right away.and then we finished.time to start the plan.and Luna and Jessica start making excuses to Lay and Luhan to company them

“Lay..can you accompanying me?i want to buy clothes but Luna said she can’t accompanying me.” Asked Jessica

“Huh me?seriously?but..i’m a guy “ he said

“It’s okay.maybe boys taste would be better than the girls”

“Okay then..let’s go”

And not so long after Luna did her “duty” too.she asked Luhan to accompany her picking out clothes for her brother as a birthday gift

“So..Luhan would you accompany too?I need to pick up clothes for my brother birthday gift.but since i’m a girl i don’t really know boys taste.can you help me?” asked Luna

“Ohh..okay i’ll help you lets go”

“Wait for us here.don’t go anywhere”Luhan added

And then they both also left with Luna whispering goodluck in secret to me.and I take a deep breath and then...sigh.how do i start to say it?my mind completely blank right now

“Hey Kris..can i talk to you about something?”

“Yeah..sure go ahead” He said while putting his cellphones down.

“i know we’ve been bestfriends till now.but you know i’m feel different kind of feeling towards you these day.i don’t know for sure when it all started,but all i know now is I LIKE YOU Kris.i’m sorry if this make you uncomfortable.but confessing it make me feel relieved and i don’t ask you to be my boyfriend.i just...want you to know how i feel”

He remained quiet fo a while before he finally speak up “To be honest Am,i’m suprised that you like me that way.well thank you.but..i’m sorry Am,I’m not even sure how i felt towards you.i admit that i care to you,you making me laugh and smile often.but that’s all.i’m not feeling that kind of spark” he explained.well then my feelings is right i know he would say this kind of thing to me.so yeah it’s just one sided love.and it hurts.i just try to smile as genuine as I can

“Look Am..I’m really sorry and I don’t mean to hurt you”

“It’s okay.i know i can’t force you to feel the same way like i did” I said to him

“But we’re still bestfriends right Am?he asked

“Yeah.of course.but please don’t let anyone know about this.i’m afraid it will ruin our friendship”

“Alright..i won’t tell them”

And not so long after that they cameback in the right time.after we playing basketball a while we decided to go home.well Jessica and Luna can’t wait to hear the results but i think by the way i act they already knew about it.

On our way home she just keeps quiet and looking at outside the window.well it’s not her usual self.she usually would be talking or singing along the music or make a stupid jokes.but now she just..quite.until we reach her home

“Hey Am..i’m terribly sorry.but please let me be your bestfriends like usual” I said to her before she get off

“It’s okay Kris.stop apologizing.i understand it” she said with a completely fake smile on her face.i know she must be broken inside

“And yes..we’re still bestfriends” She added.

And with that i drove my car back to home.and i got remainded by her confessions earlier.now i felt so guilty.but that’s the way i feel about her.even if accept her and then she know that i’m not feeling the same it will her more.!i mess my hair and pulled it out of frustration.I’m really sorry Amber..i said with closing my eyes.

After that “confessing” thing everything went back normal.even sometimes it’s a little awkward between Kris and Amber.and in the end Luna.Jessica,Lay,and Luhan knew it.but they didn’t say anything about it.they just act like they didn’t know anything.and too bad that all of them need to be separated.

They are in different class in the last  year.Luna,Amber and Luhan in the same class.while Kris and Jessica together in the same class while Lay alone by himself.at first they are so close even they are in the different class now.And for Amber.she can’t get over Kris since he’s her first love.she tried.and do so many ways.so hard.but she just can’t.until he decide to hate Kris so much till she can’t forget about him.but...unfortunately it didn’t work out either