Chapter 18

After spending five days of recovery, Yuri finally had been released from the hospital. She was preparing her things & was ready to go with her mother when Yunho came into the room.

“Good morning, Mrs. Kwon.” He greeted politely. Her mother smiled back at him.

“Hello, Yul.” He moved closer to Yuri, trying to give her a light kiss on her cheek. Yuri turned her head immediately, pretending to be busy with her belongings.

Yunho frowned but didn’t say anything as if he understood his wife’s attitude towards him.

‘What is he doing?! Kissing me every time he visited me! I have to stop him otherwise it would become his habit!’ She scolded him silently, without looking at him.

“Are you ready, Yul?” He asked casually.

Yuri nodded, still avoiding his gaze.

“Yunho, are you not working today?” Yuri’s mother asked him, looking at his casual clothes. Wearing a blue perry ellis slim-fit ombre checked shirt & kenneth cole reaction light wash bootcut jeans, Yunho looked relax. He smiled lightly, “No. I’m taking the day off. Today I have to welcome my son into his new home. I want to be with him in this special moment.” He then grinned widely. His innocent face was shining with happiness. Yuri peeked at the expression on his face. He was so happy as if he had won a prestigious award. Yunho had been visiting her & their baby three times a day, first in the morning, during his lunchtime & after he finished work. He was so excited as she could see from his proud face. She groaned inside. During these five days in the hospital, she had been thinking deeply about their relationship. She knew she had to decide between Yoongi & Yunho. It wasn’t fair for both of them if she didn’t make up her mind.

Sometimes, she imagined, what if she chose Yunho but then she frowned. How could she trust her life to Yunho? He even never said that he loved her but Yoongi did. She finally found out that he was two-timing her with his former girlfriend. Thank god she knew it otherwise she would still be flying in the cloud because of his sweet talks. Yunho cared for her only for the sake of his baby. She should’ve known that since the beginning, ‘How stupid are you for not being aware of his sweetness towards you?!’ Her mind scolded her, several times for her carelessness.

After struggling with her heart, she had decided that Yoongi was the love of her life. Maybe her feelings for Yunho was only a crush. He was a playboy. He knew for sure how to play with a woman’s feeling. Picturing Yunho sharing his bed with many different women made her throw up. Her mother was right. Yunho wasn’t an ordinary man. She felt all kind of emotions she’d never experienced before with anyone, anger, hate, disappointed, upset, worried, disgust, happy & love. He had never failed to wake her up from her peaceful life. He was so different with Yoongi. Yoongi had never let her down or made her upset. She felt at peace & secure with Yoongi. He indeed loved her; was being loyal to her & had been waiting for her patiently. She couldn’t disappoint him again. She promised him after the baby was born that she would go back to being only his, ‘Coward.’ Her heart said to her, ‘Yes, I’m a coward. I prefer to have a peaceful & secured life with the man that loved me rather than a man who flirted & sleep around with other women.’ She told herself.

However, the baby was another problem. She had to admit that he was a lovely handsome boy. Five days holding him wasn’t enough. She remembered last night when she was feeding him. Her baby was very hungry. She could see from his face but he drank his milk slowly & gently as if he didn’t want to hurt his mother’s . Yuri let out a big sigh of breath. Tears were glistening in her eyes. He was so small, so young, yet he tried so hard to make his mother loved him. He might have an instinct that his mother would leave him someday. He tried hard to gain her love. Just liked his father, her baby had showed himself that he’d never give up. She looked at him lovingly, scrutinizing his tiny lovely face.

He had fallen asleep again. She put him beside her carefully. She didn’t want to put him in his cradle. She wanted to spend the last night with him as tomorrow they would have to say goodbye. She would give him to Yunho & then they would never meet again. Would he remember her as his mother someday? Would he love her as his mother? Would they meet again, since she’d move to Australia? She blinked her eyes several times, fighting back the tears. Her heart twisted in pain. Why was it so hard to let him go? First Yunho then now her baby.

Yuri pulled the blanket over her baby, covering him from the coldness. She switched the heater to high position. She could feel him shivering. She embraced his tiny body, hoping the warmth of her body would transfer to him. She turned her body to his. Looking at his handsome tiny face, she noticed how perfect his eyebrows were. They were black & thick with good shaped, just looked liked Yunho’s. She smiled bitterly. His nose was perfect for his oval-shaped face. Her eyes turned lower to see his lips. They were also like Yunho’s lips, bow-shaped. He was indeed the image of his father. Maybe as the time goes by, he would change a bit. She caressed hi