Thursday, July 24

Well, we have a little less than a week until we begin filming, but I've already started my training... in a manner of speaking.

Let's just say, I'm not exactly in shape. I've been going to the gym everyday for a couple of hours to work all my different muscles and burn calories. I've been eating less and been eating better foods.

Actually, here in Korea I think it's easier to eat healthy. I eat lots of vegetables and rice and kimchi. I seriously love Kimchi.

I've also been stretching everyday. In college, my roommate Gracie tried to make me stretch everyday, but I didn't really have a reason to. Now I do!

As for Taemin, I still don't get to see much of him. Although last night all the members went out while Taemin and I stayed in the dorm. We had a good couple hours together. I cooked some dinner first. Taemin was really worried that I was going to hurt myself while chopping vegetables and kept trying to take the knife from me.

He's... well... he can be a little obsessive at times. He's always worried about me and frequently asks me weird questions.

Last night, while I was cooking dinner and we both had some tea, he asked me if I had ever made food for another guy. I looked at him weirdly. "Uh, yeah, of course!"

Upset, but with a little smile, he asked "Who? Why? When?"

I laughed. "All the time! I cooked food for my brother, my college friend Patrick, and the guy I liked in Highschool..."

"So you liked someone else? Recently?" He asked, awkwardly taking a sip of his tea.

"Yeeeeeaaaaahhh. Is that a problem?" I turned away from the veggies I was chopping to look at him with a smile.

"No. No, of course not." He assured me. I didn't believe him.

*silence*

"Did you ever kiss him?" He asked.

I looked at Taemin's pouting face. Goodness he's cute. I decided to make him jealous. I'm so mean.

"Yeah." I wasn't lying.

He exhaled sharply and forcefully hit the counter with his tea cup. "When?"

I looked back to my veggies and smiled. "Oh, about a year ago?" I still wasn't lying. I laughed a little.

Taemin started drumming his fingers on the countertop, not saying a word. It was hard for me to not burst out laughing.

After a few moments of awkward silence (Well, it wasn't awkward for me), Taemin asked "How long did you like him?"

"Oh... Let me think." I responded, smiling. "5 and a half years? Yeah that's about right."

Taemin just stared at me, totally silent. I looked at him and smiled. "Are you jealous?" I asked, pretending to be shocked.

"Yes." he replied. Plain and simple, yes. That's one reason I like him. He's very honest. I laughed and decided to stop being a jerk.

"Do you want to know how I kissed him?" I asked.

"No." He turned away from me. Perfect.

I grabbed his chin and kissed him on the cheek. He looked back at me, confused.

"That was all." I said with a smile, turning back to my veggies.

"That was it?" He asked.

"Yep. It's not like we dated or anything.  We probably would have if you hadn't shown up. He said he would date me when he turned 18. But his birthday is in late May. I met you in the middle of May, before he turned 18. He was younger than me and couldn't sing or dance nearly as well as you can. So don't feel jealous."

I turned and kissed him on the lips. He put his hands on my waist and I wrapped my arms around his neck. The kiss grew more and more passionate until, when I eventually pulled away, I was a little out of breath.

I put my chin on his shoulder and whispered into his ear "I definitely never kissed him like that."

He chuckled a bit and kissed my forehead. I went back to cutting my veggies.

After dinner (Which, might I just say, was delicious), we played video games. Honestly, I really like video games.

We sat together on the sofa playing a racing game. Taemin was better than me, but I wasn't about to let him win. Anytime he got ahead of me I would start bumping him and trying to distract him. Eventually, I ended up sitting on his lap to block his view.

I don't think he minded very much. But since he couldn't see the screen to beat me, he tried to distract me... by tickling me.

I used to think that I wasn't ticklish... I was wrong. He tickled my neck and my sides until I was lying on his lap and could barely breathe.

Suddenly, Key walked through the front door and saw Taemin and I playing on the sofa. His face turned a bit pink. "Oh, uh..."

Taemin and I froze. Nobody spoke.

Key coughed "Um... I forgot something." He dissapeared into his bedroom and then came out a second later with something in his hand. He looked awkwardly at Taemin and I still frozen on the sofa. "Carry on" He said, then quickly left the dorm.

Taemin and I looked at each other. I coughed and sat up. "Um..."

"I think that's enough video games for now." Taemin said.

"yeah." I laughed.

"Um... Do you want to watch a movie?" He asked me.

"Sure"

We picked a movie and then resettled ourselves on the sofa.

At first, we just sat next to each other. Eventually, Taemin put his arm over my shoulder. I laughed a little and snuggled up against him. It felt like so long since we'd been alone. I don't even remember the movie. I just remember feeling warm and safe and that I really wanted to kiss him again.

I really did like that guy I knew in Highschool, but he was no Lee Taemin. He wasn't as attractive, and wasn't nearly as up front about his feelings towards me. I think that was the main thing that made me give up on him, even before I met Taemin. And he would never have snuggled with me like Taemin does.

Eventually I fell asleep. I guess Taemin did too. The next thing I remember was waking up in the living room this morning, my head still on Taemin's chest, but with a blanket over us.

I sat up just as Minho walked in the room not wearing a shirt. Dang, that boy is good looking. "Oh, Hannah! You're awake!" He said. Taemin woke up, saw shirtless Minho in front of us, and put his hands over my eyes. "HYUNG" He yelled. "PUT A SHIRT ON!"

Blinded, I just heard Minho say "Oh! Yeah!"

Taemin uncovered my eyes with a sigh. Minho was nowhere to be seen. I laughed under my breath.

"What are you laughing at? He needs to be more decent in front of my girlfriend!" Taemin exclaimed.

I laughed and kissed him on the cheek. "I'm going to go brush my teeth." I said.

The rest of the day was pretty uneventful. I went and worked out, stetched, as I usually do. My body is sore from all the working out... and probably a bit from sleeping on the sofa. But that's okay.

It may be a while before Taemin and I get to hang out as Girlfriend/Boyfriend for a while. And if that costs me a little bit of physical comfort, so be it.

We start filming in 4 days.