“Kim Jong In!” I let out at him in frustration. “Why do you always scare me.”

“I do?” He asked with a smirk.

“Ji Eun ah”, my father called. He was coming down the stairs from the third floor.

“Daddy”, I sang. ”G-goodmorning.”

“What’s wrong?” He asked. ”Did the two of you fight again?”

“We were about to”, I uttered under my breath.

“Ji Eun ah”, Tae Ri came out from the kitchen. I didn’t even know she was there. If I had come a few seconds late she would have known I had slept outside. I was indeed very lucky. “Where were you? I went to your room since you overslept but you weren’t there.”

“I was in the bathroom”, I lied. I hated lying to them, but I had to if I didn’t want to get into trouble. I glared at Kai hoping he wouldn’t open his mouth.

“Bathroom?” He asked with his eyes on me. ”Are you sure? I could have sworn I s…” I put my hand on his mouth to shut him up and gave Mrs. Kim and my father an awkward smile while forcing Kai to stay still.

“He… uh… Let’s go Kai”, I said. I forced him to follow me upstairs to my room and I locked the door behind us.

“What are you doing?” I asked. “Why would you just rat me out like that? You know I’ll get into trouble if they find out.”

“Maybe I want you to get in trouble” he smirked.

“Why are you being so mean?” I asked. He didn’t answer, instead he just observed me.

“Where were you last night?” He wondered. I ignored his question and opened the bedroom door.

“Out”, I said.

“Answer me”, he said.

“Get out”, I didn't want to talk to him. Kai headed to the door. I thought, he was leaving, but he closed it and stayed in. “Just leave!”

”Do you know how dangerous it is for girls to be by themselves late at night?” He asked in a more serious tone. I didn’t answer him. “You could have at least texted mom, Min Ho, your father or even me to tell us where you were. Did you stop to think about how worried everyone would be if you hadn’t come this morning?”  

“It was wrong of me”, I admitted. “And I am sorry to them, so please leave.”

“Aren’t you going to apologise to me?” He asked. I laughed at how ridiculous he sounded.

“Why would I?” I asked.

“Because I was worried about you”, he said. His words entered my brain and made me feel in the entire body, but I was still doubtful. No matter how sincere he looked like, I didn’t want to believe his words that had hurt me so many times before.

“I thought I told you to stop doing and saying things like that if you don’t like me”, I argued. “It’s messing with my mind. Now leave before I kick you out of here. Literally!”                     

“I’m not”, he said. I smiled. I was not afraid to push him out of the room. I grabbed his arm and pulled him towards me but he didn’t budge. I tried again and he moved just a little.

“Ya!” I said. ”Kim Jong In! Stop it and leave already.” He shook his head. I tried pushing him this time, but I failed. I knew Kai was strong, but I didn’t know he was that strong especially since he had an injury. “Just ing leave!” I hit him in anger, but he was still standing at the same spot he was earlier. I started hitting him in every possible place I could reach feeling wronged, angered and sad. ”I don’t want you in this room. I don’t want you near me. I want you to leave me alone!” As I continued hitting and pushing him and he didn’t move, I grew tired and felt like crying for not being able to make him do what I wanted him to do, which literally summed up our entire ‘relationship’.

Kai pulled me towards him and made my head lean against his chest. He wrapped his arms around me and held me close to him. Being held by him calmed me down at the same time as it made my heart race and ache. As we stood there it became more clear to me how tired I was both mentally and physically of this 'relationship' with Kai.

“You’re awful to me”, my lower lip was trembling. I held onto his shirt. “And I hate you.”                      “I’m sorry”, he said in my ears. “I was just worried.”

“You lost every right to be worried the day you kissed me and laughed in my face. Everything was fine until then. No, actually it wasn’t. It was fine until you went out with that girl in Osaka. That’s when I started to… That’s when I started to feel worthless around you.”

“You’re right”, he agreed. His moving hands and fingers on my back kept me calm. ”I messed up and I’m sorry.”

”I feel like I don’t matter to you, Kai.” I whimpered. “Not as a friend or as a friend of the family. Not as anything.” Kai broke off his embrace and put his hands on my shoulders. He searched for my adverting eyes and finally found them.

“You do”, he said sincerely. His words where too good to be true but they sounded like the truth and although he hurt me often, I did trust him. He pulled forward his hand. “Friends?” I hesitated but ended up holding it.

”But you-”, he began but my phone rang. It was Chen. I wiped away my tears and made sure my voice was normal. I didn’t want Chen to rush over again because I was sad.

“Are you still alive?” He asked when I answered. He sounded so happy I couldn’t help but smile.

“I made it”, I answered. “Thanks for keeping me company, hope your mom wasn’t angry.”

“She’s still asleep”, he laughed. “But… I wanted to know if you wanted me to pick you up? I won’t be at school long today due to my schedule.”

“Oh”, I swooned. “Mr Chen the idol has important things to do. Soon he won’t have anytime for me.”

“Never”, he said. “I’ll always have time for you.” I felt my cheeks warm up and tried to hide my face. “I know you’re blushing.” I laughed.

“Okay”, I said. “Hang up so I can get ready. I’ll see ya.” I hung up with a smile on my lips and let out a chuckle.

“So you were actually with him?” Kai asked. I had forgotten he was standing there and was a little startled.

“Huh?”

“Last night”, he said.

“Yes”, I timidly answered. He slowly nodded and folded his arms. 

“I’ll see you in school,” he stepped out.

When the door closed I heaved out a sigh of relief. Chen and I were on good terms, and Kai and I were also on good terms. Everything in my life was finally going perfectly.

Or so I thought. A month later everything was utter . Things between Kai and me where fine. Although we didn’t really say much to each other except be casual by saying good morning and goodbye, it was better than before. The problem was between Chen and I. Ever since the outside sleepover I thought we had buried our issue but apparently not. For the past month, I had seen Chen exactly twice and both times for a minimum of half an hour.

I understood he was busy with his group debuting, however what I didn’t understand was why he would make plans with me and either never show up or simply just cancel them. He also never replied to my texts anymore and it didn’t feel good. He would regularly post on his social media yet he couldn’t find the time to answer my texts. 

For example today was Saturday and we were supposed to go to the movies. I had bought the tickets, had gotten dolled up and was a hundred percent ready to leave but he was still not replying on my texts asking where he was. Two hours had passed and I was officially over it. Maybe this was a sign that things between Chen and I weren’t meant to be, who knew? 

“You’re already back?” Kai who had just come home asked. He was walking up the stairs while I was lying down on the warm floor of the second floor. He had been present when I was going back and fourth from my bedroom to the bathroom when getting ready three hours ago and left to do whatever. It was embarrassing that he was seeing me like this, all dolled up for nothing.

“I never left”, I sighed and rolled to my other side, away from the staircase to not face him. I heard footsteps and then saw his feet in front of me. He was standing up above me. Before I knew it he lied down on the floor right next to me, but on his back so he was facing the ceiling. I waited for him to speak, anxious to know what he was thinking but he didn’t. He was quiet for a long while.

I began worrying about the fact that we were always quiet when in each other’s presence unless it had to do with arguging about some stupid drama. Like, Kai barely spoke in simple situations. Was it because we were so different? Did he maybe find me too boring to talk to because we didn’t share the same interests?

“This is cozy”, he commented. “I should do this more often.”

“You shouldn’t”, I shrugged. “This .”

“You’re saying I’m bad company?” He sounded offended.

“You never say anything”, I explained.

“Sometimes silence says more than words”, he said.

“Like what?” I laughed. “That you’re bored?”

“Sometimes but not right now”, he shook his head.

“Then tell me what this silence, that was, meant in this case.” I dared. Kai turned to his side to face me. When our eyes met, I felt nervous.

“It means I’m comfortable being this close to you”, he said. “And you are not.” I opened my mouth ready to attack but nothing came out but stutters. He was right but not really. Having him this close to me did make me feel uncomfortable but simply because his physical nearness made me nervous, excited and everything above and beyond. It made me want to get closer to him. It made me want to touch him, kiss him, feel him closer to me than was physically possible. It made me want to do things I knew I couldn’t do because we didn’t share mutual feelings for each other.

“So you’re saying you’re comfortable in my presence?” I finally managed to ask something.

“Of course”, he answered matter of factly. “Why wouldn’t I be?” I smirked.

“You see”, I began and shortened the distance that was between us so our heads where merely inches away. “I like you, so being this close to you makes me nervous thus I might seem uncomfortable.” I smirked to seem confident when deep inside I was a anxious mess and my heart was constantly beating at a scary rate. “But I am not.”

Kai didn’t react at all, nor did he move away. He continued to look at me. I wanted to kiss him. No, I needed to kiss him. My skin was literally on fire while yearning for his touch and the more he kept looking at me, the stronger it became.

My impatience finally got the best of me and I gave in. I barely needed to move to do what I had wanted to ever since summer. I simply lifted my chin up and my lips touched his. At first I just touched them and then I pressed my lips against his. Neither of our eyes were closed. I could see every pore on his face and so could he mine, but I didn’t care.

I pulled back and waited for him to do something but he didn’t. He was simply looking at me like he always did with those dark eyes of his. So I lifted my chin again and kissed him again with my eyes closed this time. I then pulled back and seeked a reaction by waiting.

“Go Ji Eun,” He finally said. “You’re playing a dangerous game.”

A/N

Whew, the Kai hate is real haha. Next chapter is going to be a game changer for everyone involved.

Also, thank you for your support guuys!