Y/N POV

The recording soon ended and I cant wait to get out of here as soon as possible. Throughout the recording, I feel super self conscious as Jimin keep on staring at me, scanning me thoroughly from head to toe. I cant help but think that he must be finding me unattractive and secretly mocking me deep down. I cant help it. Since young, I have always find myself to be unattractive, even now, I still feel inferior as compared to other people. I guess you can almost say that I have zero self confidence when it comes to my looks. 

When the staffs announces that we can go now, I quickly got onto my feet and cant wait to head back to the van. My whole mind screaming to get out of there right now before Jimin gets to do anything. Did I forgot what Jimin said just now? No I didnt. I always remember every single thing he said but I just didnt want to face him. I know I will break down infront of him if we were to be alone. Just when I was about to run out of the studio, a strong pair of hands caught my wrist and next thing I knew, I felt myself being dragged to an empty room. The next moment, I heard the sound of the door being locked. 

My eyes widen like a gold fish and my heart started beating non stop, feeling like its going to jump out any moment. The immediate thought that came to me right now was “. Why did this happen. Park Jimin is standing right there and intensely staring into my eyes.” 

I stare down at the pair of hands still grabbing onto my wrist and quickly push it away. Im going insane internally right now. Jimin is right there. We are alone, there’s noone else to help me. What should I do..?!  Run... Push him away... He's the devil that cause you to end up like this.. Make him suffer.. I heard voices in my head trying to whisper sweet nothing to me, convincing me what to do. No.. I must keep my cool. Just keep my cool and act normal.

”Oh Hi Jimin Oppa. How may I help you? Seeing that you drag me here using force, I presume its something important?”

I ask while trying to smile sweetly as possible trying not to cry right now.

”Y/N, you should know what I want. Or should I say Solhee?” 

Jimin said while moving even closer to me, still not breaking eyes contact with me. 

“Uh-hh what do you mean oppa? I don’t get what you want from me. And uh-hhh.. who is Solhee? Is that one of the girls you flirt with as a toy?”

I bite my lips and manage to reply while backing away from Jimin. 

At this point in time I could break down any moment, I need someone to save me. Anyone please. Anyone would do. Please save me and get me away from Jimin.

“I-I.. I dont know who is Solhee, Jimin Oppa. If there’s nothing else you wanna ask, I should go.”

I slide myself pass Jimin, upon reaching behind him, I could feel tears welling up in my eyes and I quickly bite my lips even harder to prevent myself from crying. 

What happens next was something I would never have expected coming from Jimin. I was about to unlock the door but came a strong arm grabbing me, turning me around and pinning me against the door. 

“W-wwhat what are you doing Jimin oppa..? You’re hurting me.. Please let go..” 

My whole world felt like its crushing down, my heart was pounding so fast. A part of me wish Jimin would kiss me and hug me tightly while a part of me just wanted to get out of there. Without noticing, a tear rolled down my cheeks..

”Sorry Y/N. I don’t mean to use force on you but I know if I dont stop you from leaving right now, I wont get another chance.”

With that, Jimin hand reaches out towards my neck and flip out the necklace that was hidden beneath my collar. 

“I knew it. You’re Solhee..”

... I knew I shouldnt have wore the necklace. I didnt expect Jimin to do that. What should I say now..? What excuses do I have? I dont think I can get through pretending Im not Solhee anymore. 

“Solhee.. You know, I missed you so much.. I cant believe I finally found you again..”

Jimin pulled me into a tight hug. 

It feels so good... Being in his arms just felt so right.. His scent.. His warmth.. Everything about him just.. Unknowingly, I snuggle my head into his neck, and my hand was gripping onto his shirt tightly. I just want to enjoy this moment right now. 

“Solhee, I know you’re hurt because of me and I know Im a jerk back then. I shouldn’t do that to you. I shouldn’t have leave you and broke the promises we made. Even if I did leave, I should have went back and find you as soon as I debuted. Sorry I left you to suffer alone in Busan. Please.. Please forgive me and give me a chance to make it up to you. No matter how many people I have dated, its just different.. They are not you.. I cant forget about you. I love you Solhee.”

What...what did he just say..? He cause me so much pain back then and he dated other people but didnt come back to find me?! Park Jimin.. I was wrong about you. You’re not just a jerk, you’re a complete bastard! I can feel my anger rise and pain overwhelms my heart. Is it even possible for a human being to feels so many emotions at once..? Longing, sadness, anger, jealousy.. I use all my strength and push Jimin, getting out of his embrace. I can see he is stun by the way his eyes widen with confusion. 

I gathered all my emotions and snapped at Jimin.

“LISTEN HERE PARK JIMIN! Thats right! Im Solhee! The very once innocent girl that faithfully thought you were the one destined for her and believed everything that you told her! But you went ahead to broke and shatter her heart into pieces even after she beg and beg countless of times! She was so dumb that she even believe you would come back for her that she waited. SHE FREAKING WAITED FOR 1YRS PLUS FOR YOU JERK. Oh but look where it got her. The famous Park Jimin didnt went back for her but instead had fun dating other girls! I-I.. I cant believe how stupid I was.. I..I no longer love you. I dont love you at all.” 

I am in a complete mess. My hair was messy, tears keep flowing non stop and my makeup was ruin. I can feel myself panting, trying to catch my breath from being too agitated. 

“Solhee.. I.. Please listen to me.. I really realise my mistake.. I really need you in my life..”

Jimin look into my eyes with sadness and he pull me into a kiss. Soft.. Sweet.. I miss everything about him.. Wake up Y/N, he's just going to whisper honey coated words to you just like he did before and leave you completely helpless when you needed him.. Don't be fool. You are nothing to him. There goes the unknown voices in my head again, ringing nonstop, confusing me with every second pass.

Did he.. did he just kiss me..?! I quickly break away from him and slap him across the cheek. 

“Dont you freaking dare kiss me. You need me in your life? Ha. Dont make me laugh. If you needed me, you wouldnt have left me and never came back. And dont you dare call me Solhee again. My name is Y/N. I repeat. MY NAME IS Y/N! SOLHEE IS DEAD.”

With that I unlock the door and ran ahead without looking back.

I know I bump into someone but I couldnt see clearly who it was with all the tears in my eyes. I keep running straight leaving behind voices that were calling out to me. 

Today is the worst day ever...

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