Joon stared hard at the window. There was nothing out there. It was dark and was storming. There was nothing. Chewing the inside of his own cheeks, he tried best not to snap. The mix of emotion was peaking inside his chest. He didn't know what he feel right now but all he know, that they were bubbling, almost overflowing like the spit of the volcano lava.

          "Hyung. You okay?"

          Joon flinched slightly, his already knitted brows frowned even deeper as he turned his head away so not to let the MBLAQ maknae saw his face.

          The other MBLAQ members were playing game in the living room except for Seungho who was sleeping after coming back from the company meeting and also him who was suddenly feeling so disturbed mentally.

          And Joon had retreated silently into the kitchen, wanting alone time for himself and he thought none of the members of MBLAQ would realized his absence but of course the noisy clingy maknae would.

          "Hyung."

          Joon pushed away Mir's hand which had landed gently on his shoulder. "Don't bother me." He warned, voice deeper than usual and his jaw started to hurt from clenching his teeth too tightly, trying to keep all of his mix feelings in check.

          When there was only silence for a minute, Joon thought Mir might finally had left but he was dead wrong when he heard short screech of the chair against the floor and shadow moved from beside him.

          Exhaling harshly, Joon chose to leave but Mir grabbed on his forearm, pulling the older until the older was sat back on the chair.

          "What the hell is wrong with you?" Joon snapped, eyes bloodshot as he turned to glare at the maknae. He didn't feel guilty or even sympathy at the maknae whom looked more than shock at his outburst but the maknae still didn't leave, just sitting there, staring at Joon with those annoyingly wide eyes. "You're annoying, you know that? ing annoying! If I want to be alone, why can't you just understand that or is your brain have no function at all? Are you too stupid to understand? I want to be alone-"

          And as Joon kept on spitting out harsh words and curse and swear, even to the point of jabbing his index finger on Mir's chest, the maknae remained silent, receiving all the pain Joon was hurling at him without any complain.

          But as Joon came to stop, breath heavy, chest heaving, eyes watery, the words that he had spat out without thinking came back to him. He hung his head low in shame. He did it again. He unleashed his fury onto the maknae again. He used the maknae as his punching bag, as his stress reliever and he was more than sure he had hurt the maknae yet again.

          "Is this about the MC just now or because Seungho hyung scolded you about commitment thingy?" Mir broke the silence, smiling kindly at his hyung when Joon lift his head, staring back at Mir with wide surprised eyes which then swarmed with guilt. "Maybe both? And maybe even more?"

          "Cheolyong-ah. I'm sorry. What I said-"

          "You didn't mean it. You're just too nice, hyung."

          Joon blinked before he scoffed at Mir. "I'm nice? After all those trash-talking, you're saying I'm nice?"

          Mir shrugged. "Because you're too nice, you hold everything in. You can't help but to explode sooner or later. It just happen that I was near when that happen." Mir patted on Joon's back, his touch radiated nothing but tenderness and kindness, just like the maknae himself. "You don't have to be sorry. Plus, you're right. I was dense sometimes but... It's not like I don't understand you want to be alone... I just... I... I can't leave you alone. Not like this."

          Joon closed his eyes, feeling tears threatened to escape. True, he was stressed out. A lot of things were chipping on his sanity and why was it always Mir whom got the brunt of it? He used to think because Mir was the maknae and Mir was too dense to realize his condition and escape before he exploded but that wasn't it. Mir knew. Mir knew yet he stayed. No. It was because he knew that he stayed.

          "Hyung." Mir called out again, slipping off of the chair and kneeled onto the floor in front of Joon who was still sitting on the chair. Mir waited until Joon finally opened his eyes again and offered the older yet another soft smile. "Do you need a hug?"

          Despite all those mix feeling growling, roaring, screaming inside of his chest, wanting to jump out and hurt someone, a smile crept on Joon's lips. Mir was such a lovely maknae sometimes.

          "Yea. I guess I need a long tight hug."

          Mir beamed and threw himself at Joon, giving comfort and support Joon didn't even realized he needed before.