FINALLY! Winter break is here. Exam's are done and i am free to relax and enjoy myself. 

As i left school i received a text from Junhoe who had asked to meet him at the local cafe for some hot chocolate. I made my way over there as soon as i dropped my school bag off at home and changed into some comfortable clothing. 

I walked into the cafe and saw Junhoe sitting in one of the back tables (probably to avoid any unnecessary attention), He was blowing on the hot chocolate in front of him, to cool it down while another waiting patiently for my arrival. 

"hey Junhoe!" i smiled and waved at him as he sat up straight once he saw me coming his way 

"i ordered ahead of time, i hope you dont mind" 

"not at all! thank you for the hot chocolate!" i put my hands around the cup to warm them up while i took a quick sip of the drink 

"are the other guys not coming? i didnt get a text from Hanbin" 

"oh yea they couldnt come......" Junhoe fidgeted with his drink for a bit until he finally spoke once more, "truthfully, i didnt really tell the other guys we'd be meeting today....." 

"oh..okay" i paused from my second sip of the drink, "is everything alright?" The environment got a bit more serious now 

Junhoe tucked his feet under his chair and rolled up the sides of his sweater as he crossed his arms. "do you like anyone?" he asks unexpectedly 

i choked on the sip of hot chocolate i took, as he spoke... "like?..." 

"yea as in do you find anyone suitable to be by your side" he asks so calmly and was very straight forward 

"Junhoe.... i dont think ive met anyone or known anyone long enough to even consider something like that" i laughed awkwardly hoping he'd change the topic

"not even Hanbin?"

Oh God...... why are you asking me this.....why am i hesitating.......hanbin and i are just friends......plus he'd never want to be with me and i dont think i wanna be with him......but why am i hesitating......

"woah Junhoe aha you really have a lot of questions today" i sipped on my drink to avoid answering 

"Jen if you're hesitating im gunna take that as a 'yes' to you liking him" 

"what!?! wait no! i mean Hanbin and i are close.... i really dont think he would think of me that way" 

"im not asking about his feelings, im asking about yours" 

what the hell man, can you just let it go..... i dont know what to say.... truthfully i didnt even know my own fe