A/N: 
Took a new turn to this story. 
I apologize in advance if this isnt your 'cup of tea'

D: 

Happy reading though <3 
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---we argued----
----we fought-----
---things went bad real quick----
----things changed-----
---we were never the same again----
---love is like glass----
---shattered glass----

"why are you always like this?!?"
"stop pinning all your faults on me!"
"i cant take this, im going"
"no one's asking you to stay"

"just stay for one night?" 
"ill even talk to your mom tomorrow, im sure she wont mind" 
"no hanbin, i should be with her tonight. it's been a while since ive gotten to see her" 
"just one night? We need to figure out...us" 
"alright"  

Those words were pounding my head as i sat outside of my mother's room, unable to feel my limbs or the floor under me. I was broken. I was torn apart. 
I was nothing. 

At 7:54am on January 16 of 2016..... i had lost the one person who meant the most to me. My mother. 

Nurses rushed around me, stepping over me as if i didnt exist. Rushing inside the room to help the lifeless body now resting in the bed. Doctors screamed for machines and tools..... all for nothing.... i knew it was the end.... she was gone. 

If only i had come sooner

if only i spent more time 

if only i hadnt met hanbin. 

The cancer spread too fast too soon. I knew she wasnt doing well, but i never thought things would end up like this. She was a fighter. A warrior. It was never meant to end like this. 

"hey sweetie? Are you alright?" 

Am i alright? Funny how someone can ask such an idiotic question at a time like this 

"come, you dont need to see this. You havent slept since you came here, let me take you to the waiting room to grab something to drink" 

"im fine" i lied 

She understood what that meant and left me alone. So many people were around me, hovering into the room to help the doctors or waiting to empty the room. All these people....... i had never felt so alone in my whole entire life. 

I slowly got up from where i was sitting to look back