"What song do you to hear live so bad?" Ella asks. We have been watching fancams and exo videos for the whole night. They had 'slept over' on my house. Although, I wouldn't call it a sleep over since we ended up not having a decent amount of sleep. We were all just so excited that reality is better than dreams and we can't sleep. Ella and Cassie were engaged on the laptop, flopped on my bed while I was standing on the room because I needed to stretch some bones. I was staring at the flowers that were still not withered, surprisingly even after a few days. Flowers have meanings right? The bouquet of white flowers meant innocence and purity right? But what's really appealing was the different colors of carnation flowers on the other flower basket. It's so colorful!

"Hey Ella, can you check what a Pink Carnation flower means?" Ella starts typing on google.

"It says here that it means 'I'll Never Forget You' Yieeeee!" Ella suddenly teases.

"What colors are there besides the pink?" Cassie excitedly asks.

"Red, a striped looking one, and white."

"Red Carnation means 'My heart aches for you or admiration'." Cassie reads.

"Carnation with striped petals means 'Wish I could be with you' and White means 'Sweet and Lovely'" Ella reads loudly.

"That is just so sweet that I think I'm shipping you with Seojun!" Cassie exclaims.

"Guys, I don't think I'm ready for those stuff." I told them frankly.

"Is this because of Kai?" Cassie asks. I stare at the bear that exo gave me as I sit on the edge of the bed.

"Oh Come on, Aria. We both know that it wouldn't work out since the start, right?" Ella says. She's right. No relationship lasts especially with a celebrity. I nodded in agreement.

"Besides, it was actually over before it started. I knew that." I said. Hearing those words made my heart ache. There's something really unforgettable when you're in another place with someone who had been the source of happiness while you were there. It that the memories of my Seoul trip was just full of him. Now I don't know if I enjoyed it or it just became a tool for the emerging of a problem.

"Let's just enjoy tonight okay? Exostans forever, remember?" Cassie assures.

"Definitely!" Ella answers. "Anyway, going back to my question... What do you guys want to hear live?"

"Everything!" Cassie exclaimed.

"Me too but I want to see Overdose, Growl, Lucky, Moonlight, What is Love, Thunder, and Love, Love, Love! Gosh. They're too y when they dance. I... Just... Can't..." I stated.

"Gosh your faves are my faves plus Peter Pan!" Ella added.

"Now, what do we wear?" Cassie immediately jumps out of bed and walks to my closet. She scans until she finds something she likes.

"Wear this! This looks nice. I haven't seen this. This looks like an exo member fashion. You would look nice on this. You will fit really well on this." Cassie exclaims as she was holding the sweatshirt that Kai has given me on the exo day. Ella looks at me, waiting for my reaction.

"Aria would look like a guy when she wears a sweatshirt." Ella answers.

"No, it's okay. Do you really think it would look decent on me?" I asked them. Ella looked apologetic. "It's okay... she doesn't know..." I whispered to Ella.

"Yeah, I mean... It's comfy and cute.You're type of concert clothes vibes." Cassie replies.

"Well then, I'll wear that." I took the sweatshirt from her hands and placed it on the bedside table. You guys better look for something to wear or did you bring  something already?"I asked.

"I have mine."Ella says.

"Me too." Cassie added.

We prepared for the concert and when we were done, mom dropped us to the venue. We immediately lined up to the long queue on the official merch. We bought glowsticks and shirts. The concert doesn't start until 8 and it was still 4 o'clock in the afternoon. The venue was closed, therefore, it wasn't so much hot. In fact, it was quite cold. Maybe, the hotness will just be present when everyone suddenly squeezes and struggles to get near to the stage.

"Should we eat first?" Ella asks.

"Yeah, so and let's buy some water because we'll get thirsty on the concert for sure." I replied. We went out of the actual concert place and looked around the stadium  for food stalls. As we walk, some people actually recognized me and Ella as the two who got to be on the exo day. I know this because they would look at the two of us and then engage into whispers then their friends would give us a long stare. I don't know if it meant a good stare or a bad one. Some also recognize me as the girl who got close with exo. I heard it say it themselves. I pretend not to hear of course. I just want to enjoy this day. I actually feel scared on how I will feel when I see them.  Did they change or will they still say hi to us? I don't know for sure that's why I'm a little bit nervous. We finally settle in for some pizza and ate it all. We also bought some starbucks for some caffeine. Got to have that extra rush in the blood for concerts! We finally finish eating at about 6:30pm. When we went back to the actual concert place, the arena was already packed. It got our adrenaline running too.

"Will you do fancams?" Cassie asked as she pulls out a camera from her purse.

"I don't know... I mean, to fully enjoy the concert, you should focus on the actual concert." Ella replies.

"Well, now that you've mentioned focus... This camera will be Luhan focused." Cassie claps eagerly.

"Baliw!(Crazy!) Stop spazzing or else you'll be dead even before the concert starts. Calm down first." Ella chuckles.

We waited until the lights suddenly dimmed and then the countdown started. I've seen this introduction for a couple of times on fancams but watching it live is different. I could here the screams ringing on your ear. It wasn't noise but it was a melody. The screams make it more exciting. I look around the arena as glow sticks light everywhere. They start off with Overdose. My heart may be beating faster than the speed of light. It's hard to breathe especially when we're located near them. I thought I wouldn't feel like this anymore since we've actually hang out with them but the feeling doesn't change especially seeing them live in a concert and with my bestest friends. As we were jumping to the songs, Baekhyun-oppa and I met eye-to-eye and he smiles a little wider and waves. I wave back as the other people beside me also wave back, thinking that Baek-oppa was waving at them. It made me think for a moment, did he actually see me or was I one of the fangirls who think that an exo member said hi to them?

The concert was going smoothly. Sehun had seen me already and winked. He really knew how a fangirl of his will swoon over him. When Kai actually goes near, I try to not look at him. Looking at him from afar, he looked so beautiful, and I know it's not the manliest adjective to be used in describing a guy but it's the only suited word for him. The way he danced was incredible. Every move was flawless, maybe that's why they call him the 'dancing machine'. He was sweaty and he looked tired every after dance song but when he smiles, you'd know that every sweat dropped was worth it. He drinks from a water bottle and how I wish that on my next life, I'll be Kai's water bottle. As I was trying to erase my dirty thoughts, it took me a while to realize that his eyes had met mine. Everything that happened seemed to replay. My Seoul trip and his interview about me. My heart suddenly sank. I don't know what to feel towards him. I know for a fact that I'm attracted to him but it enrages me to know that he had lied to the world and denied our true relationship (If it was even true). What's worst was that I was not informed about it first hand and it caused me to be bullied on the internet. I looked down immediately. Trying to get back to my senses.

Ella seemed to notice because she asked, "Hey, are you okay?"

"I'm fine, I'm just a little dizzy... I'll go to the restroom for a sec, okay?" I told her.

"Sure." She my back as I walk towards the exit doors of the arena. I find my way to the restroom which was empty. The booming of the sounds from the concert hall still audible from a distant. I washed my face and dried. 

As I walk out of the restroom, I could hear the intro melody of lucky being played more than usual. Why isn't Baekhyun singing the first line? I hurry back to see what was going on. It was when I was about to open the arena that Baekhyun started singing. The whole arena went wild as Baekhyun walks in an aisle from one of the bleachers, a spotlight focused on him. 

I walk slowly, trying to memorize everything happening on the concert. The arena went crazier and louder when Baekhyun leaned his head to a fan's shoulder. Then suddenly, a blinding light hit my eyes. I couldn't hear anything except for the loud roaring of fans. Someone grabbed my hand, his silhouette forms from the spotlight behind him. I could hear Kai's voice echoing the arena as the crowd went wilder. It took me a while to realize that he was the one holding my hand, singing his line in lucky. My heart started pumping a little faster than the speed of light, if that was even possible. When his line was done, the spotlight focused to another part of the arena. My hand was suddenly dragged out of the doors and into what seemed like the backstage because everyone had headsets and was doing something that looked so important. When the dragging stopped, Kai let go of my hand and caught his breath.

"Aria..." He pants. His eyes were locked on mine. His brown eyes were still breath taking. I couldn't say anything much more do anything but to stare at him. Hoping that he would get the hint that I want him to continue talking.
"Let me explain everything to you. Our concert will be over soon, can we please meet after our concert? Go to the hotel we're staying at and let's talk there, jaebal(please.)." I nod in response. I wanted to tell him that his English has gotten better but I didn't think that it was time for some small talk since he was busy.
"Gomawo. See you!" He says, "Please her to our hotel later but right now please her back to her seat." He commands a staff and the staff escorted me back.
"Aria! Daebak! He still has feelings for you!!" Cassie screams as she squeezes both my arms.
I silently thanked the darkness of the venue because it hid my blushing face. "He wants to talk to me after the concert. I want you guys to come with me, just in case it turns out bad." I told them.
"No problem bae." Ella answered.

When the amazing concert was done, a staff offered himself to take us to the hotel. We follow him to a heavily tinted car on the basement of the arena. We were escorted to one hotel room suite. It was really big and inside was Baekhyun, Chanyeol, Sehun, and Kai. They're probably roommates.

"Aria!! Ella!!" Sehun suddenly hopped out of the bed and went to hug me and Ella.
"Sehun, this is my other bestfriend, Cassie." I point to Cassie who seemed to have froze from her tracks.
"Annyeong!" Sehun shook the hand of Cassie. She was almost in tears when he did it. Kai walks pass me and covered my eyes with his hands. They suddenly sang the birthday song in Korean. Ella and Cassie also joined them, clapping. When Kai uncovered my eyes, staring right into my face was a birthday cake with a little candle in the middle. When they were done singing, I blew the candle.
"Happy Birthday, Aria." Chanyeol-oppa said.
"Gomawo, oppa." I smiled.
"Did you receive the flowers I sent you on the day of your birthday?" Kai asked. My head suddenly got confused. Seojun said he sent flowers on my birthday too. Kai may have seen my confused face because his next words were, "the carnations, I sent you those." He said. "Aish, I should've confirmed if it was given or not. You didn't get it did you? I swear I gave the right address." He kept talking.
"So the carnations were from you?" Ella asked and Kai nodded.
"Oh, so maybe the roses were from Seojun. We thought both were from Seojun." Cassie said, puzzling it all together.
"Huh? Someone sent you roses? Who?" Kai questioned. His eyes focused on me.
"Seojun, a friend of ours. He's also korean." I told him. I remembered the meanings of the carnations. Every color had different meaning and I couldn't help but smile at how it was such a thoughtful effort.
"I bought you dinner. Would you mind going with me on another room?" Kai said, changing the subject. I nodded.
"Hey hey heyyyyyy. Don't do anything you will regret later." Baekhyun-oppa said, winking at the end of his sentence.
"We'll take care of your friends for a while." Sehun said.
"Sehun, behave!" I joked. He responded by saluting playfully. "Ella, can you try and call Seojun and ask if he can pick us up here? My parents will flip if they find out about going to some guy's hotel." Ella laughs but nods.

Kai escorted me to a smaller room. He didn't look at me the whole time we were walking. He looked nervous. The room was rearranged. There was no bed but a round table in the middle of the room. A waiter was preparing the dishes on the side. He offers red wine and we each got a glass.
"Thank you for the flowers." I said, breaking the silence.
"You're welcome." He smiled his most enchanting smile. The one I've waited for so long to see up close again.
The waiter served a shrimp dish and we started eating. "Let's eat. I heard you like shrimp." Kai said and I nodded in agreement. Actually, I prefer eating shrimp right after I hear some bad news. It was one of the stress reliever food. That's why whenever I eat shrimp, it reminds me that I have just received a bad news. I don't know if he was informed about it but I prefer to not share this information since he had taken effort for this, We started eating but I couldn't help but notice at how slow he was when taking the skin or whatever of the shrimp. 
"Let me help you." I took the shrimp he was trying to get out from its soft shell. I am an expert at this.
"Thank you. Do you usually do that for people?" He asked.
"No, just for special ones." I blush at my blunt statement.
"Aria, I'm sorry about that interview. You deserve better than that and I know I'm such a jerk by lying and putting you out to fight the bullying alone. It was the management's choice to keep it that way. If I had a say to how my life works right now, I'd tell the whole world that it was all true." I knew exactly what interview he meant. I put the ready-to-eat shrimp back to his plate.
"It's alright. I just wished that I was informed before the breaking of the news because o wasn't prepared to face it alone." I felt tears building up on my eyes. I remember that sometimes, I couldn't bear the bullying on my profiles. And the fact that I had no ideas on whether anything was true or not.
"Aria, 미안해..." (mianhae, sorry) Kai said.
"It's alright. At least now I know." I told him as I try not to play with the shrimps on my plate.
"Aria, I hope you could forgive me and stay friends with me." Kai says. His words suddenly tore me apart. Friends? Oh okay. I see where this has went. From chasing me to the airport and kissing me recklessly to back to being friends? I swear, the mind of this guy's truly difficult to read.
"I forgive you and of course we can still be friends." I try my best to smile but inside it feels as if my heart is being wrecked by a missile hitting right at the center of my heart, causing it to shatter into pieces.
"Thank you, Aria." He said.
I ate one shrimp to relieve my stress. Suddenly, my phone beeps and it somehow diverted my focus. "Seojun's waiting in the lobby. Text me when you're done." Ella texted.
"I need to go, Seojun's waiting in the lobby." I stood up.
"But we haven't even started eating." He stood up as well.
"Sorry, I just... I need to go..." I told him and he nods as we walk silently back to their suite.
"Let's go." I said to no one in particular as soon as Kai opened the door. Ella and Cassie suddenly stood up from a bed and started walking towards me.
"Alright, see you on Monday!" Cassie waved to them.
"Annyeong!!" They bid goodbye.