I'm on way to the shrink. 
Gosh. Hyera really got talent in convincing people. I'd rather drive home.


After I talked with the receptionist I step inside the waiting room. 
Hanging my jacket to the only other one. 
It seems quiet familiar and I turn around to get a glimpse of the owner of this jacket.
I freeze. 

"Key?!"

He's sitting there with wide eyes. My mouth goes dry. 

He says nothing.

"What the are you doing here?!" 

Did he do that on purpose?! Is he stalking me now? 

Wait. 
He was here before me. 
No stalking.

"Onew" He told me.

Onew? Is Onew with the shrink? 
Did Onew force him to go here? 
What 'Onew'?

"What's with Onew?" I ask him.

He shakes his head. Looking down. "He got me here, because I refused to talk"

I sigh, thinking about my next step. 
I take all my courage and sit next to him. 
I feel how he gets nervous. He starts to move his foot up and down. 
I lay my hand on his knee which is shaking. 
It hurts to see him like that. 
He looks..... broken. 

His head shoots up. Eyes wide. 
I give him a weak smile. 
Closing my eyes for some seconds so I wouldn't lose the control and cry.

"Why are you here?" He asks. His voice is calm. Soothing me.

"Hyera" I chuckle. 

"I have those dreams-" I stop. 

Should I tell him that I have nightmares about him?

"What dreams?" He asks. A proof that he still cares.

The nice lady from receptions saves me. 

"Mr. Kim kibum"

Key glances up at her. "One second"

"(YN) what dreams?" He looks me in the eyes.

"Oh so you both know each other? I think Dr. Arin would have no problem speaking with you two at the same time"

No. No good idea.

"Yeah, that's a wonderful idea." Key looks up at the lady.

He stands up. 
Giving me his hand. 
It's like in my dream. My eyes widen. 

I stand up. Without taking his hand. 
He looks at me confused.



The room of Dr. Arin is nice. It looks comfy. Two couches are standing L-shaped next to each other. 
I sit down at first. Key next to me two feet or so away from me. 
I look at Dr. Arin. She is maybe 40. Black hair which goes to her shoulders.

"Oh, so we have two now"  She says, looking questioningly at us.

Neither me or Key say something.

"Okayyy" She rubs her hands together. "So, who wants to start?"

Silence.





"I refused to talk because of her" Key blurts out after some minutes.

My head shoots in his direction. Eyes wide. He is pointing at me. 

"No, you refused to talk because you were jealous of Jonghyun and Onew" I explain calmly.

"Yeah, why would you meet up with them but not with ME?!?!?!?!" He raises his voice.

"Because they are friends, Key!!! They are just friends!!!!" I shout back. 

Hell, no need to get snappy!
What is his problem now?

"That's not fair!!! You gave them a second chance but not me!!!!!"

"NO. They didn't need a second chance, Key!!! They did nothing wrong!!!"

Key stays silent.

"You were the only reason we didn't stay in contact." I add quietly.

Again. Silence.

"Why can't you give me second chance?! Huh?!" He asks, his eyes cold.

I think about it.
Yeah, (YN). Why can't you give him a second chance?!

"Because you broke my heart once, I don't want it to happen a second time" Tears are building in my eyes.

Silence. Again.
Just the tick-tack from the wall clock is interrupting it.

"So, you both were a couple and you broke up. (YN) met some friends of yours and you got jealous because you couldn't understand why she gave them a chance. Is that right?"  Dr. Arin summarizes the whole situation. Wow. She's gooooood.

"Yeah" Key says. 

I can't look at him. 
If I would I'd probably break down.

"Key, you came because a friend of yours came and told me you refused to talk to him and his friend. But I want to know why you came originally (YN)"

I stay silent, I don't want to talk in front of Key about my dreams.

"The ! (YN)!!! Just tell it already!!!" He loses it first.

"Key." Dr. Arin gives him a glare. 

"Maybe it would be better if you go outside for a while and -"

"NO" Key interrupts her. "I'm not going anywhere."

Dr. Arin sighs. "(YN) do you want that Key goes out of the room? We have two nice security guys who could show him out."


No.
I don't want Key to get kicked out. 
Actually all I want is to cuddle against his chest and cry. 
I know it's impossible to believe, but I missed his stubbornness. 
I don't know why but I do it. 
I crawl over to him, hug him and cry. He didn't move at first. I felt awkward. But after some seconds he puts his arms around me and holds me tight. 

I feel safe again. I sob into his chest. His smell surrounding me. 
I didn't feel this comfortable since Key and I broke up. Not even Jonghyun's embrace could make me feel this good.

"Shhhhh" He with his hand over my back. 

It's soothing me.
After I calmed down a bit. I sit up. 
But not leaving Key's embrace.

"I had flashbacks of our relationship." I admit. 

"But it's new that I have nightmares" I try to cuddle myself deeper in his arms. 

His embrace getting automatically tighter.

"What happens in those nightmares?" Dr. Arin wants to know.

"Well, till now I just had two" I look down at Key's arms around me.

"What was the first about?" Dr. Arin's sympathetic voice asks.

"Key pleaded me to stay. I wanted to stay. But my feet dragged me away." Key's grip on me got even tighter.

"And the second one?" Her smile insures me.

"I got home and called for Key. I heard moans so I went upstairs and he was in bed........ With Nicole."

Key gasps.

"I wanted to run but my feet were kinda glued to the ground and then spiders crawled up my legs. After I screamed Key lay alone in his bed and he jumped up and came to me and told me he could help."

Dr. Arin nods. "Who is Nicole?"

"My ex" Key says.

"He left me for Nicole" I explain to Dr. Arin. 

"I could literally watch how our relationship broke apart." My voice breaks. Tears welling up in my eyes, again.

I feel how Key tries to suppress a sob. "I didn't want to hurt you. I was a selfish idiot. I noticed what I had as I lost it." 

I can't breath anymore because Key's grip got too tight. 

"Key" I try to calm him... and to breath.

His grip looses instantly.

"So, in your first dream your feet dragged you away from him even if you wanted to stay. And in your second dream they were glued to the ground when you didn't want to stay. Is that right?" Dr. Arin asks. Eyebrow raised.

"I didn't see it like that. But now where you say it... Yes." I nod.

Key's grip starts to get tighter again. 
Gosh. 

"Key, I'm not gonna run away. No need to squash me."

"Sorry" He murmurs. 
But his grip doesn't get any looser.

"It's obvious" Dr. Arin blurts out.

Huh. What? 
Key looks as confused as me.

"Don't you see it? You are definitely still in love. The dreams just show it. You didn't want to leave him. And as he was with this other girl, the name is not important, you got scared that he would break your heart again. That are signs from your subconscious. You want to be together with him. But you are afraid that it won't work. That you end up broken hearted again." 

Wow, this woman is good.
Are shrinks supposed to say something like that?! 
I don't know.
But is it really true?
 

to be continued....

Well people, this story comes to an end....
The next chapter will be the last..... 
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